My Best Friend

Last Saturday after getting home from Women's conference in Salt Lake City. Knowing that my Best Friend hasn't talked to me in almost a year. I get a message from him on Skype saying " Hi" like okay he waits a year to finally talk to me yes i know i understand life gets you busy and caught up in life but if your a friend you'd make time to talk to your friend and even if it was just for an hour or not even an hour just for a few minutes to see how they are doing nope he never did that the last time me and him talked was in July 2014 so almost a year later and  I don't know why all the sudden he's talking to me again he drives me crazy and I know he invited me to his homecoming talk since he's done with his Mission at the Bishop storehouse and i thought maybe because he saw me with my best Friend who came home off his Mission a couple weeks ago and at that time I didn't know what to think if i should go or not just cause we weren't talking to each other and stuff cause a friendship doesn't work on a one way side like only me trying to make it work even though he wouldn't put the effort into it. I seen his likes on my posts on Facebook and Instagram but seriously to go a year without talking to each other and well Saturday night I just didn't want to ignore him anymore so i replied back with a Hi and last night after being gone all day to my grandma's house he replied back and before i knew it Jennifer my BFF calls me on Skype and i notice it has Ross's name in it. I answered it and i gotta say he was so excited when I answered the group call. He drives me crazy i can just say he drives me crazy i mean he's been my Best Friend since 6th grade. He apologized for not talking to me for almost a year and it was nice to catch up and even though me and Jennifer didn't talk much on Skype it was good even got to spend some alone time on Skype with Ross after Jennifer got off. But its so funny he can drive me crazy and annoy me and tease me and just play Love hurts and i know he has rock hard abs cause i poked them before hahaha yeah I'm pretty lucky that he let me touch his abs. LOL our friendship is just so complicated its not even to the part i enjoy it anymore its like a love hate relationship and right now its Love or its more like a Like relationship here. Telling him by the end of the conversation that it was good to catch up with you and he said the same to me and i said lets not wait a year to talk to each other and he said yeah maybe we can talk before my homecoming talk or something. I know how this is going to go we won't say a word to each other and he wondered why i haven't accepted his invite to his homecoming even though he looks forward to having me there he understands if i won't be able to make it so i think he kind of knows why if i don't show up. I defiantly missed him though not skyping with him and hearing that annoying song love hurts and his rock hard abs hahahahahaha it was nice to actually tell him stuff again and catch up and he even showed me some videos that were so funny LOL i think he has missed me and I don't know if he's a little Jealous but he was sure Jealous when he asked me what i was doing and i told him i was talking to a boy hahaha his reaction was so funny LOL he's like what boy are you talking to? like hmmmm a boy that keeps annoying me with Love hurts and sea horse and likes to slap his 6 pack do you know who i'm talking about? he's like this boy and he starts playing Love hurts again hahahahaha. I honestly don't know what i'd do with out that crazy boy. I guess i'm glad for our friendship after all.

Women's Conference 2015

I barely post anything about LDS sometimes i do but a lot of times its good a lot of times i have it hard to share something so good and yet so judging at the same time. I don't even judge other people's religion i respect that and i'm nothing but nice towards people that believe in another religion but i must share some good stuff here Women's conference was so good last Saturday some good talks on family and also how we are daughters of god and if god has a plan for us it should be our plan too. It was nice to hear about families and my family is important to me and even though i don't have my very own family yet my family is the most important part of my life they made me who i am today. I love spending every moment with them and i wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. Yes we have ups and downs but we love each other. Its been a good Conference i wish we could get into General conference but oh well one of these years we will succeed at getting into General conference.

Making Progress

I've never been so motivated in my life. Crazy to think after having 2 teeth pulled last year to having 7 teeth filled and healthy again they look so brand new and with only 5 teeth left to fix I'm almost done with the dentist and I also get my normal food diet back on Wednesday. As weeks progressed the knot in my Jaw has let lose and finally been able to relax but i still can't open my mouth wide like wide enough to eat a hamburger I sadly learned that the hard way a few weeks ago and now that I'm almost done with the dentist I'm starting to look for a new orthodontist this is all starting to become so real to me it finally is hitting me this is reality i'm facing the next part of this mess and Braces get to be back on and we will be finishing plans for my Jaw surgery. It's crazy to think that 5 years ago my braces came off and here I am 5 years later getting them back on and I honestly never thought this would happen to me its sad how these bad things happen to good people like me. Now this is motivation and I think its going to be a little emotional more and more now as it gets closer to hitting me hard and realizing that this is really going to be. I'm just thankful I got my parent's support in this they have my back and have been there for me through all of this its going to be interesting when this all gets done and i have a brand new smile. I can't forget my family too they have been there for me and its been the best sometimes its best to laugh about it so its more bearable to deal with. I'm looking forward to the day i get this all fixed it will be nice. :)

Walt Disney Quote

Lately I've been loving this quote from Walt Disney. I even got something with Mickey Mouse on it and it says this quote. I sure do love Disney. :) 

My Best Friend is Home

Yesterday we got to go surprise my Best Friend Dallin at his homecoming he had no idea we were going to come. So we kept it on the down low Saturday night when we found out we didn't want to ruin it for him since he's our friend on Facebook. I went to get Shaliece and we went to Dallin's Church and sat down and waited for the sacrament to start and maybe not to long after we walked in Dallin and his Dad and the rest of his family walked in and i saw Dallin walk by not recognizing him with glasses on. Hahahahaha being the silly boy he is he was pulling funny faces while we took the sacrament and he'd look over at me and Shaliece and he had the biggest smile on his face i can tell he was so happy to see us there and he finally gave his homecoming talk he was talking so fast he actually started speaking Spanish at some point in his talk. After all that we finally got to hug him and welcome him home and talk to him. It was so good to hear his voice for the first time in 2 years and see him for the first time in 2 years. We also ran into our friend BUBBA while we were there as i watched him and Dallin be weird and funny its like wow i went 2 years with out this maybe even 3 years since i haven't seen BUBBA since High School. I missed them so much. There was a lot of laughter and smiles. Shaliece was telling Dallin about a guy at her work that is a prankster and he said oh yeah you two were the pranksters in High School. Laughing about it and talking about it after what Shaliece told Dallin this guy would prank them with. Dallin said oh you guys were way more worse with it and she's like well you guys said you'd get us back and you never did and Dallin says well cause we couldn't come up with anything that would get you guys good. Hahahaha that prank will never be unforgettable LOL. The most funniest thing happened to so Shaliece asks about his phone number and ended up finding out that he got a new one. While he was giving it to her and she was putting it in her phone I don't know what made me say this out loud but i said oh man and Dallin gives me a look and tells me hey don't go to crazy. LOL I was like Okay... laughing about it. Shaliece gives him the look and says "to crazy?" Like do you know us at all you should know were crazy.  LOL i'm happy he's finally home and it sounds like he loved being in Chile for the two years he was there. I can't wait to hang out with him sometime. :)

Gotta Love Brothers

Tonight at dinner i had a serious talk with my 12 year old brother. Lately he's been mean to me and saying stuff that hurts my feelings and wants me to leave for good all cause i have " no feelings" and this really hurt my feelings. I got sick of him telling me to go die or even go kill yourself that really hurts coming from a brother one that was my Best Friend it's like he doesn't want me are around anymore. This is what hurt the most tonight when i talked to him about it he thought it was funny to tell me to go die or kill myself. Like you don't joke about it at all death is something serious you do not wish death upon anyone. He laughs and smiles about it every time he tells me to do this. My parents are warned of what he has been saying he thinks i have " No feelings" cause i never cry. Excuse me i do have feelings sure i'm happy all the time yes i do cry at times what am i supposed to do cry every minute of the day? noo i rather be happy and laughing more so than crying all the time.
As i was talking to my brother Paul about this knowing we have a bond that can not be broken and he's my best friend even though were 9 years apart. I love this kid to death he's my brother my sibling and i support him in everything he does and puts his mind to and yet i don't say go die or kill yourself to my own brother I'd never ever say that to my brother in a million years that i'm alive. So i said what am i supposed to do would you like it if i told you oh go die or go kill yourself? He said he wouldn't like it. Of course you wouldn't like it that hurts feelings. I asked him why do you get so happy and excited over wanting me gone like you don't want me around anymore? he's like cause i'd like to have you gone and responding to him i said well than one day i'll be gone maybe one day i'll move out and you'll rarely see me one day i'll eventually die and you wont see me anymore. I honestly wanted to cry during dinner tonight. I'm like you won't see me every day you won't be able to see me here at home one day when you come home from school you'll be like oh she's gone. I asked him how he honestly would feel if i was gone since he doesn't want me around and he said i'd miss you and i'm sorry for treating you this way. I told him this makes me just want to up and leave just so you know what it feels like missing your sister. I don't think i will do anything fun with him for awhile and because of him treating me this way there was no school the Monday before last Monday and he ended up punished and made him clean the house and he hated it but that's what he gets for it. I didn't ever ask why he wants me gone but i certainly wouldn't do this to him and maybe one day he will be able to treat me nice and hang out with me and have some fun with me. I'm just sick of his freaking attitude and the way he treats me that's what i don't understand i don't treat him like  crap but he treats me like crap the way i don't deserve to be treated.

Junior High

My brother Paul is officially all registered for Junior High and he's so excited. I can't believe it he's already going to be in 7th grade. He will be the only one to attend the same Junior High as my mom did. He's one lucky duck 4 classes a day i wish i could of had that in 7th grade instead of 7 classes a day and that's a lot of classes in one day.  I guess they wanted to make it easier on Junior high kids now days. We just need to get his shots updated and he will be good to go. Goodness he will be ready for August 18th early but this summer we will worry about his school supplies as it gets closer to his first day of school. He wants to take German, Art and Drama. Hopefully he will get one of those classes as his electives and the others are just the required classes. This is his big year graduating from Elementary school and turning 13 and going to Junior high this new school year. I think he's ready for 7th grade his grade school teachers have taught him well and prepared him well and his 6th grade teacher is preparing him good for 6th grade. I can't wait to see where he goes in the future and its been a joy watching him learn and grow. Hopefully he will keep succeeding and doing good in school. He's ready as he'll ever be. :) i hope he continues to make us proud.

Jaw Update

Since its been awhile since i wrote about my Jaw problem. I guess cause it seems like nothing is wrong with it just been the same old same old and just trying to get it all fixed. Well this is a new update on my jaw and TMJ has made a come back it hurts to even open my mouth or chew my mouth just gets tired of chewing on certain foods. So here i am back on a soft food diet and having to apply ice and heat to my jaw. I was doing so good the last year but things are starting to get worse. I know its hard to stay positive it really is. My family tries to ease it up for me and the only good thing is to just joke about it and laugh about it. My family just says " lets just break your jaw" and i already had someone say " i'm sure we can give you something so you don't feel the pain" LOL hahahahaa like i  told my mom that my jaw was doing it again. She's like ugggh Jess lets just take your jaw and break it. hahahahaha I honestly don't know what i got myself into. I've cried, laughed and stressed out about it. Like no joke all this money is going into it. If i have to wait 6 months for surgery this is just plain torture while waiting for the surgery. I'm pretty strong and i'm going to keep going through with it all even if it sounds like a waste of money. But i have faith in the end of this i will have my Jaw connected right again and aligned right and i wont have to deal with this problem. I'm going to be loosing some weight again as i'm on the soft food diet for a month and hopefully by next month my jaw will be able to chew on foods again i can kind of chew but it hurts if i chew to much and my dad is back to working on my Jaw so its nice to have some what relief from that and i'm getting a dentist appointment soon so hopefully we can start tackling all of this in the next few weeks. I'll be so happy once this is done and than i'll be able to gain some weight back after all of this is done with. I look forward to the day i get it fixed.