Everything Happens for a Reason

Well now both my top back teeth are gone. They removed the last top back tooth on the left side on Tuesday it took forever to get the tooth out. They had to numb my mouth twice to get the tooth out it was so deep in there. I'm also off the pain killers that i'm allergic to i'm just on stronger ibuprofen now. The dentist wont ever give me those again. So i'm a happy girl now. I also have a dry socket I'm not sure what happened but as soon as the tooth on my left side came loose as they pulled on it they noticed a dry socket I also have a bone sticking out. I never had this problem before or a least i don't remember having a problem with a dry socket. Anyways i'm done with having teeth pulled. I still wish i got them removed a long time ago but now its over with. My stomach hasn't been to happy i think its been cause everything I was put through and it kind of hit my stomach fast i really didnt give my stomach a chance to adjust to everything so right now its a little on the nauseated side i haven't thrown up yet so that's a good sign. Next up is fixing the rest of my teeth i go back next Wednesday to get two teeth fixed. Working towards getting braces again. But after all this is done with i'll be done with the dentist i wont be seeing him anymore after this. This is the most i've been to the dentist and its gonna be so weird for them to not see me anymore. I gotta get back to the oral surgeon after this to have my teeth modeled for my teeth guard he's gonna get one made for me one that personally fits my mouth. Cause i've been grinding and constantly clenching and its been getting worse. But hopefully this summer I can find a orthodontist i know i don't want braces again i'm bummed that the first time failed. But i'm getting upper jaw surgery done to fix my under bite so I've gotta get braces for it. Braces will be on through the whole thing even when i'm recovering. Hopefully not to long after i get recovered I can get them off and not have to deal with this problem ever again. it freaking sucks. But all that matters is that i'm happy and healthy and I know i'm loosing weight but i'm gonna gain it all back. And i know its gonna be freaking expensive to break my jaw. I'm gonna be really breaking the bank this year. I hope this all pays off in the end cause i'm getting irritated with it. Its driving me insane and I'm ready to chew on solid foods but my jaw is disagreeing with me so i still have TMJ pain. I know going through this nobody would wanna go through what i'm going through. It hasn't been easy. I don't wanna go through this either but i will do what ever it takes to get my smile back to normal and get the TMJ pain to go away and stay away. We hope by summer i can be able to chew on solid foods again. I'm ready for this to be over with that's for sure.