Just When I Wanted to Give Up

I've been praying and hoping this would still work out or i'd regret this for the rest of my life...

I've been so strong and positive through this Jaw problem and i know last month at first got some devastating news my orthodontist saying no to jaw surgery and it would be worthless and i could tell he was very nervous when he was talking to me at my last appointment last month and especially when he said he wanted to talk to my oral surgeon and he wanted to see me back in 5 weeks after that and i went to my orthodontist appointment last Tuesday and i had some mixed feelings about this cause i wasn't sure if he talked to my oral surgeon so i was hoping he would remember to talk to my oral surgeon and here i was about to go a different way with things if things didn't work out i was just gonna see if we could take my braces off early and just start the retainer process i was expecting to go about that and i got a lovely surprise i sat in the chair and saw my file opened on the computer and attached to it was a note about how my orthodontist met with my oral surgeon. I was beyond excited and relieved that he met with him and while sitting there in the chair my orthodontist came by and he was so much happier and more calm i could tell there was some good news he had for me and he said so i talked to your oral surgeon and basically said guess what? and i said what? he said your oral surgeon wants to see you. That made me beyond happy and so i made an appointment with my Oral surgeon last week to see him this Tuesday ( 10/25/16) and i went to see him over this week and  it was finally good to finalize everything i feel so at peace now. I finally feel like i can breathe knowing this is lifted off my shoulders. I basically talked about how i felt about this to my oral surgeon cause i'm honestly scared what happens if the surgery didn't happen after all and i get my braces off in May so i really don't want to repeat this again years later after my braces come off and he can see that i'm scared for this to happen again years later if surgery wasn't in the plan anymore. I found out my top and bottom jaws are both short and my bottom Jaw is shorter than my top jaw from what i remember my oral surgeon telling me. He was showing me what my mouth does when i open and close it. I don't have a problem with opening my mouth its the closing part that struggles the most. When he used his model thing to show me what my bottom jaw does when i close my mouth it looked so painful when he showed me. Well we got a new plan instead of moving my top jaw forward like my oral surgeon originally wanted to do he wants to move my top jaw down. The reason he will be doing this is to relief stress off my joints my bottom jaw is over working and that's not good so he said i have way to much stress in the joints and by moving the jaw down he will help take away stress from the joints. He said i'm a candidate for the surgery so its basically my choice to go through it or not go through it but with this i have decided to continue to put myself through it. I must add that i have made tremendous improvement in just a year in a half and to think my braces will be off in 8 months after the jaw surgery is done so i made so much progress with my mouth changing. We have everything finalized and i know we don't have a date for surgery yet but we will more likely get this surgery done after Christmas. My mom made a good point and suggested it that since the holidays are around the corner so she told me you might as well just enjoy the holidays so your not miserable and i agreed to it. I wouldn't want to be jealous and miserable sitting there drinking liquid stuff while my family eats the good yummy food at that point i might as well suck baby food out of the jar through a straw. We just started the process to have insurance involved to pay it for me. So it will take a least a good 2 - 3 weeks up to 2 - 3 months for them to respond back to us. I will go back to my oral surgeon after they figure insurance stuff out and i will get a cat scan and impressions done for my surgery and i will have an official date for my surgery. My orthodontist will prepare my mouth for it he will put surgical wires in my mouth and a bunch of fun lovely hooks so they can " wire" my mouth shut after they are done with my surgery and he will give us the green light to go for surgery. I found out i will be intubated so i will have a breathing tube down my throat while surgery is preformed and luckily i will be put asleep when they put the tube down my throat. Best part i don't see my orthodontist till December. So he will get word from my oral surgeon so i can't wait to hear my orthodontists reaction to this. Hoping this works out and lots of prayers and gotta remain strong and positive through this new process. I'm glad i didn't give up after all. :)