Salt Lake City and The Match Making Game

I guess being a parent means embarrassing your own kids hahaha. Its like their Job and they are good at it even if they get their crazy friends in on it too. I'm pretty sure i'm not the only daughter in the world that's single and got embarrassed by my mom and her friend. So we decided to go up to Salt Lake last Friday to go look at the lights at temple square. This is what went down they decided to play match maker. You can just imagine how i feel about this. I wanted to get out of there cause of lovey dove couples making me feel all lonely like wheres my boyfriend at. We were at City Creek Mall across from the Temple and we went to Dessert Book and at first we were just buying items and looking around and well we get done. There's this really cute boy that worked there and i was in the mood of i don't really care. Well we get done buying our stuff and we walk out of the store and continue to walk down the street and we go to Temple square to look at lights and they were talking about the cute boy at the store and i wasn't really paying attention and than we finally left to go find a chocolate place and we get some chocolate and after that we were almost ready to leave and than that's when my mom and her friend decided to play match maker cause my mom and her friend were asking me what i wanted to do i said i don't know i wanna leave i really wanted to i couldn't handle being in a place with lovey dove couples that kept showing PDA and making me feel so lonely so my mom and her friend were like i think we should go back to the store and get that cute boys name and number. I just was in the whatever mood and went through with it to see what would happen and all the sudden before i know it were walking back to the book store we were at and i was just snacking away on my chocolate and than my moms friend had me hiding and i hid between some book cases. I don't know if he saw me but i saw him and his whole reaction on this. I myself was embarrassed i bet i was red in the face too and i just watched his reaction, Poor boy was shocked and embarrassed and shaking his face turned so red and it was so bad his co worker who was a girl happened to happily offer him a pen to write down his name and number like she was excited for it. LOL i don't think its really funny anymore but we still laugh about it but he probably wont find it funny. I wanted to so badly go up to him and apologize for what went down but i didn't i was to embarrassed to go up to him and i walked out of the store hiding my face cause i was to embarrassed by what happened. Well now i got his name and number and i actually got to talk to him about what went down and apologized for what my moms friend did and he was okay with it and we both agreed to being friends so now were friends. And than they wanted to play match maker again with this other boy they saw. Like nope were not playing anymore no no no hahahaha. Gotta love being single.

One of the Best Things I Did This Year

With everything I've been going through this year. Its been the hardest year ever and I remind myself i'm just at the beginning of what i'm being put through. So out of everything going on with me I wanted to a least do something to make me somewhat happy. I colored my hair i got sick of the dark brown hair and went to light brown with caramel highlights and i love it. I'm not really a fan of my dark brown hair at all. Light brown hair matches me so much better.

Disney Junior Dr McStuffins no Sew Tie Blanket

I know i have this on my other blog but sometimes its worth sharing twice. I decided to make small no tie blankets for toddlers and its on my Etsy page for sale. I don't know who this character is but little kids seem to know who she is. I made it small so it can fit toddlers its a cute one though any little girl would love this blanket and its only for $20.00 cheaper than the other blankets i have on Etsy perfect for gifts or just to have. There's a boy one coming soon.

My Etsy Store

I don't think i have shared this on my blog yet. My Etsy store.

If you click on the picture it will take you to my Etsy store. Take a look at the blankets i have for sale. If you know anyone that would like one now is the time to get one.

Blankets

Even though I have put this on my other blog that i have. I've got a ton of blankets i'm selling or need to get rid of. I can customize them make them bigger make them anyway someone wants like a certain character or color or pattern. Someone has already wanted one customized and i'm working on getting it all for them. Take a look at my Etsy shop on Etsy you can go to my other blog for more stuff that I've made. Here's the blankets so far that i have. I think 25.00 is a good amount for them I have had them for 20 dollars too. They will make good gifts or just to have. As much fun as i have making them i want someone else to take them and have them and they are so warm. Here's all the blankets that are up for sale. Whatever ends up happening I'll be happy to sell them to someone or give them to someone that could put these to use. Especially if you don't have time to make blankets i'll happily make blankets.

Tinker Bell

Disney Frozen Olaf

Disney Frozen Elsa and Anna

Disney Cars

Got Blankets for both Boys and Girls. I've tried to do the popular ones cause i know what kids would like and cars has been popular ever since 2006 and even though Tinker Bell may be somewhat not on the popular kid list and i know frozen is the popular one with kids now days. I've got 3 others coming soon Barbie, another frozen Elsa and Anna one and the popular movie the Avengers. they have been so fun to make.

My Best Friend Tyler

It's so weird how you can just think about someone and talk about them and than find out the worst news about them. That had happened and here me and my Best Friend were just talking about him and thinking about him last Friday when we hung out. Like it was a sign or something and than on Monday find out the worst news of all time. I had no idea what had happened. Well Sunday night i clicked his name on Facebook cause someone had written "thinking of you hang in there" like okay that's a little odd. Not thinking of anything at the time the next day went by. Monday night came and all the sudden this thing pops up on my Facebook Feed page and there was a boy that was laying on the hospital bed hooked up to machines and casts on and tubes he's on life support too and it said something like a name Tyler just scrolled through it and than saw a picture of a boy Tyler my Best Friend... I thought wait that's Tyler my Best Friend. Clicked the link and read the most horrible news ever. It was him laying in the hospital bed all covered up. He had fallen off a cliff sometime last week. Not sure exactly why or what he was doing in the canyon we had no idea he was even home visiting. And here i am reading through the posts of what he has been through and what they know what happened so far. He fell 100 - 150 feet off the cliff and landed in rocks and brushes. He was wearing a helmet he was on his motorcycle too. And he's alive he survived he's the one in the hospital on life support and had tubes hooked to him. :( broke my heart to see him that way from the pictures i've seen from the blog thats been updated. I couldn't believe it. Ty guy has been hurt and suffering and to think he's alive and here on earth after that fall happened. He has a broken body though almost every bone in his body is broken. He has to go through so many surgery's to get fixed. Poor boy. I've read that he's been awake and crying in pain cause it hurts. I hope he knows he's loved right now. I hope heavenly father is on his side cheering him on to make it through I can tell heavenly father isnt ready to have him come home yet for good he's got a life to live. I've just been dying to see that boy.
Prayers and good vibes going your way Ty Guy. Hang in there. Stay strong. Your doing good so far. Its amazing he's pulling through like a trooper even though he doesn't like it at all. He took a good hard fall. Hopefully when he is able to talk again without tubes in the way he hopefully will open up about how the fall happened and what caused it and it sounds like he will be coming off life support this weekend once they know he will be able to breathe on his own from what i read. He's my best friend. I'm so glad he's still here on earth. Hope he knows his friends and family are here for him and supporting him every step of the way. I bet he can't wait to talk and breathe on his own again. We've been thinking about him ever since this has happened even way before that but more now than ever. I know me and my best friend Shaliece have been dying to see him again way before this happened. But i never thought i'd be seeing him like this for the first time in almost maybe 2 years ago or 3 years ago. We hope he can make a full recovery. He needs all the prayers and Good vibes. Nothing but the best for him. He's got a long recovery to look forward to and hopefully he will pull right through with no problem. luckily he was wearing a helmet. and I'm just glad that 3 girls had found him and came to his rescue and helped call 911 and got him to the hospital in time. He's one lucky boy if he survived the fall. Can't wait to see him soon. I bet he would be so happy to see me and Shaliece for the first time and hopefully we can find out what hospital he's at and see him or just wait till he gets out of the hospital and goes home. I rather have him this way instead of finding out that he died after he fell. Especially since the boys are all out on Missions and won't be home till next year. Hope he gets feeling better soon too. I bet he's ready to just get out of that hospital bed and go to his own bed. Keep it up Ty Guy you got this were here cheering you on and encouraging you to get through it. Its been the hardest saddest thing i've heard but he's gonna be okay. and i'm not trying to worry to much cause he's still hanging in there. One strong awesome guy. we love you Ty Guy. Keep fighting through it. and we will come see him soon (:

The Fun of Moving

I know we move a lot. We didnt end up moving this year. So next year for sure. Moving sucks i hate it. I rather just stay in one house. I know its good to move once in awhile but its becoming to much and its sad when we can't afford our house anymore. My friends in Spanish Fork are so happy to hear that we might move back to Spanish Fork except my nit wit buddy Ross doesn't know and I dont think he will care. Since Spanish fork is growing so much now more than ever. So much job opportunities for us with everything new coming in. If we do move back to Spanish fork were gonna move in May or June when Paul finishes out 6th grade. So he will get to go to a new School for Junior high. If we do move to Spanish fork my mom is thinking of putting Paul in a Charter school. I know my Best Friend Shaliece wont be to happy to hear that we might end up moving to Spanish fork to expensive to live up here anymore its sad how Spanish fork is the only place that has cheap houses we were even looking at Payson too. cause its so much cheaper in Spanish Fork or Payson we found some houses that we'd like to look at. I know i won't see Shaliece very much anymore if we do. But you gotta do what you gotta do. She's not in the best of situation either i mean it could be worse and she could be like me and have to move every 2 or 3 years and not have a stable home. I mean my mom and dad are trying to make ends meet. Yes Spanish fork is my childhood hometown. I would be happy to live in Spanish Fork again. Than i could see my BFF more and see my other friends that live there. Its not fun at all. I mean unless something changes in me and i get a job and get an apartment but lately it seems like kids end up moving back home with their parents even though they are married cause its just to hard to make ends meet. I mean its hard to make it on your own now days. Its sad. I honestly wish we didn't even move in the first place at all. But when you can't afford the place you live in anymore. You gotta move on to something cheaper and better for you and the family. But i think it will be best for us anyways. Moving is gonna happen next year. I'm not even thrilled that were still living here in this house. But we need change and something new in our life.
hopefully it will work out for the best.

I Look Forward to The Day I get Jaw Surgery

I know i probably sound crazy for saying this but i seriously can't wait to have surgery done on my Jaw. As much as pain i've been dealing with since New years eve / New years day of last year problems are getting more worse. I've been fed up with it. No doubt there are days i just wanna break my jaw and scream bloody murder and have a mouth full of blood and go to the ER. I know i already been put through a lot at the beginning of the year. I know i was taken off food for a good few months and put on a soft food no chew diet. And i've lost so much weight due to that. I know i don't need to loose weight anymore. But i'm getting fed up with my jaw problem. By the end of next year all of its gonna be fixed. I know it wont be an easy thing to go through recovery time will be really hard especially the first 6 weeks with no food just a liquid diet. I gotta get it all fixed before it leads to more problems and i'm so happy to finally get it over with i look forward to that day when i get to be put under and all drugged up while they fix my lovely fun mess that i'm dealing with. I know i've put a lot of thought into this and my family and friends know about it. But i'll be more happier once its all taken care of i wont have pressure to my head anymore and i will be able to eat with out my under bite bugging me. its hopefully gonna be worth it in the end. and maybe that will put the end to my migraine headaches so i dont have them twice as much. Hopefully braces will come on soon for the surgery.

3 Years ago

3 years ago we lost my Grandma Carroll. 3 years ago I must of been crazy wanting to hug my grandma that's all i wanted to do hug my grandma. But it never happened. One thing I'm happy about was she got to be here for my high school graduation. I knew she wouldn't live long but i remember Junior year i wouldn't stop saying i want grandma here for my Graduation I wasn't gonna let her go until after i graduated than she could go. Its taken me a year or so to get over her death. My heart was so broken. And to want to hug her one last time I never did and i guess when we meet again she's gonna get that hug and she's not gonna get away without it. 3 years ago i had a dream about her after she died. Being able to have that special moment with her before she went to the other side. I just remember being so upset over her dying i was in a room with her in her casket and it was dark she heard me crying and she said Jessica come here. I went up to her casket and said what? she told me I want you to know everything's gonna be okay. I want you to be happy. I know I wont be here anymore but i will always be here just in your heart now. and she said I want you to know I love you. 

Every now and than i get asked if i see my Grandma in my dreams nope i haven't seen her since that dream. But I can say she looks young again. She's right everything is okay and she has been in my heart she's got a special place in my heart. That was something special that happened i dont know how i got lucky and she chose me out of everyone in the family she chose me to have the dream. I know she's in a better life. She's with my Grandpa again and she doesn't have to suffer pain anymore and i know she looks down and see's that smile of mine and i know she knows whats going on in my life. One day we will meet again and be able to talk and laugh and see each other again. I hope heaven is treating her well. She's the best grandma i have had. I love you and miss you Grandma <3 

Let the Countdown Begin

Nothing can explain how excited I am to have these 2 home again in 4 1/2 months. hahaha these 2 hooligans hahahaha the funny boys. I've missed them so much but i'm so proud of them serving a mission in Spain and in Chile.

Now i seriously can't wait to have the boys back together again. Its been forever. Its going to be awesome seeing these guys again just like the old times. I'm glad i met them senior year in High school. 2 years went by so fast.

My 22nd Birthday

Well i turned 22 like two weeks ago. Got to spend it with my Best Friend Shaliece since she slept over for 3 nights. I'd think celebrating my birthday would be in a more awesome fun way. Hahaha nope thats not how things went on my Birthday. I ended up calling the doctors office cause i couldnt stop itching my area it was getting out of hand i just couldnt take it anymore. So i called the doctors office and got in at 10:45am yes on my Birthday. hahaha so my best friend Shaliece came along with me to the doctors. Hahahaha by surprise they didnt put me in the room that has curious George all over the wall. Of course i still weigh 107 pounds and i had to do another pee test hahahahaha went back to the room to wait for my doctor and the nurse started asking me questions about my problem. Hey a least they said Happy Birthday to me hahaha not what i wanna hear from my own doctors office hahahaha. She offered to give me the flu shot so i took the offer and said yes to it. And than we started talking about HPV now my problem was either really bad or the doctors are getting worried. Its a shot that i would get every 6 months up till i'm 26 its for cervical cancer to help prevent it. But i dont know if i will do that. And than they got the pee test results and said i had white blood cells in my pee. hahaha and this is where it gets so embarrassing and feeling violated hahahahaha. The nurse came back in and said my doctor wants me to get naked from the waist down and take off my pants and underwear. hahahaha my dad said well than i guess i'll go out now and wait for you girls in the waiting room hahahahaha. We waited and waited hahaha we bursted out laughing about this while i sat there on the bed waiting for the doctor to finally come in and its like who goes to the doctors on their freaking birthday? hahahah oh wait me. hahahaha all the sudden the doctor comes in and shakes my hand and says hi to me and tells me to lay down on the bed and spread my legs hahahaha. my best friends like oh my gosh this is about to get naughty in here. hahahahaha and so my doctor looked at my area and touched it and asked me where else its been itchy and i pointed to my butt hahahaha literately i seriously would itch it so bad hahahahaha and so as he let me sit back up he said now i know whats going on you got another infection going on hahahahaha. hahahahaha and he asks me so are you sexually active? hahahaha no hahaha i havent been sexually active. and remember in my last post that i said until 3 weeks later?? yeah this is the 3 weeks later thing. Saw my doctor for the second time in 3 weeks. And i asked him what caused it to come back and he said you know that medicine we put you on the last time? yeah i remember that medicine. He told me it caused the infection. a fun lovely Yeast infection and he finally prescribed me something to take to get rid of the itching hahaha and than of course i couldnt get away with out the flu shot. hahaha. and i walked out of the doctors office with my dad and Shaliece and said well this is just one way to remember my birthday i just made my 22nd birthday unforgettable like seriously you'd think you'd spend it celebrating another way. hahahahahaha and than we went to walmart to pick up my medicine and it got even more worse i couldnt stop itching and laughing at the same time we kept bursting out laughing. and than we came home watched some movies. And went out to eat at Chuck a Rama hahahaha i'll never forget my 22nd birthday years later this will be one to laugh about and remember hahahahahaha it will be like oh Jessica remember what you did for your 22nd birthday? hahaha no how could i like who forgets they get violated on their birthday.. hahahahahaha we still laugh about this we cant believe it happened. hahahahahahaha if it happens the 3rd time again i just have to call my doctor and he will prescribe something else cause he's already seen me twice for the problem. hahahahaha I'm feeling 22 and 22 is gonna be one to remember and laugh about. One unforgettable Birthday. Nothing can top this one at all.

My Parents 25th Anniversary

Just because I was born on my parents anniversary. Usually they just like to celebrate my birthday and make sure i get my special day cause its my special day too. But this year since it was their 25th Anniversary we celebrated their 25 years of being together and of course i celebrated my birthday too. But this was just as big as me turning 22.

I love my parents so much <3 they are the reason i'm here today. and than of course 3 years later on their 3rd anniversary they had me. (: yeah she spent her anniversary in the hospital giving birth to me.  

I don't think i could have my birthday any other way or on any other day. I'm their present and will always be their present. They mean the world to me. They have raised me and taught me what i needed to know. They are there for me and they have no idea how much i put up with just to help them out. They are the best and i know i struggle to get along with my parents. but i have so much respect for them now than i have ever had. I love you mom and dad! <3 thanks for bringing me into the world. <3 I'm Daddy's little girl. Always have always will no matter how old i get I'll always be his little girl.

My Fun Adventure Being Sick

I've been so busy and sick i haven't been able to update my blog. I ended up really sick towards the end of September. I had a really bad bladder infection we thought it was a UTI but it wasn't it was just a really bad bladder infection so bad i had to go to the doctors for it. Of course they put me in the room with Curious George all over the wall. hahahaha my pee test came out bad. They found blood in my pee. Which was weird cause i wasn't seeing any blood in my pee. So the doctor had to put me on 2 medications one was changing my pee color for 2 days and the other one was to get rid of the infection. I also had a high fever of 100.0 and i weigh 107 pounds. I'm freaking skinny but other than that i came out healthy i tried everything to get rid of the infection at first slept alot and finally 4 days later got the fever to go away. That was until 3 weeks later after that infection...... 

New Blog: JustaCraftyGirl148

Hey there. Here's my new blog. I just updated it with 4 new posts. if your just reading through "itsJesslikeduh" my main blog. Its been fun doing projects and posting them and sharing them. Enjoy! (; have a nice day. I still will update my main personal blog. More coming soon.

One Month From Today

Can't believe it a month from today I will be 22 years old. I'm not sure how i feel about this. hahahaha got some mixed emotions about this. But i'm just letting it sink in. Crazy i feel like i grew up in a blink of an eye. It's like yesterday i was a baby now i'm in adulthood. pretty weird and crazy. Here goes to the last official month of being 21 and here goes to feeling 22 years old. I can't wait though i'm excited in a way to be 22 but yet i'll probably still be mistaken as a 16 year old. LOL and someone just reminded me that i have 8 years left till my 30's hahaha just stop it already. hahaha I don't wanna grow up to fast.

The Sims 4

Since The Sims 4 is being released on Tuesday. Finally I can't wait. The suspense is killing me. I've been playing the create a Sim Demo they let the fans download and it looks so cool and fun. I hope my computer can handle it. I wish though they had toddlers but a least they have kids. Its like Sims the first one but all upgraded and new.

Some of the new Sims i created in Sims 4 create a Sim demo. 

Fun Weekend in Idaho

This Last weekend Saturday and Sunday we went up to Idaho for my cousin Rayce's 1st Birthday. I can't believe he's already one years old and he started walking way before he turned one. It was so much fun being with my family and we spent the night in Idaho and came home last Sunday. My cousin Keagan was being funny and saying he works out or he's gonna go work out hahahahahaha and than he tries to lift weights hahahahaha. I slept over at my cousins house while my grandma and grandpa stayed in a hotel room. I can't wait to go back to Idaho in October when my new baby cousin is born its gonna be so good to finally have her here and i bet my cousin is ready for her to come out already.

Being 21 is Fun

So I've been 21 for a year Hhahahahahaha. The most craziest things i have gotten in life just for being 21. And this is all just cause i'm 21 years old.

I've been mistaken for a 16 year old.

I don't look 21 I look younger than 21

I've been asked if i drink

I've been asked if i go to clubs

( i seriously just got asked if i have ever been to a night club) hahahahahaha

All people can tell me is you don't look 21 you look so much  younger. Needless to say Nobody can tell i'm 21.

Hahahahaha is this what i'm gonna be put through going through my 20's? hahahahaha i'm not 16 i'm 21. hahahahaha and I just got mistaken for being 16.  hahaha oh just wait till i'm 30 or 40 my age will start to really show.

Nahhh this is not how i roll.... hahahahahaha

22 in 2 months and nothing will probably change i will probably still be mistaken for a 16 year old hahaha.
The power to being so young its so amazing. hahaha

My 2014 List

Well so far I've accomplished a lot of things on my 2014 List. It just feels like 2014 started yesterday i can't believe it were already in August its crazy. This year has gone so much better so far. I still have some stuff that i need to complete by the end of this year but if i don't complete them than that's okay i can do more stuff in 2015. I'm more happier this year and i feel like a lot has eased up this year were not fighting as much anymore. All though deep down I haven't been happy since we moved into this house. I wish we would just hurry up and move out. I honestly don't care anymore where ever we go I'll be fine as long as its away from this house. Even though I'm still dealing with my Jaw problems and I'm still getting my teeth fixed at the dentist. But it sure does feel good to have my Hospital bill all paid off and The TMJ pain is gone and I went to Idaho and of course the Austin Mahone concert that night will be one i will never forget and I got help to pay off future medical bills that will come along in my life. So some good things have come along this year. I don't know what happened to those two boys i met at the beginning of the year from the singles ward when they came over to introduce themselves. We also got to ride on the front runner up to salt lake and we also got to ride the trax for the first time to. Can't say i hang out with my friends very much cause I don't I only seen my BFF Jennifer maybe twice this year. Some of the Best things still coming this year. Hoping to move into a new house by Christmas. I'm hoping to a least have braces at some point this year or sometime early in 2015. It feels so nice to be able to have things accomplished and done with. All I know is that this year has gone so much better than the last few years. Theres just some things that have to wait till after i get my mouth fixed. But i'm so much happier this year and i hope it keeps up like this and I hope to eventually return to college and get that all taken care of. But for now I get to enjoy a get away. Get to go to Idaho and spend the night with my cousins. Can't wait to see them again i bet they are gonna be so freaking excited to see me again. (: I look forward to a lot of good things this year and i hope it keeps getting better and plus i turn 22 in 2 months so a new age is diffidently what i'm feeling the most. :)

First Day of School.

This past Tuesday school started up again for all the kids. I still can't believe my brother is in 6th grade. Its like yesterday he was my baby brother now he's a 6th grader. He likes 6th grade so far but he's just refusing to do his homework. Typical of course no kid wants to do homework. And he was telling me about how they have a 6th grade dance sometime during the school. aweee his first dance hahahahahaha. Were already having trouble with him and it hasn't been the first week of school yet. He's back with his bad influenced friend so now he's grounded from her for awhile. So now he has to come straight home from school and stay home but he can play with his other friends just not this one he's grounded from. And he's already worried about girls and if they will like him hahaha like seriously dude your in 6th grade not Junior high. The other day it was so funny cause they had show and tell and he basically took his stuff that he likes to show the class and when he got up to the front of the class he bursted out laughing you know aleast thats better than stage freight and being so nervous. He's hung around me way to much he's picking up on my laughing LOL. And now his first day of school picture his last final year of grade school and he's excited to be done with elementary school next year.

My handsome brother Paul 12 years old in 6th grade August 19th 2014. and he's got 6 years left to go. I couldn't be more proud of him for making it this far. I love him so much! (:

I Just Don't Understand

I'm just being a friend and a friend needed me the most and need my advice. A friend is supposed to be there if a friend is in need right? well this is what went down. A friend needed me and needed my advice and well I did that i gave her some advice for something she was struggling with. So here i was telling her what to do. And she was saying hell yeah your right i would never be able to forgive her from a situation going on with her and a friend and she's like all for it of letting go of this bad friend of hers and changed her phone number and she was like yeah she will never find out my new phone number and her friend was making up bull crap about my friend that was talking to me about this situation it was a pretty bad one and what gets me is this friend of hers talked bad about my friend. Like if she was a true friend than why would she get her friend in trouble why would she make up bull crap and her friend was making up some pretty nasty disgusting inappropriate comments about her. And they have known each other for six years and things were going pretty well she was taking some of my advice and than all the sudden it turned around her friend the one that was causing trouble was begging to be friends again and my friend was actually starting to give in and i started getting irritated and aggravated with her. I'm like well what do you wanna do? she's like I don't know. Her friend starts threatening her and says "unblock me or I'm gonna call your number" I'm sorry but that's to easy she needs to know how to really threaten her. Since she had her blocked on Facebook and all she could say was wow you are right she's begging to be my friend again. it got to the point I'm like you know what you do whatever you want i don't care anymore and forgives her friend and becomes friends with her again on Facebook. Yeah she faked it and went a long with it pretending to listen to my advice. She didn't want my advice. Well I have something more why the hell bother coming to me and needing me for advice. I was just being the good friend and helping her out and giving her some advice on what to do in the situation. It pisses me off. Don't ever come back to me for advice ever again. Take it to someone who cares and tells you what you wanna hear cause obviously i don't tell you what you wanna hear. No I tell you stuff you do need to hear you just don't wanna hear it. I don't wanna hear your problems anymore. I honestly don't know how some people can tolerate people in their life. I know it would be hard to let go of a friend thats been bad and thats not a good influence and i know it would be hard especially being friends for six years but still if it was me i'd be done i'd be over it. But that's just me i don't tolerate people like that in my life. Sometimes you gotta let go of someone if its for the best. Its just freaking irritating. I'm so done giving advice to my friends now. it just isnt gonna work anymore. and it hurts that it went like this. I hope she's happy she doesn't even care about the advice she just wants my stupid opinion. She needs to stop asking for advice and other people's opinions. Its her life. You don't need everyone's opinions on everything. I'm not to happy with her at all. I'm probably gonna hold a grudge for awhile i'm not to fun once you piss me off. Because of this i'm feeling like its the type of day to just put my middle finger up and say fuck it i'm done!

Just a Thought

If life was completely different for me and I wanted to go on a Mission even though i never wanted to and not because my friends have served missions. It got me thinking since some of my friends are getting off their missions and coming home and especially with 2 of my friends serving at the bishop store house for their missions I just started thinking since i saw what my friend wrote on Facebook that she will be done next week with her Mission and I know my two friends think i'd make a good missionary they been telling me i should serve a mission at the bishop store house. I thought to myself knowing this wasn't meant to be i know i'm not meant to serve a mission never have wanted to serve a mission never will and just cause my friends do it. Me myself has to want to do it and have a passion to serve a mission that would be between me and my heavenly father and i just can't do it cause my friends are serving missions. Sure i'd be a good Missionary and my best friend Ross has told me to pray about it and see if its right for me. But i knew its not meant to be and that's okay. I already had my life planned out anyways since 10th grade and never once a Mission was involved in it. And if things were different i wouldn't serve at the bishop store house i'd serve a full time 18 month ( year and half) mission. I rather have the fun adventure of getting a mission call to another state or another country. That sounds more exciting than serving a mission at the bishop store house. I'm the type of person that likes to get away so the 18 month mission would be my way of serving a mission. But I'm needed here more at home more than ever I know it would be my choice to go on a mission it wouldn't be my friends say in it but being here and helping my family out and just being kind and helpful to others i think is enough for me. And thats why i'm thankful and glad that my friends have the guts to go out for 18 months and 2 years But a least my friends think i'd be a great missionary even though i will never be a missionary besides i'm getting a little on the old side for going on a mission if i wanted to i should of left 1 or 2 years ago if i really wanted to serve a mission. But i'm the type of person that wants a career in life instead of a mission. and for some odd reason i just been thinking about this a lot lately. It was just a random thought especially of how i feel and my opinion on it.

Video: Teens React to the 90's Internet

Being a 90's kid i'm gonna point out some stuff this video. However I never seen the video how they explain what internet was. It was so funny seeing what teens reacted to the 90's Internet. I know the pain and the game of waiting to get on internet. The Barbie website was a huge thing growing up. And I know what its like to have to get off the internet so my mom could talk on the phone. This makes me feel so old just watching this. Sad these kids now days wouldn't know what its like to grow up like this. 

The Most Energizing Boy Band

They have to be the most Energizing British Boy Band I've ever seen. They have gained a new fan and I would so see them live in concert again. Plus their new song is so catchy " somebody to you" I hope they make a come back again someday. I'm glad Austin Mahone bought them along on tour. and their accents are so dang sexy they are deep in the British accent.
  

Time for a Change.

I've been thinking about changing my hair color. I'm just sick of the dirty dish water brown color. I'm thinking of surprising my friends and family on Facebook once its done. I don't want to tell anyone that i'm changing hair colors its just gonna be a total surprise I was gonna do an ombre type color to my hair but it looks complicated and what the heck since i'm turning 22 in 2 months i'll probably get it done just in time for my 22nd birthday. My Best Friend thinks Chocolate brown hair coloring would look good on me. I was thinking Chocolate brown hair coloring with some highlights and maybe getting my hair layered without it getting cut short. It already sounds cute and i can use a new change to my hair and get rid of this dirty dish water brown for awhile. Here's what i had in mind for my new hair. There has been a few options i have chose like just plain chocolate brown hair color or there is this light brown chocolate hair color and than the last one is just chocolate hair with caramel high lights they all look cute. Its about dang time my hair gets an updated color to it. I've been in the mood to do it. I just need to get the chocolate brown hair coloring from the store sometime. I can't wait to see how it turns out. I'm getting excited. But I will still forever have my long hair. Its not getting cut for a good long time. But for now its a surprise my friends and family on facebook wont know until i post the picture. More importantly i'm in the mood for change.

I really like the third last picture the light chocolate brown hair with caramel highlights. So far that's my favorite one. But i still can make up my mind.    

Happy 21st Birthday

Happy Birthday to my Best Friend Eddy. Can't believe he's 21 already. And i haven't seen him since i was 16 years old. I'm so lame. :( I just hope he doesn't get to drunk for his Birthday. Just cause he's my EX doesn't mean i shouldn't care about him. I really do care about him. He's my best friend. I honestly don't know what i'd do if something happened to him. He's living the life i'd never live and I guess if one of us has to be crazy its him that's crazy. I'd never do what he does and sometimes i wonder what's going through his head when he does what he does. But i'm proud of him for loosing all the weight he lost. He looks so good and he looks so much better and i bet he feels so much better and more on the healthy side.  I feel bad that he hasn't had the best of life and i'm not there for him anymore even though we don't talk very much anymore were still cool with each other. But i don't regret being his friend i've been told its best to keep being his friend even though he makes me wonder why i'm still his friend and i won't give up on him and I don't regret anything about our relationship and him being my boyfriend. He may not realize it but i do care for him and i want the same thing for him to be happy just like he wants me to be happy. I hope he has one awesome 21st Birthday.

Here I Go Again

Well my Jaw is back in pain. Yesterday before the concert it was just throbbing in pain and we were getting my brothers some dinner to eat and it was just embarrassing my jaw was just in so much pain that i ended up holding my Jaw like it was gonna fall out of my mouth and that feeling sucks. I hate this jaw problem. As long as it doesn't hurt to chew on hard foods yet. I hope it doesn't get that bad cause i really don't wanna loose anymore weight due to my jaw problem i already had at the beginning of the year. Not much you can do when your Jaw hurts like heck and all you do is wanna cry like a baby and just want the pain to go away. I'm not stressing out so i don't know why its doing this. I really don't want to go back to the oral surgeon and get more medicine for it. I'm trying to stay away from aspirin. I don't know if running around the block or singing along at the concert made it worse. But its pretty bad. it sucks. I want to get this fixed as soon as possible.

First Time Running in the Rain

I never thought i would really do this. But for the first time since we moved back to Utah. Me and my Best Friend went running the other day while she was over here and sleeping over. And knowing Utah's weather you can't predict the weather cause mother nature is so moody its ridiculous. We were running around the block or i should say jogging all the sudden it down pours rain on us. We got so soaked it was so nice and i was so happy that it down poured we seriously need the rain right now. Utah feels like an oven with the hot weather. I'm not complaining though cause i love this weather. I could live in this weather year round and be happy. So for the first time i ran in the rain it was so good and it was a monsoon storm and it felt so nice to have the rain and cooler weather. Hopefully it rains soon again cause were seriously dying here without the rain. Now i just wanna kiss in the rain. Once i find a boyfriend i'm gonna kiss him in the rain hhahaha. I feel like i accomplished something that wasn't on my to do list this year but oh well still it was nice to run in the rain. I never done that before.

One Awesome Night

Last Night finally came. We finally got to see Austin Mahone live in concert in Salt Lake City. We also got to see the new UK group The Vamps, a long with a new singer Shawn Mendes and Fifth Harmony. It was so much fun. I'm glad we got to go to the concert. of course we lost our hearing during the concert so it was kind of hard to hear after the concert ended. The Vamps called Utah a beautiful place they didnt want to leave they wished they could stay longer. And Fifth harmony defiantly wants to come back to Utah. Its like my 2nd concert since 2007 i'm lame i dont go to concerts. They are like a once in a life time thing. We had some awesome seats but i think next time i'm gonna pay some good money for seats closer to the front if he ever comes back to Utah which i hope he comes back. We wanted an encore we wanted him to preform more. And i loved the way he sang All of me by John Legend. It was so good. I hope someday soon i'll be able to go to another concert. We still wanna see One Direction live in concert and i hope that happens someday. It was just one awesome night in Salt Lake last night. :)

This is The Update on My Jaw Problem

I wish things weren't this bad. My jaw problem is getting worse as i suppose it is following that i heard recently my guy friend Tyler telling me how it looks. I'm actually coping with it a lot better than i thought i would. It still sucks though to have this problem. I miss chewing gum it drives me crazy not being able to chew gum cause there is times i'd like to chew on something like gum but than I remember i can't chew gum its best to not chew it with Jaw problems Gum would make it worse and i know cause i chewed on a piece on 4th of July and i ended up with my Jaw in pain. I'm gonna be returning back to the Dentist pretty soon. A least the college dental school is half priced so I pay half of what i wouldn't be paying at a normal dentist. Sometimes i wanna give up but than again its my smile. I LOVE my smile. I hate seeing my smile go like this. Hopefully i can put TMJ behind me. My guy friend Tyler is so lucky he doesn't have it this bad its just a pain in the butt. I know if i just keep working towards a better smile i know in the end I'm gonna get the results i want. I know its not the easiest thing ever. But once I get past this part it shouldn't be to hard. I hope i don't have to wait to long to have surgery done. Cause i just want this fixed. And i hope this is the last time i get my smile fixed cause i'm not fixing it ever again. To much money. But i care to much for my smile that i'm putting my money into it and getting it all taken care of hopefully by the end of this year i'll a least have a somewhat better smile. I haven't been thrilled at all to have braces back on but i hope its just for the year from what i read that it will be for a year since they have to be involved in surgery. I can't even stand to look at my smile. Thats why half the time i dont even bother smiling anymore. Cause i know its gonna show up in the picture. I'm just so ready to speed up the process and break the jaw already and get it fixed but nah i rather not scream bloody murder and have blood all over the mouth. I rather patiently be waiting for it to be fixed the braces way. I could have it done with out braces but i have more of a  chance of them messing up on the jaw and having to go back through surgery and have it broken again and fixed again. Thats why my oral surgeon wants the braces back on so he can easily do the surgery with out a problem and wont mess up on it. I just can't wait till this is all over with. And this is how i currently look while i wait to have my jaw fixed.

Its a hideous smile. I just wanna kill it already. I dont even know how i can stand to smile like this and this is the way i smile in every picture i have this year so far.  Best part though is i'm getting money saved up for everything so i think i'm pretty close to being able to afford some braces again and a tooth guard that i have to wear constantly all day. Cause its just so bad that my teeth grind and clench together its something i can't control it just happens it sucks how my teeth aren't aligned anymore.

3 Days Left

Ahhhhh finally the countdown and wait is getting closer to being over with. 3 days left till me and my Best Friend shaliece see this hot boy Austin Mahone in concert. We've been so excited. She's gonna sleep over on Tuesday night so we can just head up to West Valley City. I can't wait to see him preform live. We get to see him in person instead of being on the computer screen. Its gonna be crazy and fun. :)

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday to my not related brother Matthew! pretty much my BFF's family is my second family i grew up with them and Daniel and Matthew are like my 2nd brothers not in a related way. He's a very quiet one he doesn't like to go on a lot of family things with his family.  We all pretty much grew up with each other and now Paul is growing up with Daniel even though they are three years apart. Its been so much fun growing up with my BFF and her brothers. Even though Matthew doesn't like making a big deal out of his birthday. I hope he still has an awesome day. He's so weird he used to mess with me and Jennifer when we were all just kids hahahahaha he even pushed me into the pool when we lived in Las Vegas which wasn't very cool at all. I'm glad we grew up with some cool friends. They have been the best and he's really like a brother to me.

Reunited with my BFF

Got to spend some time with my BFF Jennifer much need time with her. I don't even get to hang out with my friends that much anymore. Heck I probably gone 3 or 4 months with out seeing Jennifer. It was so good to finally hang out with her on Friday. We were laughing and being stupid and crazy and just joking around. Got to talk about a lot of stuff. Big topic was boys. Stupid boys. Boys are so dumb! And we also went on a walk around our old elementary school and we also went and walked to my old house. Its changed so much it doesn't even look like my old house anymore its so sad how we don't live in it anymore. I miss living in my old hometown Spanish Fork. Even though Las Vegas is my old hometown too. Thats what i have on facebook where i'm from "Las Vegas" All though i'm actually from Spanish Fork Utah. I'm not to fund of this state anymore so thats why Las Vegas is where I am from which is true I am from Las Vegas. and i showed her what my Ex Boyfriend looks like now. hahahaha it was so funny i had to laugh cause he was dressed weird just for seeing Lady Gaga in concert last night but than again its Lady Gaga who doesnt dress weird for her concert. And Jennifer was like wow i still can't believe you two actually dated. hahaha she's like i give you props for dating him. Okay than. hahahahah and than she was talking about how she remembered how me and him kissed for the first time hahahahaha. He's the one that brought it up with me and she just happened to be there when our first kiss happened. hahahahahaha. We also got Ice cream from Macy's and for awhile we couldn't find her laptop it was so weird how we missed looking on the side of the bed. hahahaha we just had a blast hanging out and we will have to do a sleepover since she wants a sleep over and she's almost done with her mission at the bishop store house so now next Summer will go alot better than we can see eachother more often than this summer cause she is so busy with her mission. I'm fed up with only seeing her only like every 3 or 4 months but its cause life has me so busy i just lost interest in hanging out a lot i really have been just not caring anymore when i don't see my friends but a least i still get to see them just not as much as i like to see them. I don't know whats going on with Ross he's being a Putz he won't talk to me at all. But i dont care anymore i'm used to this anyways. I just like how he said this month thing going months with out talking will never happen again uh huh sure. whatever its still going on. But i dont care he's mad he's mad. Not my problem has to keep going that way. But thats the way our friendship is going and i'm getting to a point i dont care anymore. It just kind of bugs me that he will talk to Shaliece and Jennifer but with me its like oh I'm not gonna talk to you and it just bothers me in a way that he doesn't want to talk to me. I'm used to it anyways so its nothing thats gonna kill me anymore. 

The Good Times

I recently had some time to hang out with friends the past week. I hung out and had a sleep over with my Best Friend Shaliece. We had so much fun of course we were just laughing and joking around. I ended up sick with Allergies for a few days. My eyes never been so watery and itchy and than my throat was itchy and my nose just kept running and a long with coughing. Even though we had to go to my grandma's house to celebrate my grandpa's birthday we still had fun. We also got to talk to our Best Friend Tyler. I think we passed the laughing down to him cause he was just being so funny. Like he had me thinking is this the Tyler I know? hahahahaha and my brother Paul kept coming towards the phone and wanting to talk to him hahaha and everytime he came towards the phone were yelling nooooo go away and laughing and than Shaliece told Tyler she was sorry for what was going on and he said its okay and he just bursted out laughing. It was so funny he told us that he was thinking of coming to UVU for college this fall. Ahhhhhh seriously that would make us so happy if he finally came to college here at UVU its like every time we tell him that were hanging out he's like oh no what are you two crazy girls up to? hahhahahahaha. I think he feels so left out since we saw Dallin and Silas more than we have seen Ty Guy hahahahaha and he was asking me if i seen the new planet of the Apes movie hahaha oh my gosh i haven't but what he did on the phone was so funny he was like i give it a 9. something and than he started making monkey noises on the phone hahahahaha it was so funny. He was so happy and excited to hear from us. He's like what are you and Shaliece doing the rest of the day? I was telling him not much really  and he's asking are you guys gonna watch Netflix? hahaha sure yeah we will watch Netflix ya know hahahahahahaha. He asked are you guys keeping it classy over there? yeah sure were keeping it classy hahaha i think he knows what we get up to when were put together. hahahahahaha and i was telling him about more of my jaw problem and since he has the same problem as me. I'm glad i have someone that understands what i'm going through. He's gotta get his bottom Jaw fixed and i gotta get my top Jaw fixed. Me and him both have to get braces for it. But he already found out he has to wear his braces for 6 months before the surgery. And since we both had braces on for 4 years before they came off and now that he has to wear them again for 6 months it like sucks cause we both put up with them in Junior high. :( and he was asking me if the braces worked out or if the under bite just came back and i told him the under bite came back and its really bad. He told me " Yeah yours is noticeable i seen what yours looks like its pretty bad" why thank you for a least being honest with me on how it looks. His isnt as bad but his teeth do clench together and grind against each other. hahahaha he's like i dont even know if i wanna go through with it its just so expensive. hahaha he was being funny again and said I might as well just get fake teeth and make them all pure gold and be a pimp hahahahaha okay than lets just be a pimp hahahahahaha. He was like are you really sure you wanna go through with it? I know what he means its a big decision to make and its a big surgery to go through and i told him yeah i'm gonna have to get it fixed one way or another its gotta be done no matter how much i hate the fact of having to go through surgery to get it fixed and to have braces again and i told him its Just so dang expensive.  And than shaliece was telling him you should come over here and hang out and we can tell he misses us. Were hoping he does transfer to UVU for the fall semester and we can hang out with him and actually do stuff with him. hahahaha since Shaliece likes Tyler hahaha she's like if we have a movie night with him i'm gonna cuddle with him hahhahaa. Well knowing that it would just be me him and shaliece hahahaha poor me would be left out hahahahahha cause my boy doesn't come back till next year. and we can actually celebrate his birthday with him he turns 21 in December and he wants to take me and Shaliece with him to a club hahaha. If we really do get to go to a club i'd make sure Ty Guy protects me cause i don't want no weird guys grinding up on me or trying to get me. That's if he comes to UVU and lives up here again than we don't have to travel to st. George to see him. It would be so much fun with him back and seeing him again and we can actually go see movies with him instead of him telling us to go see a movie that he just saw since he really wants us to go see planet of the apes hahahaha he's one cool guy! I'm glad we know him hahahahahaha. But i think we really have passed the laughing down to him cause he just bursts out laughing on the phone.

New Blog

I started a new blog. A lot of what i'm gonna be busy doing this year will be on the new blog that i just created. A lot of which comes from that Etsy website that's so popular right now. Like what i'm gonna be selling and making and stuff will be on the new blog. I will still have my personal blog. I read this in the Etsy book and thought i could give it a try and so i now have a new blog for everything that i'm busy with making.
It can't hurt to give it a try heck people say it wont hurt to give it a try and if you fail a least you gave it a shot. were just trying to come up with some extra money. Especially me i defiantly am in need of money trying to save up for some important things i really can get done. My blog is called JustaCraftyGirl148 here's the link to it http://justacraftygirl148.blogspot.com/ I hopefully will keep that one updated as much as possible. When i get everything figured out with it i will blog about some stuff on it.

Boys Boys Boys

Just for being 21. Guys are so complicated. And they say we are the complicated ones. I guess there is just something about me that attracts the bad boys and Jerks and so they probably think they can take advantage of me and that's not right at all. Sure i probably look like one that a guy thinks he can take advantage of but really i come out stronger than i look. Its just frustrating and irritating i freaking hate it. Its nice to know guys want sex but there's more to life than wanting sex all the time. Makes me wanna just go and slap one. They honestly don't care or understand how a girl feels. I wish they would know and understand that sex is something i really don't want right now. As tempting as it is and i do want it but seriously nagging me on about it is just gonna make me get mad at him. So guys can tease me all they want and mess with me all they want but when it goes the other way around and i start teasing a boy its like they can't handle it after a certain point. Well what do you expect he teases me and messes with me of course i'm gonna tease him back. I just don't even know why i bother anymore as much as i like boys i just wanna strangle them they make me feel so happy frustrated and feel like strangling them and just ugh. I don't know how they can deal with making a girl feel this way i wish there was a way to make a guy feel this way. And i'm so sick of boys thinking with their dicks and not their heads. For once can't a guy just think with his head and not his dick. Seriously if they stopped maybe they could actually keep a girl interested into them. I mean i'm not dumb i know when a guy is extremely turned on especially when they just happily openly tell me they are horny. Makes me wanna stay single a little more longer than i want to. I just want to get a boyfriend so i don't feel so lonely all the time don't get me wrong single life is all fun and games. But than again the lonely feeling kills me inside. Its like i just want a boy to cuddle with and be happy with. I just wanna give up on looking for Mr right guy and just focus on having fun being single. Maybe somewhere i'll find the right one. Its just irritating that boys have to put me through this if only they knew how i felt then they would realize they hurt my feelings and its dumb when a guy doesn't think a girl doesn't get turned on just cause i'm a Mormon he thinks that i don't get turned on just cause I'm Mormon. ahahahaha yeah right Hell yes i do get turned on all girls i bet get turned on no matter Mormon or not Mormon. Just cause I'm Mormon doesn't always mean I'm that good girl. I've got a bad side to me too. I mean how else am i supposed to live life. I've had my share of moments of being bad. Boys are just so complicated and annoying they make you wanna do stuff to them and yet were stuck with them we live with them and yet we love them. Gotta love boys.  I know somewhere there is Mr right guy but i guess for now i'll just keep having fun being single.

Favorite Song

Lately this song " Hey Jude" has been my favorite song so far. I know i probably sound like the type to not care for old music that my parents grew up with. But some of the old music is pretty good. Not gonna lie but i'm glad i have my pop/rock music too. Even though this is a covered song from Glee its still so good since they don't have the original version on Spotify.

6th Grade Was the Best

Since my brother Paul is a 6th grader now with school starting in a few good weeks. Reminds me of the good times in 6th grade hahahaha. So many good memories in 6th grade. I was telling Paul that he gets to tour the Junior High sometime in the next year. And i was telling him that he will have 6 or 7 classes a day and i was telling him he gets to be with the big kids next year. I only can hope he enjoys 6th grade since its his last year in Elementary school. He graduates from Elementary next spring (2015) and he finally made it to 6th grade. He's so excited and ready to be done with Elementary school all in all i think he's more than ready to be done with school all together. But he has only 6 years left to go and he will be done and than he can do whatever he wants with his life. I remember my best friend Ross when i told him that Paul was gonna be in 6th grade. He's like wow! I bet that reminds you of what it was like to be in 6th grade hahahahah. Are you freaking kidding me 6th grade was the best. It doesn't feel like that long ago i was in 6th grade hahaha all the good fun times of chasing boys and eating lunch with my friends hahahaha and especially when we were done with lunch and me and Jennifer would go chase boys and Ross would be like oh you two. He tried to keep us from chasing the boys haha and then we pretty much begged him to let us do it. hahahaha he's like fine go chase the boys hahaha and thats when he was so obsessed with That's so Raven haaha and he would say oh snap hahahahaha. I remember when a boy in our class would tease a girl and it was so funny yet so messed up and sad hahahaha he was like copying her and intimidating her this girl had a problem and she would rub her hands together and than she would clear her voice oh my gosh that was so sad and messed up but so funny at the same time. The boy in our class just kept doing the same thing and we all sadly died laughing to this day this still makes me laugh. Our teacher got so mad at us we just couldn't stop laughing we ended up one by one going out in the hall dying of laughter i remember at one point after Ross came back into the class after he was done laughing me and Jennifer couldnt help it at all we both ended up going in the hall just laughing but 6th grade was the best.  I still remember how i met my best friend Ross hahahaha when we were sitting in class on the first day of school and Jennifer had a huge crush on him she thought he was the cutest boy ever. Well she wouldn't get his name so she had me do it. Not shy at all with him sitting behind her in his desk i said hey you. He's like me? i'm like yeah you whats your name? hahaha classy way of just getting his name pshhh hahahaha. He's like my name is Ross hahaha and i told Jennifer his name is Ross hahaha she couldn't stop looking at him and we were like laughing about something and at first from what Ross told me he thought me and Jennifer were very weird at first but hahaha he got stuck with us hahaha in a good way though. hahahahaha I still remember when i told everyone we were moving to Las Vegas and I remember when my Best Friend Ross found out he's like What? no you just can't leave I just met you. hahaha and than i remember him telling me "You can move in with me" hahahahhaha. oh 6th grade. Paul gets to enjoy the ride of it and he's lucky i had to take 6 classes a day and now he only gets to be in one class since they have 6th grade in the Elementary school and see when i was in 6th grade it was a middle school that once existed now we only have Elementary, Junior High and High School. I just hope he gets some better friends and i know he hates school but i hope 6th grade goes a lot easier for him this year.

Living a Migraine Life

I'm one of those that suffer from migraines. It hasn't been easy at all this week. I remind my family of my Grandpa when he was a live he used to deal with a ton of migraines. I guess that's better than having to wear glasses. It sucks that i have to suffer through these horrible headaches and I've had them since i was 13 years old. I love summer but i dont think my headaches love summer its just to hot and i'm not complaining i love this weather i could live in it all year round and be happy :) I know what its like to have a migraine its not fun my hands used to get numb and my eye sight got played with. I do black out cause they get so bad that i can't see anything. The bright side I got extra sleep probably over slept but what can you do with a migraine its just best to let me sleep it off. And its amazing how sleep helps take it away. I tried changing my diet too but i think its just the stress that i have built up on me. Like i need to go running or do Yoga. Its probably cause the money and the jaw problem driving me up the wall. I bet once i get my jaw fixed than i won't have any more problems with headaches and most of them are TMJ migraines since i do still have TMJ just no pain. This week hasn't been fun at all and on top of everything i got sick with the cold. Don't know how i got sick. Its gotten so bad i just lay in bed and just cry since there's not much i can do besides sleeping.

Facebook

As much as it sounds cool being my friend on Facebook. Just no I'm already having a problem with random people adding me on Facebook. People that don't even know me its like okay i know its cool to be my friend on Facebook but I don't know the person. Especially out of country like what the duce?? how do they find me? I tried changing my settings and today it got worse got even more friend requests from people I don't even know. Took off all the links to my Facebook page. If i knew you personally or just knew you through a friend cool than i'd add you. There is that one friend on Facebook that adds everybody and not just everybody, everyone even people they don't know. Its for the best if no one random adds me on Facebook. Cause i won't befriend you not even on Skype. I dont talk to people I don't know. I don't need no creepers, pervs. Fake people pretending to be someone they aren't. I'm afraid these people adding me are gonna get information on me and stalk me and say okay cool she lives there lets go there. Even though i don't share information like that to anyone and they probably are gonna steal pictures and set up profiles faking to be me on Facebook. Sure i don't like Facebook a lot of times but if this keeps happening my family wont be to happy to hear that i'm deleting my Facebook page cause that's the only way they get a hold of me and talk to me and that's the only way i see what my family are up to. I can't believe people on Facebook don't think " I don't know that person i wont add her or him" they need to realize just cause they don't know me they aren't gonna get to know me i'm not telling anyone i don't know my information and Just cause I live in America I still wont tell a stranger anything. I'm not that person that has to befriend everyone and everybody even the people i don't know i don't roll like that. I only trust my friends and family with what i post on Facebook. And i already tried Deactivating my Facebook 3 years ago and I found myself back on it and my friends and family love seeing what i post on Facebook. If you don't know me than don't add me. If i don't know you i wont add you or talk to you. I'm not trying to be rude or anything its how i feel on this whole Facebook thing. Don't bother searching my name in Facebook either cause your wasting time just adding me to find out that you didn't get accepted. I rather be safe than sorry and just cause i don't know you. I'm not gonna open up to you i'm very shy and i don't open up to anyone the first time i meet someone. It takes time for me to open up to someone and be myself around them.

I Feel Old

I don't think nothing could out beat the old Disney that i grew up with. Compared the weird crap they put on Disney Channel today. I feel so old just watching these videos from my childhood. 

compared to this. I feel so old I don't barely recognize anyone in this new one they just barely did. I only recognize a few people. I guess cause I don't watch Disney Channel anymore.  

Throw Back Thursday

Throwing it back to this time when we were all together in High School. Missing these boys like crazy. :( Its just weird to think how grown up we are and going our own separate ways. I wish we could take back this and just hang out one last time like the good old times. I'd repeat this moment just not the hell we went through in High School. It will be good to have everyone well almost everyone home again next year. There's one more missionary that wont be coming home till 2016. Hopefully we can all get together again. I'm glad i met these boys. I miss talking to them having fun with them and getting hugs from them and just chillin out with them. I'm so proud of these boys though.

Utah's Pretty Sunsets

Not gonna lie Utah has pretty amazing sunsets. And it looks like the sun is on fire due to the fires were having here in Utah. Its gotten really bad up in northern Utah being on fire. But it turned out so pretty for the sunset. 

The Joy of Girl Life

I gotta love being a girl hahahaha. It seriously must be that time of month for hot attractive boys. Hahaha I don't mean to get a little TMI in this. While at the store a bunch of boys walked past me. ohhhh i just couldn't help it and as they walked past me yeah i just said "mmmm they smell good" hahahaha i think i died. hahahaha and my mom was like why are you smiling? hahahaha she has no idea. and this is how i feel.

its almost like hormones meet boy, boy meet hormones. LOL i bet if my hormones could they would speak for me and get the boys attention and they would be like hey you yeah you come here boy. hahahaha. Thank you Mother freaking nature for this wonderful feeling. Pretty sure i'm just blushing and smiling stupidly hahahaha.

Time For a Vaction

I know when I've been in Utah way to long. Its time for a much needed vacation. I know we didn't get to go to Las Vegas and Disneyland for my Birthday in 2012 but its whatever. I just so badly wanna go back to Las Vegas. I'm so sick of being here in Utah. I honestly don't know how i make it with out a vacation in my life. Get a lot off my mind and relax and get away from all the stress. I've been so tempted to just plan a trip to Las Vegas as a surprise Anniversary present for my parents and as my birthday present and celebrate my 22nd birthday in Las Vegas I really wanna celebrate my birthday there and turn 22 in Las Vegas. I just would like to get away for a few days and just enjoy some time away from this state. But i guess i have to wait to see how much money i can build up in the 3 months before my birthday. I guess i want a vacation so bad i actually looked at hotels in Las Vegas and they got some deals on some of the hotels that aren't to bad. I know I've been to Idaho already but i need to leave the state for a few days. I'll be happy to help pay for this trip to Las Vegas and my brothers don't even have to go if they don't want to go. It would be fun. Sometime i'll have to take my Best Friend Shaliece to Las Vegas cause she has never been to Las Vegas once in her life.

Idaho 2014

Yesterday we took my two cousins back home to Idaho. It was so much fun i'm glad i got to spend time with them. I'm gonna miss them. We also went to my cousins baby shower even though the baby isn't due till October my cousins friend decided to give her a baby shower 3 months early. Funny thing is 4 of us guessed that she would have the baby October 7th ( my birthday) I guess we will have to see when Elianna decides to make her appearance. We made one cute diaper cake for my cousin Julie. heck with it Elianna hasn't even came yet and she's already spoiled.

The diaper cake was my idea (just cause it was done for 2 of my cousins baby shower ) it turned out so cute. they are so easy to make just takes some time to put together. But i loved it and i'm glad my cousin Julie loves the diaper cake. I'm just so excited and happy that we got a new baby girl coming into this family. 

I can't wait to meet her. The instructions for the diaper cake are pretty simple and easy they take 50 diapers and you can add whatever you want to it and it works perfect for both girls and boys and the rubber duck that we got tells how hot or cold the water is. I'm glad this turned out perfect. :) 

I also made this for my cousin Elianna. It turned out so cute. 

Got the idea from Hobby Lobby. It was so cute its like one of those Monogram letters except we just used scrapbook paper for the background and felt for the pink glittery letter. And Julie thought it was so cute. it actually has a bow on it but i took this way before we added the bow on it and of course we took a white frame and painted it pink since we couldn't find a pink frame that wasn't expensive. I'm glad it turned out so cute. I hope Elianna will like it when she gets old enough to look at it. 

Now we get to go back to Idaho next month for my baby cousin Rayce 's 1st Birthday can't believe he will be turning one already.