Happy 21st Birthday

Happy Birthday to my Best Friend Eddy. Can't believe he's 21 already. And i haven't seen him since i was 16 years old. I'm so lame. :( I just hope he doesn't get to drunk for his Birthday. Just cause he's my EX doesn't mean i shouldn't care about him. I really do care about him. He's my best friend. I honestly don't know what i'd do if something happened to him. He's living the life i'd never live and I guess if one of us has to be crazy its him that's crazy. I'd never do what he does and sometimes i wonder what's going through his head when he does what he does. But i'm proud of him for loosing all the weight he lost. He looks so good and he looks so much better and i bet he feels so much better and more on the healthy side.  I feel bad that he hasn't had the best of life and i'm not there for him anymore even though we don't talk very much anymore were still cool with each other. But i don't regret being his friend i've been told its best to keep being his friend even though he makes me wonder why i'm still his friend and i won't give up on him and I don't regret anything about our relationship and him being my boyfriend. He may not realize it but i do care for him and i want the same thing for him to be happy just like he wants me to be happy. I hope he has one awesome 21st Birthday.