3 years ago we lost my Grandma Carroll. 3 years ago I must of been crazy wanting to hug my grandma that's all i wanted to do hug my grandma. But it never happened. One thing I'm happy about was she got to be here for my high school graduation. I knew she wouldn't live long but i remember Junior year i wouldn't stop saying i want grandma here for my Graduation I wasn't gonna let her go until after i graduated than she could go. Its taken me a year or so to get over her death. My heart was so broken. And to want to hug her one last time I never did and i guess when we meet again she's gonna get that hug and she's not gonna get away without it. 3 years ago i had a dream about her after she died. Being able to have that special moment with her before she went to the other side. I just remember being so upset over her dying i was in a room with her in her casket and it was dark she heard me crying and she said Jessica come here. I went up to her casket and said what? she told me I want you to know everything's gonna be okay. I want you to be happy. I know I wont be here anymore but i will always be here just in your heart now. and she said I want you to know I love you.
Every now and than i get asked if i see my Grandma in my dreams nope i haven't seen her since that dream. But I can say she looks young again. She's right everything is okay and she has been in my heart she's got a special place in my heart. That was something special that happened i dont know how i got lucky and she chose me out of everyone in the family she chose me to have the dream. I know she's in a better life. She's with my Grandpa again and she doesn't have to suffer pain anymore and i know she looks down and see's that smile of mine and i know she knows whats going on in my life. One day we will meet again and be able to talk and laugh and see each other again. I hope heaven is treating her well. She's the best grandma i have had. I love you and miss you Grandma <3
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