The Divorce Talk

Now this is a serious post about something WE all do NOT like hearing or talking about. It's not an easy conversation that's for sure.

NOBODY wants to hear their parents get a divorce I know not even a break up isnt fun either. Both are painful even though we want or dont want it to happen its just for the best sometimes. I defiantly never thought my parents wouldnt have to deal with this. I always thought of my family as being one happy family but now i dont see that anymore. Sure every couple goes through it like if they want a divorce or not and they get over it they may fight and forgive eachother after words but sometimes it gets so serious its for the best to get a divorce if it wont get any better. Now that my parents are 51 and 50 years old. They been married for 23 years. I'm not gonna tell much but heres the cause of it. My mom needs my dad and my dad pushes her away and when my mom wants to talk my dad just gets all irritated and says dont worry about it or its not your business. like hello dad she's your wife she needs to know whats going on in your life and he's pushing her away like she's not important in his life anymore. My mom keeps coming to me and Eric and letting her emotions out on us cause my dad just doesnt wanna talk to her anymore. I know its not my business but if my parents are getting a divorce i need to know. Like how do i let my dad know that my mom needs him?? I don't want him to push me away too. I know i'm his daughter but im scared what if i leave the room in tears. I hate to think what my dad feels about my mom now. And how do they explain this to Paul being just a kid?? The divorce talk is never easy espeically with kids in the home. I know I been in a relationship for 4 years and it took like 2 - 3 years to compeletely get over him but 23 years yeah thats alot of years being together and its gonna be alot of pain after they seperate. Its not easy letting go of someone you loved for soo long and thats why communication is the number 1 important thing in a marriage. I'm old enough to understand whats going on im not dumb in the head i realize whats going on. I just need to find out how my dad really feels about my mom and if not they need to be able to talk about it with eachother figure out if divorce is the next step and if so they need to talk to us about it to so we understand the situation and which one will be leaving out the door. They just really need to talk it out cause i dont know how much longer my mom can handle this anymore if they arent able to talk to eachother. I dont want to see them divorced nobody wants to see their family fall apart and see their parents divorced. I don't really wanna know whats gonna happen next. The thing that worries me is i hope my dads not sercertly hiding another girl behind my moms back cheating is the worst. cause we cant get anything outta him we tried everything and he's hiding that secret deep down in him. But i dont know how to open up to my dad about this cause he just needs to hear me out if he even will care how i feel but no matter what he hears me out and i will be happy to know i expressed my feelings for this situation. I know its probably anger and all that but before he pushes me away and wont talk to me anymore i just hope he hears me out and thinks about how i feel as i speak for all 3 of us kids aleast maybe 2 out of 3 cause Eric is getting on dads side of whatever is going on.
and tells me not to worry or that its not my business i just wanna see if the feelings for my mom has changed even if i come out of the room in tears. Im not happy about this situation i dont know how my dad can be mad at my mom id want my husband to talk to me no matter how bad the situation is its best if everyone talks about these things no matter if its serious stupid or just plain funny just need to know whats going on with dads life I love my dad and my mom alot and im gonna be heart broken to see them throw away 23 years of marriage. I know in my last relationship i was in i made sure me and him got to talk about everything and anything cause its not good for you to keep things like this bottled up for so long eventually it will find its way out. and the thing about who gets paul on certain days and that depends who has custudy over him. I'm just worried and i just want my family to get through this but if we cant get through this then i dont know what else we can do to get my dad to talk. Id hate to only see my dad at work everyday and not see him anymore after that. I need both parents in my life and to see my dad only at work and nothing besides that will just make me sad. And i hope we can stay a family figure this out because its sickening its making my mom cry alot to think that my dad doesnt treat her right anymore and it makes me cry. I guess i gotta keep postive and try to not let myself fall into a depression. I dont know how well the rest of my family will take the news once they hear it they will probably be surprised to hear about this. Face it divorces are becoming more common and its not the best thing to talk about either.

Note to self: Keep communicating with my hubby and dont let my friends destroy my marriage and dont let financial messes ruin the marriage and i'll be happy in my marriage.