Everything Happens for a Reason

Well now both my top back teeth are gone. They removed the last top back tooth on the left side on Tuesday it took forever to get the tooth out. They had to numb my mouth twice to get the tooth out it was so deep in there. I'm also off the pain killers that i'm allergic to i'm just on stronger ibuprofen now. The dentist wont ever give me those again. So i'm a happy girl now. I also have a dry socket I'm not sure what happened but as soon as the tooth on my left side came loose as they pulled on it they noticed a dry socket I also have a bone sticking out. I never had this problem before or a least i don't remember having a problem with a dry socket. Anyways i'm done with having teeth pulled. I still wish i got them removed a long time ago but now its over with. My stomach hasn't been to happy i think its been cause everything I was put through and it kind of hit my stomach fast i really didnt give my stomach a chance to adjust to everything so right now its a little on the nauseated side i haven't thrown up yet so that's a good sign. Next up is fixing the rest of my teeth i go back next Wednesday to get two teeth fixed. Working towards getting braces again. But after all this is done with i'll be done with the dentist i wont be seeing him anymore after this. This is the most i've been to the dentist and its gonna be so weird for them to not see me anymore. I gotta get back to the oral surgeon after this to have my teeth modeled for my teeth guard he's gonna get one made for me one that personally fits my mouth. Cause i've been grinding and constantly clenching and its been getting worse. But hopefully this summer I can find a orthodontist i know i don't want braces again i'm bummed that the first time failed. But i'm getting upper jaw surgery done to fix my under bite so I've gotta get braces for it. Braces will be on through the whole thing even when i'm recovering. Hopefully not to long after i get recovered I can get them off and not have to deal with this problem ever again. it freaking sucks. But all that matters is that i'm happy and healthy and I know i'm loosing weight but i'm gonna gain it all back. And i know its gonna be freaking expensive to break my jaw. I'm gonna be really breaking the bank this year. I hope this all pays off in the end cause i'm getting irritated with it. Its driving me insane and I'm ready to chew on solid foods but my jaw is disagreeing with me so i still have TMJ pain. I know going through this nobody would wanna go through what i'm going through. It hasn't been easy. I don't wanna go through this either but i will do what ever it takes to get my smile back to normal and get the TMJ pain to go away and stay away. We hope by summer i can be able to chew on solid foods again. I'm ready for this to be over with that's for sure.  

My Recovery

Well everything is good! Surgery went well. I was awake through it all. They removed one tooth and they remove the 2nd tooth tomorrow. I've been holding up okay! I'm so freaking hungry. Recovery has been well I've been taking it easy and been calm for the last few days. Been on some strong pain killers that have made me sleep good. I actually haven't been able to sleep good at all. I dream the weirdest things hahaha and i've been loopy i've forgotten what i say a lot of times lol. One of the funniest things happened to me being on this medicine really has me loopy I was eating the rest of my milkshake the other day and i forgot my cherry sank to the bottom and i thought it was a tomato hahahahaha totally had a ewww gross reaction to it. And than i ate it hahahahaha it made me smile hahahahaha i had myself a good laugh. I've felt so relaxed i'm not clenching and grinding my teeth as bad as i was before. I'm still stuck on a soft food diet and i think i will be on this till i see the oral surgeon again. After i get the last tooth removed than next week i can go ahead and start getting all my other teeth fixed. The faster i get this done the sooner i see the oral surgeon again. And well i've been recovering i've been able to do stuff i havent been on the computer a lot either since i been going through this. Its been something i dont wanna go through again. And well this is the first time i been allergic to my pain killers not sure what's going on but i've just been itching up a storm like crazy :( and i have been feeling so nauseated but i haven't thrown up at all either so i think this week i'm gonna get some nauseated pills prescribed and i gotta figure out what i can do about being allergic to my pain killer. I'm not alone i've looked it up on google apperently alot of other people get really itchy when they take pain killers and this has never happened before to me. I know one pain killer makes me throw up no matter what i eat or do. Either that or i'm not gonna take pain killers anymore besides i'll be okay if i take ibuprofen its not gonna kill me to have a little pain with it. I can't wait till this is all over with.  I'm glad i survived 5 days with my pain killers knowing i was allergic to it that could of killed me. Now that I'm done with the pain killers i'm happy to be on my TMJ medicine i've felt better and i'm not itchy anymore and im not nauseated. 

Here We Go

First surgery of the year. I visited the Dentist last week and I'm getting 2 teeth surgically removed. Nothing has been easy. Tomorrow I go through surgery to get the teeth removed. I was gonna do one at a time and just separate the surgery so i'd go through another surgery but i may just change my mind before they put me under and get the 2 removed at the same time. Surgery is no fun especially what I'm being put through and I know i gotta get braces back on for jaw surgery. I'm not gonna lie there has been times where i cried in pain cause i didn't know what else to do about it. I've been emotional today I think its just cause everything is finally happening and its becoming reality. I've got my friends and family updated on this on my Facebook i love the support I'm getting. I'm not even nervous at all about this I've been through this before its nothing new to me. All of what I'm going through is crazy but I'm ready for this to finally be taken care of. Hoping that things go well tomorrow and they succeed at removing the teeth. Nothing but the best. I'm gonna have to put my trust into the Dentist tomorrow to remove the teeth. I know usually the oral surgeon does it but i guess it never crossed my mind that this would be happening like this. I still got a long way to go hopefully this summer i get braces back on for jaw surgery. I also gotta finish up with the dentist in the next month so i can get back to the oral surgeon for my teeth guard so i don't clench or grind anymore. Hopefully by the end of this year i can feel better about myself and feel so much better with a better smile and gain the confidence back in my smile. We dont know exactly what happened but were thinking i had a weird reaction to having braces the first time and of course when i had that tooth up in top in my top gums i had that removed 2 years ago and we think the tooth has caused problems for the rest of the teeth. But hopefully after all this it won't happen again. I'm looking forward to starting this process i'm excited to finally have some dental help and get me where my smile needs to be.

Update on my Jaw

So I went to see the Oral Surgeon for my Jaw problem. I have TMJ really bad it hurts the Oral surgeon has me on a soft food can't chew diet. I've lost a ton of weight. I just haven't been able to eat right with my Jaw crooked and slanted and my under bite is really bad. I have to go to the Dentist on Tuesday to get some teeth fixed and then i gotta go back to the Oral surgeon he wants to model my teeth like they do at the orthodontist and get a teeth guard made for me. My TMJ is just really bad i have a bad habit of clenching and grinding my teeth and thats not good cause i can start breaking my teeth from doing it. Other than that I have to keep taking ibuprofen that the oral surgeon prescribed to me and i have to use heat and ice on my jaw. I Have to say that jaw surgery is in plan  my under bite will be fixed and the oral surgeon told me that i'd have to get braces so it can be easier for him to preform the surgery. He'd be happy to fix it but he wont do it till i get braces again so I gotta start looking into braces again. Not a fan but i can't complain its for surgery and it will only get better at the end. Hopefully everything will pay off cause i'm putting a lot of money into this. I mean i love my smile so much I've been loosing confidence in it and its making me unhappy it's making me feel like the confidence i once had is just bringing me down and i feel like its scaring away people when they look at me. I'm not sure how much longer i will be off food but until then I'll happily eat my Ice cream and yogurt and other yummy soft foods that i have to eat. I seriously can't wait to have this all taken care of. I'm glad i finally went to see the oral surgeon about this it was driving me crazy before i went to see him.