Goodbye 2012

First off im gonna talk about what a year it has been in 2012. Many crazy things have happened this year and somethings never happened even though we talked about it pretty lame though but heres the top moments of 2012.

 

 

I finished my baby scrapbook and turned 20 this year on October 7th. Which, i also finished my baby scrapbook that was my first goal of my life to have that completed and i did it. I also got rid of the liar Aaron Perez im soo glad he's outta my life after he lied to me the whole time. Taught me guys dont have to impress me to get me. Just be yourself goodness and i handled letting go of him pretty well my family was so proud of me in how i handled that situation. You know im not gonna marry a liar cause he would probably teach our kids to lie and that would be bad i dont need my kids going around lieing just to make them feel better about themselfs i will teach my kids to be honest. To have gone through that situation and end up hurting Aaron he needed to know that lying isnt good. He deserved it i had the nerve and i didnt even start a conversation with him either i just said what i said to him right then and there without him saying a word. I dont hate him i dont like him though and what was done was done cant change it. It hurts though that he lied to me the whole time and through the whole thing it just made me have stronger feelings for Dallin and i hope he's seeking some serious professional help cause he needs it big time. Oh i cant forget we sold my grandma's house in march or april i could of sworn i wrote about it but i guess i got caught up in life that i forgot to write about that. I'm still not going to college yet. Id hate to but i might just have to pull my grandma scott my moms mom to go with me. So i might end up not graduating in 2015 unless i do it 2 years but i actually need the 4 year program on this one but if its only 2 years then i guess i'll just do the 2 years if i were to start next fall id be done by 2015 that sounds about two years.
We were supposed to go to Las Vegas/ DisneyLand that never happened. So I guess i'll go for my honeymoon or when i have kids. Or just go by myself maybe take a good guy friend of mine if i meet a new one. It made me really pissed cause here we were planning to go to Disneyland now we dont have the money to do that. Also here comes the part where we opened up our Pizza place called Deano's pizza builders. On the brightside i got to see my BFF Jennifer every month this year so thats the best part also got to see my Best Friend Shaliece too. and I still got to see Dallin this year Silas i havent seen very much of and Ty guy i guess he's got busy with his own life. But i see pictures of him on facebook like aweee that cutie hahaha he melts my heart just looking at that handsome cute baby face. Another thing is i got my tooth pulled this spring and also experienced some near death experiences been almost getting in car accidents. Paul turned double digits this past summer number 10 and now is 10 and a half in 4th grade. Eric turned 19 years old and i also got to see my friend Chay chay ohh the memories she slept over during spring break a month before school got out for suummer and i recently saw her and my friend tete sooo grown up still cant believe it high school girls getting ready to drive behind the wheel ahhh nuts. its been a year living in this house we are renting now and now thats all about our crazy life and my mom turned 50 and my dad turned 51 so there has been some milestones in this family i hit my next milestone 21 next year. Bring it on 2013!!



Top New Songs

Before i do my end of the year top favorite songs of 2012 just wanted to do a blog for the top new songs that have been heard this month and its just mixed up so theres alot of verity for everyone and then next i will do the top favorite songs of 2012  and i may just do my own list too because alot of the songs im not liking very much. Hope you enjoy the last new songs of 2012 that are new.

Coming in at number 1 the most viewed video of the year so far is: My Life by 50 cent featuring Adam Lavine and Eminem.

Number 2 : Scream and shout by will.I.am and Britney Spears

Number 3: Diamonds by Rihanna





 

Number 4: She Wolf (Falling to Pieces) by David Guetta featuring Sia

 

 

Number 5: I love these guys and espeically their british accient and this song is called Little Things by One Direction

 





Number 6: Locked Out of Heaven by Bruno Mars

 

And coming in at Number 7 is Beauty and a Beat By the one and only Justin Bieber featuring Nicki Minaj



 

Number 8: Freedom by Nicki Minaj her songs are alright not my favorite

 





 

 

Number 9: Rest of My Life by Ludacris featuring David Guetta and Usher

 

 

Number 10: Finally Found You by Enrique Iglesias featuring Sammy Adams

 

Number 11: Irresistable by One Direction

 

 

Number 12: ICE by Kelly Rowland featuring Lil Wayne

 

Number 13: Fast Car by Taio Cruz

 

Number 14: Die Young by Ke$ha

 

Number 15: Catch my Breath by Kelly Clarkson

 

Number 16: Live While Were Young by One Direction

 

Number 17: Va Va Voom by Nicki Minaj

 

Number 18: Troublemaker by Olly Murs featuring Flo Rida

 

Number 18: Just a Sign by B.o.B featuring Playboy Tre

 

Number 19: Try by P!nk

 

 

Coming in at number 20: We are Never Ever Getting Back Together by Taylor Swift

 

Number 21: Girl on Fire by Alica Keys

 

 

Number 22: Limbo by Daddy Yankee

 

 

Number 23: Your Body by Christina Anguilera

 

Number 24: Turn Around by Conor Maynard featuring Ne-Yo

 

 

Number 25: I Found You by The Wanted

Number 26: Don't You Worry Child by Swedish House Mafia

 

Number 27: This Kiss by Carly Rae Jepsen

 

Number 28: Good Time By Owl City Featuring Carly Rae Jepsen

 

Number 29: Castle of Glass by Linkin Park

 

Coming in at number 30: Gangnam Style by PSY

 

Chinease Zodiac

I thought this was kinda fun to look up besides the horoscopes i don't believe in them. But some people do cause sometimes your horoscope is always right, which mine are never really right. So i looked up Chinease zodiac those are fun especially with kids you can look up their animal in the chinease zodiac its soo cool and their animal usually fits the childs personailty. I looked up my Chinease Zodiac and i knew i was this but i just wanted to make sure and i was right i'm a monkey and the monkey totally fits my personality.

The spunky monkey is the orginal party animal. Charming and energetic monkeys crave fun, activity, and stimulation. They truly know how to have a good time and i know how to have a good time and monkeys are always up beat which explains me im always upbeat. Attracting a Motley crew and seen swinging from one group of friends to another. Considered minor celeberities in the circle thanks to their sparkling wit and rapier - sharper mind. Perhaps surprisngly,
monkeys  are also good listeners and can tackle complicated situations with ease and i also am a good listener and i know how to tackle complicated situations with ease. The signs natural curiosity lends it the desire to become knowledgeable on a broad range of topics. Monkeys have a show off side that loves nothing more than to dazzle their pals with all they know. The monkey tends to rather be accident prone due to a certain lack of very high morals. This signs first interest is pursuing its own pleasure this not a malicious interest, its just the way the monkey is. However, this kind of carefree self involvement can lead to all kinds of scrapes. In love, the monkey makes a fun, exciting lover but one that may have the potential to stray romantically. The good news is, the monkey's glib manner and witty repartee can often get this sign out of a scrape. Perhaps not everyone will be won over by the monkey but do you think the monkey really cares? the monkey's world is full of devil may care energy and reverly, isnt for everyone. Remember, though, it's not that this sign is mean it might just be a bit too curious for its own good. Monkeys often feel the need to try everything at least once, which can marry go rounds of relationships. The monkey's love of self indulgence can also lead to other types of trouble. This sign may have limited self control concerning food, achol and other pleasurable activities. It's party time all the time for the monkey yet when it leads to a monster hangover or a shattered heart generally someone elses not theirs, this sign might actually show a touch of remorse. They won't flat out admit the error of their ways, but at least they'll pull back and try to tone things down for awhile. Monkey's must try to learn to think of others ahead of themselves at least some of the time. This sign's world will be more compelete when it realizes the world doesnt revolve around it.

What Makes me Happy

So today i felt like calling Dallin so glad i did. hahahaha its like oh no what if he doesnt answer the phone and then all the sudden he answers the phone and knowing i had butterflies hahahaha it was soo good to hear his voice. I asked him if he was home he said I'll be home in an hour im at work right now. hahaha i gotta stop calling him while he's at work i swear that was the second time i called him while he was at work but you know what i just couldnt help it. I wish i would of delievered the treats to him last week but got caught up in a busy life. hahahaha on the phone he thought i was Shaliece hahahaha cause he's like is this Shaliece or Jessica? I said this is Jessica. And he told me about his mission call he's gonna be speaking spanish ohhh hot dang that boy is gonna be speaking spanish hahahha and we talked about Christmas for a bit and then when i asked him if he was gonna be home and he asked why?? i said cause i wanna bring you some cookies he's like awwe thats soo sweet of you. I said yeah im not hanging out with shaliece he was surprised to hear that. Cause usually when we call him its when me and shaliece are together and he asked me why i wasnt hanging out with her i said i dont know we still do but we get busy he's like yeah i know how that goes.  hahaha he's like yeah im at work but i gotta go now Jessica i'll talk to you later and i'll be home in an hour when you come over. i was soo happy to know i could see him soo later today i went over after we had dinner and Paul came with hahaha he was totally shy. hahaha so Dallin and his parents got to meet my brother Paul hahahahahaha now aleast dallin knows my dad and my brother paul. hahahaha It sucks i didnt get to bring shaliece along but it had to be done i needed to see this boy. and after i gave him a hug I just handed him the cookies and his mom was like wow did you make these all by yourself? i said nope me and my mom made them we been busy and i got to meet his little cute niece. It made me soo happy to see this boy and talk to him i didnt get to see him for very long cause my dad didnt wanna wait for a long while and they had family over and also i asked him about Silas and he said that he lives in provo now he's going to BYU ohhh my Sy guy hahahahahaha :) and i told dallin we miss him he's like yeah i miss you guys too its been different since were outta high school now and i told him before i left i said we will have to go to subways he's like yeah we gotta do that pretty much we gotta hang out with him before he leaves on his mission.

Merry Christmas Everyone

Merry christmas Everyone hope everyone has a good one. As we remember why we celebrate this holiday. Im totally excited. I love christmas music and i love just the peaceful joyful time of the year it makes me really happy especially the cookies and treats we get to make and eat. Wishing my friends and family a very merry christmas. :)

Its all about Instagram

Its all about instagram what where did it come from? You know i have no idea it just randomly started apearing on my facebook wall and alot of my friends are using it. Sooooo i decided to give it a shot its a photo app for the Ipod touch or anything like that. Soo now after playing dumb in the head hahahahaha i finally figured out how to use this thing. hahahahahaha its gonna take me sometime to get used to this new thing. But for friends and family you can find me on instagram by the name of itsJesslikeduh i dont have photo's yet but im slowly adding some on there but i just decided what the heck all my friends are using this i wanted to see what was so popular about this site.

This is for Deano's Pizza Builders

 

For everyone or anyone reading this post all of you that live in Orem Utah, and Pleasent Grove Utah. This is a new pizza place here in Utah County we are located in Orem Utah. I know this might get a little annoying but if you just come try our pizza. Its so yummy i even reccomend this place to my friends and family to try it and so far they love it. If your college students at UVU I'll have to talk to my owner about this idea but hopefully UVU students like I myself even though i work there at Deano's Pizza place like i said hopefully we can work out a student discount for the UVU students.
Just give us a try and its okay if you dont like us everyone has what they hate and like. I know everyone is probably hooked on Pappa Johns and Pizza hut and Dominos and Little Ceasers but aleast this is something we know that people like and don't like so far we gotten good reviews on it.
Find our page on facebook http://www.facebook.com/DeanosPizzaBuilders there you can Like us and we have our hours and info on all that stuff on there we are working on a website also so keep checking back we also have some awesome deals to use with your order. We also have pepsi products that include Pepsi Moutain dew and dr pepper also Country Time Strawberry Lemonade and rootbeer also diet pepsi and diet dew

so here's the menu,

So to those who have tried our pizza thank you for your buisness and hope you have a wonderful holiday season. We can also make pizza's for pizza parties and for colleges like BYU we can make pizza's for the meetings we hope you like our pizza and keep coming back for more we will be pleased and happy to make you a pizza and it only takes 10 minutes for the pizza's to cook so its not that long.
and yes we do deliever and we have carry out and dine in available so whatever one works for you its your choice. Soo call that 801 919 3333 number to order a pizza or walk on in if your already out and about. We have a nice friendly staff so far and hope to keep it that way for our costumers so they dont feel like they shouldnt be welcomed here ever again.

And again its UTAH ONLY!!! and we are closed sundays :)

The Best Christmas Pageant Ever Play

Alrighty! The Best Christmas Pageant Ever Play. Here in Lindon Utah at a place called Valley Center Playhouse. It's like the best play i have seen it was so funny and the cast is so talented. Its amazing to see how well kids are talented. And i just gotta say if you are looking for something to do with the family this holiday season go to this play called The Best Christmas Pageant Ever Play. You'll love it.
But seats fill up fast so if you do go to this play make sure to get there early you can look it up on the internet make sure you type in Utah next to the play it will explain directions and the phone number.
Its not to expensive either we went with my Grandma and Grandpa scott and we only had to pay 25 dollars for the whole family to get in. They have a little break in between after the first act is done so you can use the restroom and you can buy goodies there. But its pretty good they kept the audience laughing and theres a guy at the beginning when they welcome the audience to the show he will tell some funny jokes they have two different casts Cast B played last night. But it really teaches you the true meaning of christmas and if you already know the true meaning of christmas it reminds you about the truth about christmas. They also let the audience join in on silent night if i remember right.
soo if you need something to do with kids or the family it only last about an hour and a half we were done by 9:00PM and at the end the cast gets to thank you for coming and you get to shake their hands. Its something you can go to every year or just once in awhile but its deffiently the best christmas pageant ever. :) And it deffiently reminded me the real truth about christmas.

On The Bright side

For some odd reason i just feel like i need to hear Dallin's voice. Its killing me soo much im dying on the inside to just hear that boys voice. It would make me very happy. :) This week i am going to go see him and drop some goodies off for christmas hahaha spoil him again. Im very proud of that boy.
and since things have been not working out right i just feel like if i talk to him everything will be better knowing that i heard that voice of his. But i'll have to let him know about the move. Cause yes we finalized it. I dont think i'll be living here in American Fork Utah anymore. It sucks that we cant wait til spring or summer hahahaha he's gonna be like dang how many times have you moved? like hmmm this will be the 6th move hahahahaha :) he'll probably make me laugh a little by saying wow you just cant stay still in one house you just gotta go everywhere hahaha. But i thought about it and I really should be living in Orem Utah now since i go to UVU over there. I never been so upset with a move but this is the only thing thats right to do. But hopefully i get to still see shaliece and have sleepovers but aleast we can still talk on the phone thats if she ever will call me. I really need to talk to her let her know whats going on. I know she might not like it but hey aleast im still here in Utah thats all that matters. dang theres just something about Dallin that i just like alot and im glad i can talk to him. I love that boy alot. But i hope things get better and my parents can finally work things out.

The Divorce Talk

Now this is a serious post about something WE all do NOT like hearing or talking about. It's not an easy conversation that's for sure.

NOBODY wants to hear their parents get a divorce I know not even a break up isnt fun either. Both are painful even though we want or dont want it to happen its just for the best sometimes. I defiantly never thought my parents wouldnt have to deal with this. I always thought of my family as being one happy family but now i dont see that anymore. Sure every couple goes through it like if they want a divorce or not and they get over it they may fight and forgive eachother after words but sometimes it gets so serious its for the best to get a divorce if it wont get any better. Now that my parents are 51 and 50 years old. They been married for 23 years. I'm not gonna tell much but heres the cause of it. My mom needs my dad and my dad pushes her away and when my mom wants to talk my dad just gets all irritated and says dont worry about it or its not your business. like hello dad she's your wife she needs to know whats going on in your life and he's pushing her away like she's not important in his life anymore. My mom keeps coming to me and Eric and letting her emotions out on us cause my dad just doesnt wanna talk to her anymore. I know its not my business but if my parents are getting a divorce i need to know. Like how do i let my dad know that my mom needs him?? I don't want him to push me away too. I know i'm his daughter but im scared what if i leave the room in tears. I hate to think what my dad feels about my mom now. And how do they explain this to Paul being just a kid?? The divorce talk is never easy espeically with kids in the home. I know I been in a relationship for 4 years and it took like 2 - 3 years to compeletely get over him but 23 years yeah thats alot of years being together and its gonna be alot of pain after they seperate. Its not easy letting go of someone you loved for soo long and thats why communication is the number 1 important thing in a marriage. I'm old enough to understand whats going on im not dumb in the head i realize whats going on. I just need to find out how my dad really feels about my mom and if not they need to be able to talk about it with eachother figure out if divorce is the next step and if so they need to talk to us about it to so we understand the situation and which one will be leaving out the door. They just really need to talk it out cause i dont know how much longer my mom can handle this anymore if they arent able to talk to eachother. I dont want to see them divorced nobody wants to see their family fall apart and see their parents divorced. I don't really wanna know whats gonna happen next. The thing that worries me is i hope my dads not sercertly hiding another girl behind my moms back cheating is the worst. cause we cant get anything outta him we tried everything and he's hiding that secret deep down in him. But i dont know how to open up to my dad about this cause he just needs to hear me out if he even will care how i feel but no matter what he hears me out and i will be happy to know i expressed my feelings for this situation. I know its probably anger and all that but before he pushes me away and wont talk to me anymore i just hope he hears me out and thinks about how i feel as i speak for all 3 of us kids aleast maybe 2 out of 3 cause Eric is getting on dads side of whatever is going on.
and tells me not to worry or that its not my business i just wanna see if the feelings for my mom has changed even if i come out of the room in tears. Im not happy about this situation i dont know how my dad can be mad at my mom id want my husband to talk to me no matter how bad the situation is its best if everyone talks about these things no matter if its serious stupid or just plain funny just need to know whats going on with dads life I love my dad and my mom alot and im gonna be heart broken to see them throw away 23 years of marriage. I know in my last relationship i was in i made sure me and him got to talk about everything and anything cause its not good for you to keep things like this bottled up for so long eventually it will find its way out. and the thing about who gets paul on certain days and that depends who has custudy over him. I'm just worried and i just want my family to get through this but if we cant get through this then i dont know what else we can do to get my dad to talk. Id hate to only see my dad at work everyday and not see him anymore after that. I need both parents in my life and to see my dad only at work and nothing besides that will just make me sad. And i hope we can stay a family figure this out because its sickening its making my mom cry alot to think that my dad doesnt treat her right anymore and it makes me cry. I guess i gotta keep postive and try to not let myself fall into a depression. I dont know how well the rest of my family will take the news once they hear it they will probably be surprised to hear about this. Face it divorces are becoming more common and its not the best thing to talk about either.

Note to self: Keep communicating with my hubby and dont let my friends destroy my marriage and dont let financial messes ruin the marriage and i'll be happy in my marriage.

What a cruel sad world.

This morning a sick man that has problems goes and has to ruin what his mom loved the most and that was teaching at a school well he shot her in the face. Its sickening to wake up to that news of the day its been on all day long the news hasnt been able to stop talking about it. Then after he shot his mom in the face he goes to the school his mom worked at and shots alot of people and kids have been shot and killed and to think to be that parent that gets that call saying im sorry but your child wont be coming home. It makes me sick to my stomach like what a sick idiot with problems wanna shot little innocent kids. My  heart goes out to those ones affected by this. Along with my thoughts and prayers may god be with them at this time. Its a sad cruel world we live in now and its totally devestating it just means always tell your loved ones goodbye and hug them and kiss them and hold them tight cause life is soo short on earth. If i had kids right now id be holding them tight. This needs to come to an end. Killing other people doesnt solve anything. Sure it ruined what his mom loved. But dang what an idiot he shot himself but if he was alive right now he'd realize he just shot his own mom and all these poor kids well now heaven has gained more angels 20 kids have been killed. I will never understand why people do such evil things to others and they kill them selfs probably cause they dont wanna face the police I hope he burns in hell he deserves it after killing so many people and his own family. They certainly will not be forgotten. Now that the kids will rest in peace. I am so glad paul wasnt in a situation like that cause i couldnt imagine loosing him. Its sad to see what our world is coming to. I bet heavenly father just wanted to cry to as those poor innocent kids were in his arms. Cause they didnt deserve this at all. Its to bad we cant help control it from happening again. It makes me soo sick i love little kids they are a joy and they are fun to have around and to know that such innocent ones get shot and killed by an idiot with problems it just makes me sick.

Happy 12/12/12

Last time for the year and century and today marks 12/12/12 thats alot of 12's Alot of lucky numbers for someone that gets married on this day or has a birthday. Its amazing way to remember a birthday or an anniversary. Since this is the last time before we go into the new year that has no lucky numbers like the one mentioned before. This is the last repeative number we will ever see for the next 90 years sooo Happy 12/12/12 everyone. :)

Depressing Day: What Makes my Day Better

So lately my family and I have been put through a situation it hasnt been fun. My dad kept telling us we need to move in with his friend dean and all that bull crap that just didnt make sense. No i Dont wanna live in Orem i like it right here in American Fork but i guess i dont have a say anymore so i guess when we do end up moving we probably will be moving to Orem but we havent found a home to rent in Orem. Probably some crappy cheap shitty apartment to rent is the only way to go. Im sick of living like this. Even though my Grandpa is helping us in the situation still. I told my mom yeah what if i wanna see shaliece?? your not gonna want to drive all the way up to Highland just so i can hang out with her and its like well heck you barely see her now anyways whats the deal? like hmm well hello i like it here cause im close by Dallin and if we move to Orem then me and Shaliece wont be able to go on a date with Dallin and Silas well it doesnt even look like that will happen cause Shaliece is always busy doing something and i get caught up in work and stuff. So it may not happen and then when he's gone it will be like a big regret. If anything i rather live homeless now. But after all this mess I get a missionary letter it made my day ALOT better it was like the best thing i needed to read after having the most depressing day his letter was a cheer up for me. But we wont have to worry about this situation anymore i hope. I just hope unless my dad gets the idea to take alot of the rent money and use it on his business and make this family screwed up again. If we can get one of those nice homes to rent to buy ohh yeah id soo like one of those brand new homes now. But i guess i will have to see what happens im just glad its finally over with and we wont have to worry about it hopefully. Now we can enjoy our christmas. I still dont wanna live in Orem though. Im not giving up anything either to live with someone else were a family of five we should be able to handle this on our own its our mess we  need to fix it and moving in with someone else that probably will just make matters worse. But i hope things start getting better and im looking forward to 2013 now hopefully we can finally go to Disneyland for sure this next year. Cause dang im in need of a vacation we should just take a weekend and leave to Las Vegas and like stay there for a day or two and just chill out and get everything off our minds and visit with some friends we know there. But for sure a missionary letter made it alot better. :)

Things My Kids Will Have & Not Have

Alrightyy im gonna be THAT parent that makes sure my kids have a fun filled child hood. No matter if its waiting til the appropriate age to give them electronics like video games, cell phones, ipods and all that. This generation is so screwed up now. Kids age 6 - 12 want an Ipad for christmas thats soo freaking messed up i don't see why 6 year old's should have an ipad. 6 year olds should be playing with toys not ipads. Not sure for a 12 year old though since thats like a pre teen age right there. But still its pretty sad how we have to live on electronics. And heres what my kids will and will not get.

As a kid while they are still growing this is what they wont get for a good while.

Cell phones they can have one when they are old enough and responsible for it as long as they dont become obsessed with it.
Ipads, Ipods, anything related to books like the kindle or the nook. Their own computers or laptops
Nintendo DS and any video gaming system is a no no until they are responsible for it
Facebook i wont allow them to have one until they are 13 the age that facebook wants the teens age to join They have so many problems with kids joining younger then that age. Plus i dont need them lying about their age and its up to them if they really want a facebook anyways.
Digital Camara they will get one maybe in Junior High or High School they dont need one as a kid.

Things my kids get.
They will be allowed to get learning games.
Toys
College fund. They will be able to access it after they graduate high school. Use it for whatever they want if college isnt a plan for them.

I'm just afraid once my kids get hooked on the electronics then they wont wanna go outside anymore but they still can play the computer they will just have limited time to play on it. Cause i wanna make sure they get some good excercise and have something else to do. They will be also allowed to watch tv and watch movies. I don't want them becoming lazy and im deffiently not home schooling them i want them to get a good education i wanna be a proud parent of my kids. I will still be a fun mom for them though.

But if parents are sick of their kids playing video games then quit buying your kids that stuff. If you want them to go outside then just tell them you wont buy them these things anymore. its simple and easy. Then maybe the kids will actually enjoy being outside all the time. I loved being outside as a kid. I didnt have alot of electronics kids have now days but we did play some video games on the nintendo 64 but it wasnt long either. If you have kids and live in a neighborhood full of kids then your kids will love being outside i lived in a neighborhood full of kids growing up we all played with eachother. So get your kids off their butts and actually have them spend some time outside and get some fresh air even if its not long it will be good for them and it keeps color on their skin and they wont be pale looking all the time.

Just a Thought

Yesterday my life flashed before my eyes. Hate those near death experiences. as into we almost got in a car accident. Those 2 seconds you take your eyes off the road do soo much when you don't pay attention even if its at a stop light i have no idea what my mom was doing at the time but dang we could of collided with the car in front of us and she was paying attention and thought that the car in front of us started to go and really he/she wasnt going yet. And thats when i had my life flash before my eyes. Just means life is really to short so enjoy what you have of it. Cause you have no idea what will happen to you. Im soo lucky my mom slammed on those breaks or i would of been in my first car accident and who knows what would happen to me. I could of died had a serious injury even though i wore my seat belt and im glad i wear my seat belt cause if we did get in a car accident i would of went flying out the front window. Thats why its important to keep your eyes on the road at all times and if you need to change the radio station have someone in your passanger side do it for you. It will save you from alot of things and its better to be safe than sorry. And honestly im glad to be a live just makes life soo important and since you have no idea what will happen to you after the car accident. Also if you love someone make sure they know it cause they might not be here tomorrow. So in this whole situation enjoy the life you have. Live like theres no tomorrow. cause you never know when it will be your time to go.

When Money Becomes an Issue...

I honestly hate money... Everything now days involve money. Moving, Shopping, Owning a business (Grand Opening) Paying bills, paying for rent, college yeah everything just involves the Green dough these days and i like money when its not an issue. But seriously it gets soo freaking annoying my parents have been in a financial mess since i was little. We struggled when me and Eric were kids and i just gotta say i freaking hate living in this situation. I don't pay rent for this house we live in but to know that we end up moving and just makes it annoying as heck. Ever since 2005 thats when we started the moving situation things never worked out right for us we thought moving to Las Vegas Nevada was the right thing to do and my dad got a good job there so we packed up and left. We thought things were great there and we'd never live here in Utah ever again but nope things didnt pan out to well with thatt when the econmy crashed. We were doing okay with all that money we got after my grandma passed away. But now we are totally broke its so nice to live poor I hate it. We struggle big time around christmas. Just greatful for what i have. Im soo sick of lending my parents money seriously if im not gonna keep doing this the rest of my life. Or the rest of their life. Cause then it makes me wonder if im gonna be in a financial mess. Which i wanna avoid the best thing possible if anything i wanna avoid the financial mess all together i just wanna live comfortable with money. Be able to get my kids a college fund so they can have money for college or whatever they decide with it. I just hope they can pay me back that full mount of money they owe me cause it just is maddning
to know that here i help my parents to keep us from struggling soo bad. Im just way to nice that i end up giving money to help my parents get by for awhile. But honestly i dont wanna keep lending them money anymore. its my money i hate giving it to them and realizing i cant spend anything cause i have nothing and theres things i could really have right now but i gotta wait. My parents try their best to give us the best of things in life. They gave us the best christmas ever every year so far. but it sucks to live like this. We possibly might end up moving next month if anything. who knows. But hopefully one day this mess comes to an end. cause im sick of this. I wanna be able to do something with my own life too. Cant keep putting my dreams on hold cause i dont have money or enough of it to fullfill my dreams. I worry ALOT!! now since were in this mess I dont want it for my kids either.
I wanna be able to do ALOT with my kids someday when i have them. And i wanna give them the best christmas ever and give them the best in life. id hate to live poor the rest of my life. :(

Crazy Life

I honestly dont know what to think. When my grandma and grandpa offer that i move in with them. Yeah its not gonna work out aleast i dont think it would. I'd miss my parents way to much. All though its gonna be different when ever i get married but still i love that i have opitions when i move but as much as i love my Grandma and Grandpa i'm sick of living with grandparents I love my grandma dearly but dang living with her 3 years of my life wasnt what i really expected. Cause honestly you'd think you can be a family of 5 living in our own home but nope and i know my grandma and grandpa scott can take care of them selfs heck you'd never guess their age cause they keep taking care of themselfs and making sure they are in good health. Which is nice. But nope still wont go through with the offer im just afraid and thinking about all these what if moments like what happens if i do move in with my grandma and grandpa id never get to see my friends. Heck i wouldnt deffiently get to see my best friend shaliece. Cause orem is a little far. i wouldnt mind if i didnt really have friends or anything. I love my family for all they do. Id like to move someday but just not with grandma and grandpa id like to have my own apartment seriously. Crazy how life works. I honestly want whats best for me now. Im old enough to control my life. I know people just want whats best for me. But that works like this they want whats best for me because it makes them happy and in the situation it doesnt make me any happier. I got soo sick of doing that for people. I got so fed up i only make myself happy now i dont give a care what anyone thinks anymore. The only thing that matters to me is that i know i have support and so far i have my families and friends support of what i do and it was my own decision to do these things with my life and my family has been soo proud of me. I dont go telling my friends what to do with their life they leave mine alone and i leave their life alone. They do whatever with it and i do whatever with mine. All that matters is i know that they arent doing anything stupid that they will regret. They have my support in what they do. But i'll never judge them for what they do in their life. But i honestly dont know what to think but i really dont wanna move in with my grandma and grandpa right now. Unless i really need to move in with them but i dont see why living in Orem utah for no reason well id like to cause of  UVU but other then that i like American fork. :) Cause im close by Ceder hills so i can go visit my favorite boys. :) but i guess i'll have to see how this will all work out. 

Exactly 1 month til Christmas

Since today is the 25th exactly 1 month left til Christmas and ahhhh im sooo excited i cant wait we started putting up decorations for christmas soon we will put up the christmas tree. and cant forget 29 days ahhhh it makes me soo happy to know its my  favorite time of the year again already. I just love this holiday season. Christmas is my favorite holiday. I freaking love christmas. but YESS finally and the christmas music makes me soo happy.

Happy Birthday

I known this boy since he was born. Today he turned 14 crazy how time flies by. he's in 8th grade now. Pretty soon he will be in high school its just going by fast. Theres alot of memories with this kid and he's like my brother im not related to hahaha and his name is Daniel. Happy Birthday Daniel. Hope he had a fun day. Even though it was on sunday he doesnt do friend parties and thats okay too.
he is autistic he used to have anger problems alot growing up now he knows how to handle it alot better. which is nice. he's growing up fast now that he's been a teenage boy. crazy!!!

Happy Birthday Eric

He drives us crazy sure were not proud of him and  sometimes i wonder how in the world i ended up related to this boy. I hate and love him and i been stuck with him since he was born. Even though we celebrated his birthday early on thanksgiving. He's my brother and i wont ever dis own him all though sometimes he can speak the truth with out thinking about it. and this brother is 19 years old now Happy Birthday Eric. 1 year left til he turns 20. hahahahaha crazy crazy.

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone

 

 

I hope everyone had a least a good thanksgiving! I sure did this was probably the most funniest Thanksgiving ever. Hahahahahaha First off who knew id get a new name Serena hahahaha my Grandma just started calling Serena like okay where did that come from? hahaha like who ever kne after being born with the name Jessica all the sudden 20 years later i get a new name and Grandpa likes it LOL :)) hahaha I wouldnt change my name though its dang expensive. hahahaha No wonder you want to name your kid something worth the keep cause its freaking expensive to change your name. hahahahaha and Thanksgiving Dinner was sooo yummy I was so full i thought if i ate anything more id be throwing up we deep fried the turkey hahahaha it tastes soo good. Hahahaha and you know we celebrated my brothers 19th birthday early even though its on the 24th of November (this Saturday) hahahahaha and dang we started singing Happy Birthday couldnt even finish singing Happy Birthday instead we bursted out laughing and here's the picture...... hahahahahaha even just looking at this picture makes me laugh.

 

Nothing like spending thanksgiving with my family hahahahahahha and falling asleep while watching a football game. hahahaha but i deffiently love my family. :)

Happy thanksgiving Everyone and for those of you who like Black friday shopping

Happy Black Friday Shopping!!!!

 



Amazing Grace

In honor of the 11th Anniversay of my grandpa Carroll's Death. We sang this song at his funeral and its really good. :)

If We Hold On Together

This song Just brings back soo many memories. I sang this song along time ago with my kindergarten or first grade class I just know I sang it. Its soo sad. It really has a meaning though if we hold on together we can make it through whatever and i just thought id blog about this. Cause deffiently for friends and holding on together through thick and thin and going through high school together being there for eachother in the end i just really like this song its sad though. and this song deffiently reminds me of Land Before time ecspecially since thats where it came from when Little foots mom or grandmother dies in this.

My new Job

Working at Deano's Pizza Builders has been something to get used to. Its like I'm living a life I never thought I'd live. Crazy to think I would never be doing something like working at a Pizza Place. I always thought of working somewhere else. But nope Life is funny that way and gives you something unexpected its been fun soo far I had training what to say when answering the phone. and I must say I got it all down. I took my first order too. Its been an experience trying this all out. and honestly I love our pizza its soo much better then any other pizza i used to eat all the time. Its crazy to think im living a life i never thought id live. I also passed my foods permit test after sitting at the computer for over an hour i finally passed my test all though i failed once but i tried again and i passed. I work crazy hours. Mostly the morning afternoon shift and im almost there til like 9PM soo i work almost 11 hours a day. Its been funny though cause my manager scares the crap outta me like it gets all quiet and all the sudden *BOOO!!!!* like what the heck hahaha and i litterly jump hahahaha. and i cant wait til we hire more people soo i have someone other then my own family to work with. hahaha
I can honestly say i like the way my life is going right now. Its giving me unexpected adventures in life and i like that. Giving new things a try in life and seeing what its like if i like it or not. So its pretty awesome.

That Moment when....

You go to walmart and there always has to be that doll they put out on display and it turns out to be one that talks and you walk by it and it starts talking or aleast when you push a button on it. Well it happened to me and it scared the crap outta me. and my moms like yeah if you were little and saw that doll you'd want  it hahahaha cant believe something that scared the crap outta me i would of wanted this toy as a kid if it was in my childhood hahahaha if i had it and it would probably scare the crap out of me now being an adult hahahahahaha. its crazy how dolls can do all these things now.
but yeah its always that toy hahahaha and it just happened to be this one. hahaha.

Sometimes a Picture Explains It All

AWEE!!! My sim guy created this picture for his wife its sooo freaking cute. It explains how i feel about Dallin. Now if my sim guy can give it to his wife sometime hahaha. Thats soo cute though when i saw what he was painting and saw the heart and people its like AWEEE ahahaha and this totally reminds me of how its with me and Dallin only if it were all real hahahahaha. But i think he just recreated their wedding on this painting hahaha and dang he's pretty good at it i must say. Just makes me wanna go tell Dallin how i feel. hahaha

 

 

 

AWEEE! BEST Friend = One Amazing Missionary

Today I found out my BEST friend got his mission call Aweee Im soo happy for him. (: He's gonna be one amazing missionary the next 2 years. But dang deep down im gonna go through a lot of with drawls :( He is the next one to leave my best friend Dallin leaves March 13th 2013 a month after his birthday and i've been missing him like crazy already. So i got a short time to see him but dangg it. he's the next one to leave. I am soo proud of him like my reaction was like OH MY GOSH!!! AhHHH thats so awesome. but i got still awhile with him here in person sooo its not to bad and besides i'll be able to write him letters hahahahahaha but danggg how can i express how i feel to him ahhhhhh he makes me forget how to breathe he makes me very happy hahahahaha just wish i could tell him and its killing me i cant fight this feeling anymore I dont know what im gonna do with out my boys next year. They make my day and getting letters from them will make my day even more better i just hope Silas hasnt left yet on his mission cause dang me and Shaliece need to go to Subways with them ASAP! she's going to be like Oh My gosh when she hears that Dallin got his mission call. I have no idea when ty guy leaves :( But for now i will enjoy them while they are still here. and i for sure will go to Dallins farewell. I hope Bj hasnt left yet either. Well this month next month January february and half of march is all i have left with my Best Friend! Sooo very happy for him but yet its like i might just forget how to breathe if he doesnt know how i feel and its soo hard to tell him. Apart of me wants to tell him big time but the other half is afraid of ruining a friendship with that boy. And i dont want that all though people i talk to they tell me do it and it wont ruin a friendship. Brandon is still a senior soo he wont be a missionary for a good while. (: Soo aleast i will have him around. Crazy how this has come time to say goodbye to them.

Moments Like This

Mmkay sooo today at work. This morning it was soo funny cause we teased my dad about being old hahahahaha. Here's the conversation


Dads friend Dean: Grandpa
My Dad: Not Yet!!! hahahaha
*Turns to me*
Saying Jessica you need to find a nice guy
Me: Yeah i do.
My dad: You need to start going singles ward if you wanna meet some guys.
hahahahahahaha

yeah this made me think hahaha Yeah i do need to start dating freaking heck. 20 years old. Time to change this hahahaha. (: I gotta find a guy that i like a lot. Sadly i will have to eventually let go of feelings for Dallin hahhahaha.

Now this really got me thinking yeah its really time to be serious and get settled down. I cant keep my parents waiting for grandkids i aleast want 2 kids before my parents pass away.
I just gotta make sure i'm ready physically and Mentally. But im excited to be a mommy someday.

11/12/12

Happy 51st Birthday Daddy! I Love youuu sooo much <3 I couldn't imagne my life without you! and thank you for raising me you and mom done the best job to help me grow up. I hope to find a good dad like you for my future kids to have and to call him their daddy. Simply the best thank you for having my back. I know you get protected over me and thats your job and i know you want me to be happy and see me not get hurt i wouldnt want that either. I dont think no parent wants to see their own kids go through marriage then to find out their kids are getting a divorce. I know I wouldnt want that in life. I hope to never have it happen. and I hope my daddy has a good Birthday even though he's 51 and says he's 17 hahahahaha. (: Im glad i can tease him about being old. And being able to Make fun of him being old hahahaha No matter what i will always be his little girl. (:

11/11/12

Today We Celebrated my Dads 51st Birthday even though its tomorrow.

we had soo much fun hahahahahaha we went to my grandmas house and this is one thing to remember.

My cousin Andy asks my dad (His Uncle) Sooo How does it feel to be 85?? hahahahahahaha oh my gosh we started just laughing my grandma's like oh no he's gonna cut you out of his will now. hahahaha and then my dad says well how does this sound and he makes a grunting noise getting up out of the chair hahahaha and says to my Grandpa I didnt know i was older then you hahahahaha then my grandpa was like well it must of been getting up out of the chair hahahahahaha oh my gosh soo funnny. hahahaha :) see we have soo much fun teasing my dad hahahaha. :)

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