Crazy Life

I honestly dont know what to think. When my grandma and grandpa offer that i move in with them. Yeah its not gonna work out aleast i dont think it would. I'd miss my parents way to much. All though its gonna be different when ever i get married but still i love that i have opitions when i move but as much as i love my Grandma and Grandpa i'm sick of living with grandparents I love my grandma dearly but dang living with her 3 years of my life wasnt what i really expected. Cause honestly you'd think you can be a family of 5 living in our own home but nope and i know my grandma and grandpa scott can take care of them selfs heck you'd never guess their age cause they keep taking care of themselfs and making sure they are in good health. Which is nice. But nope still wont go through with the offer im just afraid and thinking about all these what if moments like what happens if i do move in with my grandma and grandpa id never get to see my friends. Heck i wouldnt deffiently get to see my best friend shaliece. Cause orem is a little far. i wouldnt mind if i didnt really have friends or anything. I love my family for all they do. Id like to move someday but just not with grandma and grandpa id like to have my own apartment seriously. Crazy how life works. I honestly want whats best for me now. Im old enough to control my life. I know people just want whats best for me. But that works like this they want whats best for me because it makes them happy and in the situation it doesnt make me any happier. I got soo sick of doing that for people. I got so fed up i only make myself happy now i dont give a care what anyone thinks anymore. The only thing that matters to me is that i know i have support and so far i have my families and friends support of what i do and it was my own decision to do these things with my life and my family has been soo proud of me. I dont go telling my friends what to do with their life they leave mine alone and i leave their life alone. They do whatever with it and i do whatever with mine. All that matters is i know that they arent doing anything stupid that they will regret. They have my support in what they do. But i'll never judge them for what they do in their life. But i honestly dont know what to think but i really dont wanna move in with my grandma and grandpa right now. Unless i really need to move in with them but i dont see why living in Orem utah for no reason well id like to cause of  UVU but other then that i like American fork. :) Cause im close by Ceder hills so i can go visit my favorite boys. :) but i guess i'll have to see how this will all work out.