My Jaw Surgery Update

I know its been a hard journey to my jaw surgery and knowing my orthodontist said no to my jaw surgery the last appointment i had back in September i wouldn't know what to expect and what his reaction would be once i had met up with my Oral surgeon about it in October. I finally saw my orthodontist last Tuesday and got the best news ever after telling my orthodontist the oral surgeon wants to move my jaw down instead of forward he was able to agree with it i could tell he was more calm and more relaxed about that idea of having my jaw moved down instead of moved forward which is a big relief and he gave me a YES on surgery again and he asked me when Jaw surgery was going to happen and i said well we were trying to shoot for after Christmas but now i'm not sure at the moment were waiting for the insurance company to kick in and so he said well whenever you get your surgery scheduled please give us a call so we can schedule a pre surgery appointment 2 weeks before your surgery. He will put more hooks in once its closer to my jaw surgery so it feels good to finally have this all finalized its 100% a full YES this time for real. I couldn't be happier that were finally going to get this this all taken care of. Well i'm currently on a little detour right now i had the choice recently to get a new oral surgeon or get a new insurance plan because my oral surgeon doesn't network with my insurance company so i had the choice to get a new oral surgeon that networks with my insurance company. Well that would be a big mess it would be stressful and just a pain in my butt trying to find a new oral surgeon so i'm currently waiting to get enrolled with my new insurance plan cause i rather keep my oral surgeon and switch to a new insurance company. I really wish i had asked my oral surgeon what insurance company they network with so this didn't have to be a big mess. I have to wait till July for this now but it will be all over with before i know it. Once it hits July 1st I'm going to start enrolling with my new insurance so i can get this taken care of. I'm just glad for all the support i've had and i know i'm not alone in this. I knew thinking positive would make positive things happen and right now its all positive vibes prayers and crossing fingers. :)

Etsy: Pattern Blankets

I have three of these fun unique pattern blankets available in my Etsy store. Perfect for the one that loves Ice cream, colorful horses or monkeys. Perfect for gifts or just to have. They are made and ready to be shipped once ordered. They are soft, warm and cuddly. They aren't popular like my other blankets have been but they are still available in my Etsy store.

https://www.etsy.com/listing/214476636/monkey-no-sew-tie-blanket?ref=shop_home_active_7

https://www.etsy.com/listing/240698399/ice-cream-no-sew-tie-blanket?ref=shop_home_active_12

https://www.etsy.com/listing/240697401/colorful-horses-no-sew-tie-blanket?ref=shop_home_active_13

15 Years

Well it has been 15 years since my Grandpa passed away. <3 It feels like a lifetime ago. I was only 9 years old at the time so my Grandpa has watched me grow up and watches over me from above. I love and miss my Grandpa and i know someday i will get to see him again and it will be one good reunion when i see him again.:)t

Etsy: More Blankets

BYU Cougars Blanket 

I made my dad and brother a BYU blanket in the last year. They LOVED it. They are big fans of BYU and so i decided to sell one. Perfect for the BYU fan in your life. I know BYU is big here in Utah. Perfect for gifts or just to have and this blanket is made and ready to be shipped. Please feel free to message me with questions or a request for a custom blanket.
https://www.etsy.com/listing/248924415/byu-cougars-no-sew-tie-blanket?ref=shop_home_active_15

Barbie blanket 

I loved playing Barbie growing up. I'm still a Barbie girl even as an adult. Perfect for the one that loves barbie. I sold my other Barbie blanket i had so this is the only one i have left. Perfect for gifts or just to have. This blanket is made and ready to be shipped once ordered. Please feel free to message me with questions or a request for a custom blanket 

https://www.etsy.com/listing/240689614/barbie-no-sew-tie-blanket?ref=shop_home_active_14

Colorful Horses blanket 

I have some unique fun pattern blankets available in my Etsy store. This is one of them and its warm, soft and cuddly. Perfect for the one that loves horses. Perfect for gifts or just to have. This blanket is made and ready to be shipped. Please feel free to message me with questions or a request for a custom blanket. 

https://www.etsy.com/listing/240697401/colorful-horses-no-sew-tie-blanket?ref=shop_home_active_13

Ice Cream Blanket 

This one is also the fun one perfect for the one that loves Ice cream. This blanket is soft, warm and cuddly. Perfect for gifts or just to have. This blanket is made and ready to be shipped. Please feel free to message me with questions or a request for a custom blanket. 

https://www.etsy.com/listing/240698399/ice-cream-no-sew-tie-blanket?ref=shop_home_active_12

Inside Out Blanket 

This is a cute fun one. I loved the movie Inside Out it was a cute movie and this blanket is soft, warm and cuddly. Perfect for gifts or just to have. Kids will love this blanket. This blanket is made and ready to be shipped. 

https://www.etsy.com/listing/248920415/disney-inside-out-no-sew-tie-blanket?ref=shop_home_active_11

Monkey blanket 

Perfect for the one that loves monkeys this blanket is a fun pattern one just like the horse and ice cream one. Perfect for gifts or just to have. This blanket is so soft, warm and cuddly and this blanket is made and ready to be shipped. Please feel free to message me with questions or request for a custom blanket 

https://www.etsy.com/listing/214476636/monkey-no-sew-tie-blanket?ref=shop_home_active_7

Ant - Man Blanket 

This is perfect for the one that loves Marvel movies and i know me and my family are big fans of marvel movies. This blanket is soft, warm and cuddly and this blanket is also made and ready to be shipped. Perfect for gifts or just to have. Please feel free to message me with questions or a request for a custom blanket 

https://www.etsy.com/listing/260842294/ant-man-no-sew-tie-blanket?ref=shop_home_active_4

Disney Cars Blanket 

This blanket is perfect for the one that still loves the Disney Cars movie. There has been a 3rd one conformed by Disney this is perfect for gifts or just to have. This blanket is soft warm and cuddly. I'm possibly thinking of deactivating it if it doesn't end up selling soon. This blanket is made and ready to be shipped. Please feel free to message me with questions or request a custom blanket 

https://www.etsy.com/listing/210493325/disney-cars-no-sew-tie-blanket?ref=listing-shop-header-2

Disney Junior Sofia the First 

Perfect for the one that loves this show on Disney Junior. This blanket is soft warm and cuddly. Perfect for gifts or just to have. this blanket is made and ready to be shipped once ordered. Please feel free to message me with questions or a request for a custom blanket. 

https://www.etsy.com/listing/260837296/disney-junior-sofia-the-first-no-sew-tie?ref=listing-shop-header-1

Etsy: Blankets

Disney Junior Doc McStuffins 

I made this blanket its so soft, warm and cuddly perfect for gifts or just to have. This blanket is made for the toddler size. But i can make it bigger if needed too. Any girl that loves this show would love this blanket with her favorite character on it from her favorite show. I had a boy one but it sold. This blanket is made and ready to be shipped once ordered. If you have any questions please feel free to message me. This blanket is still available in my Etsy store. 

https://www.etsy.com/listing/214770429/disney-junior-doc-mcstuffins-no-sew-tie?ref=shop_home_active_1

 Disney Frozen Elsa and Anna 

Perfect for the one that LOVES Disney Frozen this is 1 out of the 3 that i have available in my Etsy store. Perfect for gifts or just to have. This blanket is so warm, soft and cuddly. This blanket is made and ready to ship once ordered. Please feel free to message me for any questions or a request for a custom blanket. 

https://www.etsy.com/listing/260841292/disney-frozen-elsa-anna-no-sew-tie?ref=shop_home_active_5

 Big Hero 6 

Perfect for gifts or just to have. This blanket is so soft, warm and cuddly. Any kid that loves big hero 6 would love this blanket. This blanket is made and ready to be shipped. Please feel free to message me with questions or a request for a custom blanket. 

https://www.etsy.com/listing/256068398/disneys-big-hero-6-no-sew-tie-blanket?ref=shop_home_active_9

 Disney Frozen Olaf 

This is my second Olaf Blanket as my First one sold last year. Perfect for gifts or just to have and perfect for the one that loves frozen or just loves Olaf. This blanket is soft,warm and cuddly. This blanket is made and ready to be shipped once ordered. Please feel free to message me with questions or a request for a custom blanket. 

https://www.etsy.com/listing/231153875/disney-frozen-olaf-no-sew-tie-blanket?ref=shop_home_active_6

Disney Pixar Character Blanket 

My personal favorite blanket 

https://www.etsy.com/listing/257164143/disney-pixar-character-no-sew-tie?ref=shop_home_active_8

 Disney Frozen Blanket 

Perfect for the one that loves frozen. This blanket is so soft, warm and cuddly. Kids will love this blanket and its perfect for gifts or just to have. This blanket is made and ready to be shipped. Please feel free to message me with questions or a request for a custom blanket. 

https://www.etsy.com/listing/256067516/disney-frozen-no-sew-tie-blanket?ref=shop_home_active_10

Etsy: My Personal Favorite Blanket

 My Personal Favorite Blanket in my Etsy store: 

Disney Pixar Characters blanket 

I personally love this blanket. Maybe cause it has all the Disney Pixar Characters i grew up with. I'm a 90's kid so of course i recognize all the characters i grew up with. I'm loving that they are finally bringing back some of the 90's shows and stuff. I can even make this blanket bigger if needed. Please feel free to ask questions or have a request for a custom blanket. This blanket is so soft, warm and cuddly. Perfect for presents or just to have. This blanket is made and ready to ship once ordered and this blanket can be found in my Etsy store. 

https://www.etsy.com/shop/NoSewTieBlanketStore?ref=hdr_shop_menu

Etsy Store

My Etsy store: 

NoSewTieBlankets 

I make and sell no sew tie blankets for both boys and girls. Perfect for gifts or just to have. The blankets have some fun characters on the blanket. These blankets are so soft, warm and cuddly. Perfect for the cold winter day/night. Kids will love the blankets and i have some pattern blankets available for sale in my Etsy store. They are all made and ready to be shipped once ordered. 

If you want to know about a custom blanket please feel free to message me on Etsy about more info on the custom blanket. Interested or know someone who would like a blanket? Go on and share it. 

I Just Had to Share This

My dad turned 55 over the weekend ahahaha. I would of gotten him the " You're only old once!" book for the fun of it but he doesn't read so i just found this on Google images hahahahaha. Funniest thing ever. hahaha my dad gets to have fun with some of the senior discounts now. hahahaha. I couldn't help it. Besides i had to reassure him that he is only old once! LOL 😂😂😂😂

Adventures Make Me Happy

I know me and my boyfriend love to adventure and travel a lot. I really love that we both enjoy adventuring together. Just a few days before Halloween about a week ago or so. We went on a fun adventure together. We went to Eureka Utah and drove around he has been to Eureka Utah before but i never have it was so fun getting to see that part of Utah and we both found a city called Mammoth Utah. Never been there before either so it was fun to find Mammoth Utah together. One of the coolest things about Mammoth and Eureka Utah they are known as a ghost town. It was so fun getting to explore both cities even if we were just driving around looking at all the abandoned places its a small town for sure.

Eureka Utah 

Mammoth Utah 

Etsy: Number One Popular Favorite Blanket

This is my number one popular Favorited blanket in my Etsy store. 

Disney Junior Doc Mcstuffins 

Perfect for gifts or just to have. This blanket is so soft, warm, and cuddly. Perfect for the girl that loves this show on Disney Junior. This blanket is made and ready to be shipped once ordered. This blanket is still available in my Etsy store.  

https://www.etsy.com/listing/214770429/disney-junior-doc-mcstuffins-no-sew-tie?ref=shop_home_active_1

Basically Wasted 2016

Hahahaha how i feel i just wasted 2016 hahaha. 

Just When I Wanted to Give Up

I've been praying and hoping this would still work out or i'd regret this for the rest of my life...

I've been so strong and positive through this Jaw problem and i know last month at first got some devastating news my orthodontist saying no to jaw surgery and it would be worthless and i could tell he was very nervous when he was talking to me at my last appointment last month and especially when he said he wanted to talk to my oral surgeon and he wanted to see me back in 5 weeks after that and i went to my orthodontist appointment last Tuesday and i had some mixed feelings about this cause i wasn't sure if he talked to my oral surgeon so i was hoping he would remember to talk to my oral surgeon and here i was about to go a different way with things if things didn't work out i was just gonna see if we could take my braces off early and just start the retainer process i was expecting to go about that and i got a lovely surprise i sat in the chair and saw my file opened on the computer and attached to it was a note about how my orthodontist met with my oral surgeon. I was beyond excited and relieved that he met with him and while sitting there in the chair my orthodontist came by and he was so much happier and more calm i could tell there was some good news he had for me and he said so i talked to your oral surgeon and basically said guess what? and i said what? he said your oral surgeon wants to see you. That made me beyond happy and so i made an appointment with my Oral surgeon last week to see him this Tuesday ( 10/25/16) and i went to see him over this week and  it was finally good to finalize everything i feel so at peace now. I finally feel like i can breathe knowing this is lifted off my shoulders. I basically talked about how i felt about this to my oral surgeon cause i'm honestly scared what happens if the surgery didn't happen after all and i get my braces off in May so i really don't want to repeat this again years later after my braces come off and he can see that i'm scared for this to happen again years later if surgery wasn't in the plan anymore. I found out my top and bottom jaws are both short and my bottom Jaw is shorter than my top jaw from what i remember my oral surgeon telling me. He was showing me what my mouth does when i open and close it. I don't have a problem with opening my mouth its the closing part that struggles the most. When he used his model thing to show me what my bottom jaw does when i close my mouth it looked so painful when he showed me. Well we got a new plan instead of moving my top jaw forward like my oral surgeon originally wanted to do he wants to move my top jaw down. The reason he will be doing this is to relief stress off my joints my bottom jaw is over working and that's not good so he said i have way to much stress in the joints and by moving the jaw down he will help take away stress from the joints. He said i'm a candidate for the surgery so its basically my choice to go through it or not go through it but with this i have decided to continue to put myself through it. I must add that i have made tremendous improvement in just a year in a half and to think my braces will be off in 8 months after the jaw surgery is done so i made so much progress with my mouth changing. We have everything finalized and i know we don't have a date for surgery yet but we will more likely get this surgery done after Christmas. My mom made a good point and suggested it that since the holidays are around the corner so she told me you might as well just enjoy the holidays so your not miserable and i agreed to it. I wouldn't want to be jealous and miserable sitting there drinking liquid stuff while my family eats the good yummy food at that point i might as well suck baby food out of the jar through a straw. We just started the process to have insurance involved to pay it for me. So it will take a least a good 2 - 3 weeks up to 2 - 3 months for them to respond back to us. I will go back to my oral surgeon after they figure insurance stuff out and i will get a cat scan and impressions done for my surgery and i will have an official date for my surgery. My orthodontist will prepare my mouth for it he will put surgical wires in my mouth and a bunch of fun lovely hooks so they can " wire" my mouth shut after they are done with my surgery and he will give us the green light to go for surgery. I found out i will be intubated so i will have a breathing tube down my throat while surgery is preformed and luckily i will be put asleep when they put the tube down my throat. Best part i don't see my orthodontist till December. So he will get word from my oral surgeon so i can't wait to hear my orthodontists reaction to this. Hoping this works out and lots of prayers and gotta remain strong and positive through this new process. I'm glad i didn't give up after all. :)

My 24th Birthday

What a good Birthday weekend it has been. Last Friday i turned 24 and i got to spend my birthday with my Best Friend Shaliece and painted ceramic pumpkins and saw a movie at the movie theaters. I also celebrated my birthday on Saturday with my boyfriend and he got to meet my Grandma and Grandpa Scott and my aunt and two cousins and got to sing happy birthday to me with my family and it was good to see my two cousins from Idaho since we hardly see them anymore. On Sunday it was just me and my boyfriend spending some time together and we drove through Provo canyon and hiked a little around Squaw Peak Overlook and than we drove off into the mountains and that made the dirt roads a fun experience. :) My boyfriend likes my grandparents and he can tell my grandpa has that funny sense of humor. It was good to finally introduce him to some of the family members. Since we no longer do anything with my dads side of my family anymore sometime me and my boyfriend will have to take a drive to Spanish Fork so i can introduce him to my dads side of the family. I knew he would fit right in and i'm glad that it went all good with meeting my grandparents meeting my boyfriend. by the end of the night we went for Ice cream at McDonald's before he dropped me off at home. 24 has been a good one so far the only part i could go with out the migraine i had the night before last night. so I'm currently experiencing a migraine Hangover LOL. My mom noticed that i don't look like i feel good my face is a little swollen with having my migraine and i feel like crap and i don't need to have a drink to experience the hang over when i got the migraine hangover.

One Awesome Weekend

Nothing like a good weekend! Got to celebrate my boyfriends birthday with him. It was a busy fun weekend got to hang out with him and his buddies last Friday night and he opened his birthday gift i gave him and he loved it! I knew he would love it. :) I didn't think i'd see him last Saturday but ended up he wanted to get food together which i was up for even though he was in a bad mood and by the end of the night his mood had changed to the happy mood. We took a drive through Mapleton Canyon and I must say sometimes its good to take a drive through the canyon and lose the cell phone signal and lose radio signal and have a good conversation. We also drove around Spanish Fork and i got to show him where we used to live. He wanted to meet my BFF Jennifer so i texted her and let her know we wanted to stop by for a quick visit and introduced my boyfriend to her and her family. We also got to do something with my best friend Shaliece and her boyfriend after we visited Jennifer. It was good to finally show him where i grew up. And knowing me i get so funny with the most random things i say in the car when we are driving and on the way to Shaliece's boyfriends house we got lost and i just randomly started singing home on the range hhahahaha and my boyfriend started singing it too. hahahaha i don't know why but all the sudden i said were going to home on the range and he sang it again. hahaha. After that we just had some alone time just the two of us and i got to treat him to lunch since it was his birthday last Thursday so it was a good fun busy weekend for sure i'm glad he had a good birthday weekend. Now this weekend we get to celebrate my birthday since i turn 24 on Friday. :)

Happy Birthday to My Boyfriend

Even though i don't share much about my relationship with my boyfriend on social media. I love how much respect he has for me and how he treats me right as i do the same for him. Makes me one happy girl and my parents sure do enjoy him. One of the things we have learned about each other we are one year and one week apart from each other. Today my boyfriend turned 25 its fun actually dating someone a year older than me. Our relationship is more mature being with someone a year older than me. I love how we will be at a place and he will just randomly grab me and start dancing with me unexpectedly and i love that he makes me laugh so much. He works full time and goes to school full time to get a better career and i couldn't be more proud of him. I love all of our random fun adventures we go on especially the new adventures we go on. He is so good to me he puts my well being before his and i love that he goes above and beyond to take good care of me. I love spending time with him when i see him on the weekends. This is the fun part of our relationship getting to celebrate with him this weekend and than next weekend we will celebrate my 24th birthday. Its hard to believe its almost been one year with him. I hope he had a good Birthday today even though i wasn't able to be there. :)

Jaw Surgery Update

I know i have shared my journey through this jaw problem and my top jaw did not grow right causing it to not connect right and that's all i have ever wanted fixed. My TMJ is being cured so i won't have that anymore after my braces come off thank goodness cause i couldn't stand TMJ pain anymore. I have learned some devastating news at my consultation appointment with my orthodontist he said surgery would be worthless at this point and says no to surgery. I knew something was up when he stopped talking about it a couple of months ago. So instead of him sending me to see my Oral Surgeon he will be meeting up with him to talk about this and see what my oral surgeon thinks about this if surgery is still needed and my orthodontist told me if surgery is still needed he will be okay with it and if the oral surgeon wants to see me he will call me. I could tell he was very nervous about it since we don't know how far my oral surgeon wants to move my top jaw. I have been in tears lately just wondering why we can't fix my top jaw with out moving it forward. At this point i want to give up and be done if there is no surgery than why keep my braces on. I'd want my braces off and of course i now have to wait till October 18th to find out if surgery is happening or not. So there is a little hope but i doubt by much it won't be happening. I just wanted to eat right again for once. I haven't had a salad for 2 years now all thanks to this stupid problem. My oral surgeon was the one that was willing to fix this all for me i even tried talking him out of doing it with out braces and he wouldn't do it so he told me as long as i got my braces back on for it he would do it. I just don't want any problems in the future like 5 years later all the sudden feel this again. That's how long it took for this problem to appear 5 years ago last year. If anything i'll want out of this i'll talk my orthodontist into taking my braces off and believe me i know a way to get him to take them off as i have done it with my last orthodontist. I know there's a saying that says " do not live with regrets" i'm regretting this one BIG time. If surgery is still a no go on October 18th i will have wasted time and money on this all for nothing. It hurts that i will have to live with my top jaw not connected right. I should of really took the time to look more into this while i was still thinking about jaw surgery. I regret putting my braces back on and i could hate myself for putting myself through this. Why did they put me on a freaking dumb 15 months wait for this pointless crap than if its worthless now. If this all fails i have learned my lesson to never ever again waste thousands of dollars on this mouth of mine. I will just have to adjust to letting this jaw be screwed up. For those who might be going through the same thing as me wanting to get it fixed get lots of opinions on it before just putting braces back on for no reason after all. I feel so stupid not looking more into it before i got my braces back on. I really hope there's a happy ending to this so my jaw can be connect right but other than that i'm doubting it but i'll find out the final answer on October 18th. It was worth a shot though. :) 

My Best Friend Ross

This is for the Best Friend I've had since 6th grade i know i don't talk about him much but it was sure good to hear from him the other day. I have no idea what i'd do with out him life would be different that's for sure. He makes me laugh and i know he's probably weird with all the random goat videos he likes. I sure do miss our Skype conversations and i know i probably won't hear from him for another year but i'm proud to have him as my best friend. Just thinking about him gets me laughing cause the things we would talk about. He's been my best friend for 12 years now and even if i don't talk to him i do think about him and hope for the best for him i really do. Our friendship is one that we can mess with each other and just joke around. I don't even have one picture of me and him and that's pretty bad LOL. I know i hate the song " love hurts" and i honestly miss how he would play that song during our Skype conversations. I know we live in the same state just different cities and Skype was an easier way of getting to talk to each other. I know he hates it when me and Jennifer fight he really does hate seeing me and her fighting. I sadly don't use Skype as much as it slows my computer now but i hope me and him can talk more than just once a year. I'd make time for him like i used to and just talk to him like the good old days. We just have the type of friendship its like we never stopped talking when we start talking to each other again. I hardly bother him cause i don't want to make it feel like i'm bugging him. I really do miss the random goat videos he would find on YouTube or where ever he found them. 12 years ( I forgot i met him at the beginning of 6th grade in 2004) and we are going strong we never really had a disagreement or fight and that's one thing i really like about our friendship. I wouldn't change him for anything. I still remember the first day i met him in 6th grade. Jennifer wanted to know his name but wouldn't ask him so she had me do it. The whole hey whats your name and he responds with " my name is Ross" and i tell Jennifer his name is Ross. Hahaha from that day forward we have a bond that could never be broken. I never got mad at him and i know sometimes he has me wondering about him. He's the one that wanted me to move in with him when we were moving to Las Vegas hahaha never had a friend offer that before. If that's not true friendship right there than i don't know what is.  He had one smart idea and he was so excited when he heard we moved back to Utah. I couldn't ask for a better best friend. I'm very lucky to call him my Best Friend even if we don't hang out anymore a least i know he's still doing good and keeping busy. :)

Fun Adventures

Instead of camping with my best friend and her boyfriend me and my boyfriend went on a new adventure and found this place called Mantua Reservoir and its so pretty up here. I told my boyfriend forget it lets live up here and all he could say was okay i'm down. Lots of fishing, boating and four wheeling from what we saw when we were there. They have some new beautiful homes coming in up here and i'm sooo jealous. I'd love to have the canyon and this lake as a backyard view. My boyfriend said that it looks fun building a home. We are on the same page with wanting to buy a home. I'd like a home in the canyon forget this boring neighborhood city stuff i'll be content with a home in the canyon. :) My boyfriend plans to get us a spot up here so we can go camping and we want to rent a boat and go boating up here too. Looks like we know where to go camping. We had so much fun and we even drove around Brigham City it was a fun adventure for sure. Its so relaxing up there it was nice to drive around and look around for awhile before we went back to his house.  :)

9/11

I know i was just a kid when this happened and at the time i didn't fully understand what happened all i knew it was a very sad day for America and I will never forget this day. 

Game Day

Whatever the outcome will be. I respect my boyfriend being a UTES fan and i come from a family of BYU fans and i'm not obsessed with BYU or football let alone like my brother is but yes i will watch a game and being in a relationship we respect our differences and this is one of them.

One Year is Enough: I Need My BFF

I know its been a whole year from what my friend did. Yes i was upset with her for this whole time and i just thought life would be okay going on with out her in it and it is super hard to move on with out her being there. Well i was wrong not a day goes by i don't think about her. I miss being able to talk to her. She really screwed up for me to be mad at her for a whole year and I've never been mad at her longer than a day. I'm going to patch things up with her and make our friendship work out. I mean i'm the only one that knows how to cheer her up when she's depressed. I know she probably misses me the most even if she doesn't admit it. She's my BFF i can't live with out her this whole year with out her has been hard on me. I miss all the fun times we used to have and all the weird stupid things we laughed at that nobody else could ever understand why we were laughing. I need her in my life even if she's made me mad. I can't live with holding a grudge being mad at her. Here goes to fixing our friendship and hoping that things get better between me and her. Hoping that hanging out and maybe getting back into Skype calls will help ease her depression. She may of made me feel like she kicked me to the curb and she honestly won't hang out with anyone else she rather just hang out with me as I've talked to her recently. I wish she would enjoy life like the way i did. I feel bad for her i really do this depression sucks i hate seeing her deal with it. I look forward to a better communication with her and being able to work on our friendship to make it better. Cause there is no way i can live the rest of my life with out her. I know we have our differences and i know she will be jealous of me but i'd never let that affect our friendship. It will be nice to be able to talk to her again more and hang out with her again. I honestly don't know what i was thinking when i  thought i no longer needed her apart of my life when in reality i know i do need her but at the time i was really mad and upset with her to the point i felt like she no longer deserved to be in my life anymore. I have no idea what i'd do without her.

Summer 16

Summer has been good so good with a ton of new unforgettable memories. Hiking has become one of my favorite hobbies. One of the adventures i enjoyed taking a drive through Provo canyon  with my boyfriend and driving to squaw peak overlook in Provo canyon and the view is amazing. My migraines are progressing worse and i had to switch to Excedrin Migraine to help my migraines and oh my goodness it helps more faster than ibuprofen just like my grandpa had to switch to Excedrin Migraine to help his migraines so i know how my Grandpa Carroll felt. My brother Paul started school on August 22nd and all he could say on the first day was " are you sure today is the first day of school?" Noo we just wanted to send you to school for the fun of it haha. I got to spend sometime with my boyfriend and bought him some dinner and he loved it and i can't wait to spoil him for his birthday at the end of this month and my best friend Shaliece wanted a photo shoot with friends and i got to be apart of it as for the pictures i don't think i'll ever get a copy of them and that's okay. I'm just glad that's over with so she can leave it alone. I had to help her plan it all out and it was stressful enough I was getting to the point i didn't care if it wasn't going to happen cause she had to keep canceling and rescheduling the photoshoot. My mom turned 54 this year hahaha next year she will get to have senior discount that must be fun being old LOL. Its already been one month since my best friend Tyler passed away and i'm having withdrawals like crazy missing him and not being able to call him anymore or go visit him but i'm just glad he's not in pain anymore. My best friend Shaliece planned a camping trip with her boyfriend and invited me and my boyfriend to go but they picked a bad day so me and my boy won't be able to go camping this Sunday - Tuesday and there's no point of going by myself if its a couples camping trip and I'd feel lonely and left out if I went without my boyfriend and I'd be miserable and I'm miserable just thinking about camping knowing my boy can't be there. So i just told my boy we can do something else while they are camping and we can just go camping on our own time if that's the way my best friend is going to be and I'm mad at her anyways. Other than that this summer has been fun! (:

11 Years Ago

11 years ago today Las Vegas became my new home as we left Utah and moved to Las Vegas in 2005. We were so close to losing our house in Spanish Fork so my dad took a job opportunity and got a job at Venetian hotel as a massage therapist. We never planned to move back to Utah once we got to Las Vegas i remember my mom saying "better get used to your new home here cause were never moving back to Utah" It snowed the first year we moved there LOL and the heat was one thing to get used to and i loved the heat. Our time in Las Vegas had come to an end we were only there for about 4 years. The only reason why we left is because of the economy it hit Las Vegas hard so hard my dad lost his job in 2008 so my parents made the decision to move back to Utah in 2009. It was one awesome experience i loved living there it was like a vacation from Utah and it even snowed the last year we lived there. I know things happen for a reason but we regret moving back to Utah. The past year or so we have regretted this. I tell my mom this all the time that this was one stupid mistake and she agrees with it. If we stayed in Las Vegas than my parents marriage would of been fine and my dads friend wouldn't of tried to destroy their marriage he nearly succeeded at it and because of that my parents can no longer communicate right with each other. I keep hoping maybe one day Las Vegas will get a second chance with us again.

Jaw Surgery Update

Well now that this crazy long 15 months wait for Jaw surgery has now come to an end. I have found out some news about my jaw surgery. I'm only getting top jaw surgery done. My bottom jaw is safe so double jaw surgery is no longer needed. I go back on September 21st for a consultation with my orthodontist and my mom will get to be there which is good and helpful so she will understand more of what's going on with my mouth and after that my orthodontist will send me to see my oral surgeon so this makes me so very happy. We sat there half of my appointment this past Tuesday wondering how the oral surgeon will move my Jaw. My orthodontist was saying there's a possible way we could go with out surgery and finish out my braces treatment and i understand but i just want my top jaw fixed that's all i want. I already tried talking the oral surgeon out of doing it with out braces but he wouldn't do it so i have braces for this reason otherwise if i would of known about this i wouldn't of wasted money on my braces. So i'm hoping there's some good news in this and i'm hoping to have a date for my surgery by the end of September.

Provo Canyon

Just because i have had a little bit of fun doesn't mean i'm not done grieving the loss of my best friend passing away. Its going to take some time to heal and i'll happily take all the time i need to mourn and grieve. I needed my boyfriend even more through out this hard time and i was able to spend a couple of hours with him yesterday and we went on a hike a crazy steep hike in Provo we found this new hiking spot in Provo canyon and it was so much fun. Utah is beautiful that is one thing for sure and i love that my boyfriend is always up for a hike. :)

A Dream Come True

On Thursday night me and my Best Friend Shaliece got to finally see Demi Lovato and Nick Jonas live in concert in Salt Lake and what a bonus seeing Mike Posner live in concert too he was the opening act for Demi and Nick. It was so much fun and now i can cross that off my bucket list and the tickets were worth it. Demi Lovato was awesome last night and so was Nick Jonas. I'm not much of a Mike Posner fan i do like a few of his songs but i didn't recognize him at all i'm used to seeing a picture of Mike posner with blonde hair. This was much needed fun for sure especially after our best friend Tyler passed away and this was something that we were able to take our minds off Tyler for a few hours. Can't say much for the uncomfortable hard seats though. The Vivint Home smart arena has the most uncomfortable seats and having long legs doesn't help either. I feel sorry for the Utah Jazz fans that get to sit in those uncomfortable seats to watch the basketball games. It was a dream come true to finally see Demi and Nick live for the very first time. I'm glad that we got to go and have some fun and hopefully maybe in another 2 years there will be another good singer worth the tickets and money to see live and we will go to another concert. I hope Demi Lovato or Nick Jonas makes a come back to Utah again. I'd love to see them both again in concert. I've always wanted to see Demi Lovato live in concert but its a bonus when i get to see Demi and Nick live in concert at the same time. My brother Paul is Jealous and i wish i could of known he wanted to go cause i would of got him a ticket but oh well maybe someday Demi Lovato will make it back to Utah and he can go see her live. And this was part of celebrating 8 years of being friends with my best friend Shaliece too so it was one awesome concert. :)

Tyler's Funeral

On Monday night we celebrated Tyler's life so me and my best friend Shaliece went to it to show our support. One of the funniest things happened and i didn't have nothing to drink i just ate ice cream and some candy and all the sudden i started burping hahahaha and I didn't mean to burp at all i didn't want to be rude and disrespectful but it turned out pretty funny and i think its what Tyler wanted from us that night. I burped and this girl behind me was standing up and over heard me and i was sitting down and she turns around and says nice one. Hahahaha i'm like oh my gosh i'm so sorry excuse me and she's like saying oh no its all good you burp just like my daughter hahahahaha and we couldn't stop laughing about it and i'm just eating more candy and all the sudden i start burping again. hahaha and i'm laughing and saying can this get any louder? hahahahaha I was telling Shaliece if i burp any louder i'm going to have the whole room looking at me and before i know it she starts burping. hahahaha so i started laughing and started saying i better stop eating this burping candy hahaha its making me burp hahahaha and the burping happened again and i said oh my gosh if Tyler is trying to tell me to put on a show for his family he's gonna hear about this when we meet up again someday. I told shaliece i was going to look at the table with his stuff on it and i didn't want to take my burping candy with me and what do i know yeah just like that another burp happened hahaha and so i went back to the table and shaliece started burping again and we died laughing we were like if Tyler is telling us to put on a burping show he sure has an interesting show for us to put on. I said well if we burp we will get the whole room burping like its some contest. hahahaha and we got to talk to his grandma that night too and we told Tyler's mom what happened and she's like oh my gosh hahahaha Tyler is up there smiling and laughing. Shaliece is like i bet he's saying Jessica and shaking his head hahahaha. I'm very glad we were able to go to this and celebrate his life and all the good times we had with him. We had his funeral yesterday and his mom, dad and two sisters gave all good talks. I got to know Tyler a lot more through his life sketch his dad put together and it was funny and good and sad all at the same time. I had no idea he dealt with mental illness either. His aunt also gave one good talk and the music was just beautiful.  After that we went to the cemetery and not a dry eye there at all. That's when all the tears just came out all at once. I was crying during the funeral at the church but nothing like this. Me and Shaliece were just hugging each other and crying.
This is like it so he's in his final resting place now. We were able to say our last goodbye to Tyler and even though it was a closed casket it must of been really traumatic enough for his parents to say no to the open casket and that's okay with me i'm glad they really didn't cause i don't want to see Tyler like that if its really traumatic. One thing i really liked was his mom said that once we get to heaven someday she said that it will be one awesome reunion and it will be like we never stopped talking. Tyler you are loved and i miss you already.   :)

Rest in Peace Tyler

My heart is heavy as i heard the news my best friend Tyler passed away. :( One thing about him there was never a dull moment with him. I'm glad i got to know one awesome kid. I cry and smile just thinking about all the memories and good times. Its hard to believe your gone. Rest in Peace Tyler. I hope heaven is everything you could imagine and i will miss you. Thank you for being you and being the best friend i could ever ask for. What i'd do to get that high five or hug again and just to talk to you one last time. This goes to show life is too short and i need to keep in touch with close friends or i'll regret it again.  I wish i got to spend some more time with you and make more memories with you and kept in touch with you. I now have a best friend in heaven and that's you. I can't wait to see you again someday Ty Guy! :)

Yes Finally 15 Months

Yay this 15 months wait for Jaw surgery has finally come to an end. I've been able to share my experience with TMJ and share my Journey to Jaw surgery and i'll tell you it only helps to read other jaw surgery stories. I'm excited and ready for this to be over with. I know i feel alone about this at times. I'm secretly excited to spoil myself with a liquid only diet and soft food diet. I can only imagine its hard on my parents to see their own daughter going through this. I've been blessed with one supportive family. My mom has been having the hardest time with it now she has been negative about it it lately but i guess i won't understand cause i'm not a parent yet so i really wouldn't know how they truly feel until i'm a parent and know the feeling. My boyfriend is supportive and loving about it and i love that about him too and he can't wait to spoil me with food. I'm just waiting for the final details of my surgery and i'll be set to go. What a crazy hard adventure it has been 15 months wait i'm glad its finally over and surgery is bound to happen anytime now. I see my orthodontist in about 2 weeks and last word i got was everything is looking good. So i'll take that is the good news and i hope it stays that way and i'll find out when the oral surgeon will finally contact me.

Looking Forward to Next Year

One of the hardest things i had to do this year is take a year break from school. I will miss out on this next new school year. I'm only doing it cause of my Jaw surgery and i decided it wouldn't be worth missing out and trying to catch up. I look forward to going back to the new semester in January or just wait until next August to go again. I honestly can't wait to finish getting my Child Development Associates so i can do what i'm passionate about. I also can't wait to start volunteering at a pre school to help with my credit hours. I know i'm bummed i will have to skip this year but i can focus on recovering and not stressing out over missing so much school and having to catch up on so much that i missed when i can just take the year break and worry about paying off my jaw surgery and recovery and than jump back into school again next year. But i'm for sure not letting anything else get in my way and finishing my child development associates and get school taken care of without a problem. I on the other hand am very proud of my boyfriend for going back to school to get a better career. :)
 I will be looking forward to going to school again until than i will take care of me. :)

The Good Things in Life

While I've been having fun over the past week From having a sleepover with my best friend Shaliece last weekend to going on a short road trip to Nephi this past Tuesday. Nothing like having so much fun singing Hello by Adele in a funny voice and when the phone service sucks and listening to music on Spotify and joking about going to Las Vegas for the rest of the day. Even if it was Just going down to Nephi Utah for the day to see where my moms friend works at and be able to go out to eat there in Nephi. It may of not been much but it was good to get away from the city part of Utah for a few hours. I'm glad we were able to take a short trip down to Nephi and i wish we would of gone the rest of the way to Las Vegas but we had to get back home to go to my grandpa's birthday dinner. It was one good fun day. We like to get my Grandpa funny birthday cards and we picked one out that was so funny something similar to the " you know your getting older when" type card and it said your reminded its your birthday and just wanted to remind you again Happy Birthday. It was a funny one we got a laugh out of it. I live for adventure and to take the short trip to Nephi has really helped ease a lot on my mind lately. I hope we can take another short trip soon again.

Demi Lovato / Nick Jonas Concert

Yes finally can't wait to see Demi Lovato and Nick Jonas live in concert with my best friend Shaliece next Thursday. :)

Cake Batter Oreo Cookies

Sometimes me and my best friend like to make some yummy deserts to eat just like good old times while we were in High school and just after graduating high school we would make yummy treats.  The other day was my best friend's day off work so we hung out and wanted to make a yummy treat and we wanted to look on Pinterest for a new treat to try and i found these cookies called Cake Batter Oreo cookies. So we decided to give it a try and we made it like this cookie in the picture but we just had the original Oreo cookies we didn't use the golden Oreo cookies. They were so fun to make and so good. I'm glad we were able to have a baking day again its been forever since we made something yummy. The recipe doesn't call for vegetable oil but we added it anyways cause it wasn't turning doughy at all. I sometimes also make something yummy with my childhood best friend Chaylyn too so its fun to do something fun like the good times we had years ago. I can't wait to have another baking day soon. :)

How I Feel Having TMJ

  This is the most hardest awful thing I've dealt with by far in my life. Ever since i was diagnosed with it and TMJ is a pain my butt. Just add the messed up top jaw that's not connected right and that's my story. When ever someone asks me what TMJ is i usually end up saying it has to do with the joints connected to the jaw cause i tried to explain it the complicated way once and they still didn't understand what it meant until i finally said it has to do with the joints connected to the jaw than they finally understood what it was. Thank god i won't have to deal with this much longer. 

Lagoon Day 2016

Yesterday i got to spend sometime with my boyfriend and what would of been a hike and a picnic turned out to be an awesome fun adventure at Lagoon. His dad's work was having a party at Lagoon and he had 4 tickets available. Now i never been on a roller coaster in my life. My fear of heights just keeps me away from them and well yesterday my goal was accomplished i got to ride my first roller coaster. I wasn't talking myself out of the rides until the rocket and cannibal that's when i started talking my way out of riding the rides. My supportive loving boyfriend encouraged me that i could do it. He even would hide me from looking at the rocket so i wouldn't get more scared of it. I was watching it as it would shoot up and shoot back down. He just kept hugging me and keeping me calm from being afraid. And what do i know i find myself on the rocket ride next to him and he was holding my hand for awhile and i let go of his hand cause i wanted to hold onto the bar. That wasn't so bad after all and before i knew it we were at the bottom. He was helping push me out of my comfort zone and trying new things and we succeed at that. We went on another ride where they have two people sharing so i got to sit in his lap on that ride and than we took a nice lovely relaxing ride up over Lagoon. and before i knew it after that ride we went right for the cannibal. I'll admit i was terrified i didn't want to ride it and i wasn't ready i wasn't sure i could handle that ride. My boyfriend was trying to calm me down and i don't know if its cause so much to take in at once all this adrenaline going through my body and the excitement of having fun riding these rides all the sudden after that i got emotional and started crying and confused cause i didn't want to ride the ride yet i knew someday i would have to face my fear of riding it and that chance might as well be now not later. I don't know why all the sudden i got all emotional over a simple ride and one word.

This is the cannibal ride at Lagoon. We had front row seats so i had the chance to see the full drop down. My awesome boyfriend after the drop was being all cute and he leaned over kissing my head and i must admit i screamed and smiled and had one big smile once we were done with the ride. :) by the end of the night we went on two different rides and left after riding the roller coaster ride Lagoon's first roller coaster. :)

My boyfriend is proud of me and i'm proud of myself for accomplishing a big goal in my life that i never thought i would never ever do in my life. Now next time i can ride this without freaking out so bad. We even got to spend some much needed alone time with each other before we went and had fun. The cannibal will be one ride i will remember for the rest of my life.We pretty much had one awesome day yesterday. :) 

Finding Dory

The other day me my mom and my brother Paul finally went to see Finding Dory. I was only 11 years old when Finding Nemo came out so of course i was excited for Finding Dory even though i'm 23 years old now. Finding Dory was a cute movie it was funny too but not as funny as Finding Nemo was. But its still a good cute movie. One thing i liked the most Disney Pixar didn't change Dory's voice and Marlins voice. Ellen voicing Dory has made the movie more funner to watch. I melted with cuteness when they showed baby Dory she was so cute. I won't spoil to much about the movie but i feel like my childhood is now finally being complete with the sequels to the movies that deserve it the most. Now Toy story 4 will be another one i'm looking forward to in 2018 and the Incredible's 2 in 2019 I'm not sure about Cars 3 yet. I just know i'm more excited about the other two movies so far. No matter what anyone says i will never be to old for a Disney movie no matter how old i get i'll always enjoy watching a Disney movie. I mean heck with it my mom is in her 50's and enjoys watching a Disney movie with us.

4th of July Weekend

Its good to know there are still good and kind people in this world. During 4th of July weekend we were at the Stadium of Fire at BYU and while we were there for the Firework show at the end of the concert. I was having a migraine and normally i never had a migraine the last 2 or 3 years we went to the Stadium of Fire so i never thought to bring aspirin with me and knowing i didn't have any aspirin on me i started getting a little panicky cause my eye sight was getting messed with and i knew if i didn't act fast my hearing would go and both hearing and eye sight would be sensitive to light and sound. So i asked my moms friend who was with us if she happened to have any ibuprofen and she did but she left her purse in her car so that didn't work and i stood there trying to figure out what to do still panicking about not being able to enjoy the firework show a girl behind us over heard i was having a migraine and offered to give me some Excedrin for my migraine and i said yeah i would like some. She was telling me she's like i know what its like having migraines and I know she didn't have to but it was nice she came to my rescue and saved me from what would of been a horrible migraine to the point i wouldn't even want to be there i would of wanted to go home if it got that bad. I couldn't thank her enough for it. I know its probably not safe to do that but the Excedrin really worked and i never had Excedrin for my migraine before. This just goes to show there are still good people in this world. Next time i will have to start taking aspirin with me just to be prepared just in case a migraine happens again. and that way i don't have to get aspirin from a random girl but she was so nice and she honestly didn't have to offer me some Excedrin but a least she knows what its like with a migraine life style.  I was able to enjoy the firework show after i took the Excedrin even though the migraine drained my energy. I'm even tempted to switch to Excedrin for my migraines now that the Excedrin helped my migraine more faster than the ibuprofen helps. I'm just very glad i was saved from what would of been one horrible bad migraine. Ever since than I'm getting a migraine every week so far.

One Month Left

Just like that we finally made it to ONE month for my jaw surgery. Everything is looking good for jaw surgery. Next month my jaw will be fixed and i will be on the road to recovery. I'm just waiting to hear from my Oral Surgeon. 

Summer Adventure 2: Air Show at Hill Air Force Base

One of the fun things we got to do this summer being back in Utah for 7 years we had the chance to go to the Air Show at the Hill Air Force base in Ogden Utah last Sunday. Best thing ever its FREE for the public and its pretty awesome we went to the last Air Show in Las Vegas in 2008. They do these shows every 2 years so if you have interest in these air shows take advantage of it and take the family to it and you can still wear ear plugs and enjoy the show. My best friend has never been to the air show before and she had a blast she loved it. And best part they have an Air Force Museum that's FREE too. Even if the Air show isn't for 2 years again you can still tour the Air Force Museum and i'm planning on asking my dad when we can go to it for a day. I know me and my brother Eric grew up loving that place. I know its a pretty packed place to be when they have the Air Show but its well worth it and we loved the Thunderbird's at the end of the show.

Summer Adventure: Squaw Peak Overlook

Having a boyfriend always doesn't mean every adventure has to be expensive. Me and my boyfriend took a drive through Provo Canyon to Squaw Peak Overlook. We both never been up here so it was pretty awesome finding this place together last Saturday. The best part is he knew i needed this since he knows I've been stressed out and overwhelmed. One thing i really love we take turns picking something to do and sometimes we just go for a drive around town. I love our random fun adventures even if its free or cheap to do. Heck with it i'd be content with him at home not doing anything and still be happy. :)

Happy Birthday Paul

Happy Birthday to my brother / best friend Paul. I hope 14 is a good one for you. I love you soo much. My favorite picture of him when he was little. Crazy how time flies so fast. 

Gotta Love My Sims

Sometimes my Sims family does the most weirdest things that get me laughing. I caught this one at the right time. The mom hid her face as i took a screen shot of this hahaha when really she was just being silly and funny with her daughter.

One other thing this stuck out to me. Hahaha what a very creative sim he is. I thought it was a girl with abs and thinking wow is that a girl with abs hahaha but okay i guess whatever rocks her boat and than he got more closer and i see its a guy instead of a girl. Hahahaha this had me laughing. 

Summer Adventures

I couldn't be more happier now that its summer. I have some fun exciting things planned out so far. I'm taking a weekend in the next two weeks and going to Las Vegas. I'm going to have my mom request a weekend off and if my brother Paul wants to join along he is more than welcome to come have some fun with us in Las Vegas. I'm beyond excited to go back home and have a little fun time with my mom and visit it will be nice to get away from this crazy state for a little while. I know i need a vacation badly i find myself looking at hotels in Las Vegas. When in reality i know i shouldn't even take a vacation cause i promised myself not to go on vacation till after my jaw surgery is paid off but i'm just driving myself more crazy not having a vacation. My mom wants to go on a family adventure this summer to the Air Force Museum for the first time since we have been back living in Utah and i haven't been there since i was a kid and I know my brother Paul will love that place especially with all the cool airplanes on display. Of course i can't wait to go on more random fun adventures with my awesome sweet fun loving boyfriend. :) I finally got to show him Bridal Veil Falls in Provo Canyon since he has never been. I forgot to totally mention to him that there is a swimming pool at the top of the water fall and my boyfriend is going to teach me how to swim. Due to a childhood accident i could never learn to swim to save my life. I sound like a lame 23 year old saying i don't know how to swim but i guess a childhood accident can be pretty traumatizing enough to cause me to not know how to swim and yes this accident happened at a swimming pool otherwise i'd totally know how to swim and now i'm going to accomplish to learn how to swim for once. My boyfriend is willing to teach me and he can't wait to teach me and i'm excited for him to teach me i can't wait to know how to swim and not sound so lame for saying i don't know how to swim. I'm also excited for an awesome concert me and my best friend got tickets to go see Demi Lovato for the first time ever along with Nick Jonas. So this is like going to be a dream come true and finally getting to see not only Demi Lovato but a bonus of seeing Nick Jonas live in concert too. :) I'm totally excited about that as that will probably be one of the last fun things i get to do before my surgery happens since i won't be able to do anything for 2 weeks after the surgery. But most of all i can't forget my brother's birthday. He will be 14 years old next week so we will get to celebrate him. I'm going to make the best of my summer and hopefully make it more enjoyable even if i don't get a good vacation away from here. Here goes to summer 2016 :)

5 Years Ago Today

It doesn't seem possible this was 5 years ago today :) Crazy how fast time flies by. Even though i only got to attend American Fork High for 11th and 12th grade. Safe to say... Once a Caveman always a Caveman and i'm proud to be one. :) We had our 5 year class reunion last month and it felt weird to call it a reunion like i feel old now.