The Fun of Moving

I know we move a lot. We didnt end up moving this year. So next year for sure. Moving sucks i hate it. I rather just stay in one house. I know its good to move once in awhile but its becoming to much and its sad when we can't afford our house anymore. My friends in Spanish Fork are so happy to hear that we might move back to Spanish Fork except my nit wit buddy Ross doesn't know and I dont think he will care. Since Spanish fork is growing so much now more than ever. So much job opportunities for us with everything new coming in. If we do move back to Spanish fork were gonna move in May or June when Paul finishes out 6th grade. So he will get to go to a new School for Junior high. If we do move to Spanish fork my mom is thinking of putting Paul in a Charter school. I know my Best Friend Shaliece wont be to happy to hear that we might end up moving to Spanish fork to expensive to live up here anymore its sad how Spanish fork is the only place that has cheap houses we were even looking at Payson too. cause its so much cheaper in Spanish Fork or Payson we found some houses that we'd like to look at. I know i won't see Shaliece very much anymore if we do. But you gotta do what you gotta do. She's not in the best of situation either i mean it could be worse and she could be like me and have to move every 2 or 3 years and not have a stable home. I mean my mom and dad are trying to make ends meet. Yes Spanish fork is my childhood hometown. I would be happy to live in Spanish Fork again. Than i could see my BFF more and see my other friends that live there. Its not fun at all. I mean unless something changes in me and i get a job and get an apartment but lately it seems like kids end up moving back home with their parents even though they are married cause its just to hard to make ends meet. I mean its hard to make it on your own now days. Its sad. I honestly wish we didn't even move in the first place at all. But when you can't afford the place you live in anymore. You gotta move on to something cheaper and better for you and the family. But i think it will be best for us anyways. Moving is gonna happen next year. I'm not even thrilled that were still living here in this house. But we need change and something new in our life.
hopefully it will work out for the best.

I Look Forward to The Day I get Jaw Surgery

I know i probably sound crazy for saying this but i seriously can't wait to have surgery done on my Jaw. As much as pain i've been dealing with since New years eve / New years day of last year problems are getting more worse. I've been fed up with it. No doubt there are days i just wanna break my jaw and scream bloody murder and have a mouth full of blood and go to the ER. I know i already been put through a lot at the beginning of the year. I know i was taken off food for a good few months and put on a soft food no chew diet. And i've lost so much weight due to that. I know i don't need to loose weight anymore. But i'm getting fed up with my jaw problem. By the end of next year all of its gonna be fixed. I know it wont be an easy thing to go through recovery time will be really hard especially the first 6 weeks with no food just a liquid diet. I gotta get it all fixed before it leads to more problems and i'm so happy to finally get it over with i look forward to that day when i get to be put under and all drugged up while they fix my lovely fun mess that i'm dealing with. I know i've put a lot of thought into this and my family and friends know about it. But i'll be more happier once its all taken care of i wont have pressure to my head anymore and i will be able to eat with out my under bite bugging me. its hopefully gonna be worth it in the end. and maybe that will put the end to my migraine headaches so i dont have them twice as much. Hopefully braces will come on soon for the surgery.

3 Years ago

3 years ago we lost my Grandma Carroll. 3 years ago I must of been crazy wanting to hug my grandma that's all i wanted to do hug my grandma. But it never happened. One thing I'm happy about was she got to be here for my high school graduation. I knew she wouldn't live long but i remember Junior year i wouldn't stop saying i want grandma here for my Graduation I wasn't gonna let her go until after i graduated than she could go. Its taken me a year or so to get over her death. My heart was so broken. And to want to hug her one last time I never did and i guess when we meet again she's gonna get that hug and she's not gonna get away without it. 3 years ago i had a dream about her after she died. Being able to have that special moment with her before she went to the other side. I just remember being so upset over her dying i was in a room with her in her casket and it was dark she heard me crying and she said Jessica come here. I went up to her casket and said what? she told me I want you to know everything's gonna be okay. I want you to be happy. I know I wont be here anymore but i will always be here just in your heart now. and she said I want you to know I love you. 

Every now and than i get asked if i see my Grandma in my dreams nope i haven't seen her since that dream. But I can say she looks young again. She's right everything is okay and she has been in my heart she's got a special place in my heart. That was something special that happened i dont know how i got lucky and she chose me out of everyone in the family she chose me to have the dream. I know she's in a better life. She's with my Grandpa again and she doesn't have to suffer pain anymore and i know she looks down and see's that smile of mine and i know she knows whats going on in my life. One day we will meet again and be able to talk and laugh and see each other again. I hope heaven is treating her well. She's the best grandma i have had. I love you and miss you Grandma <3 

Let the Countdown Begin

Nothing can explain how excited I am to have these 2 home again in 4 1/2 months. hahaha these 2 hooligans hahahaha the funny boys. I've missed them so much but i'm so proud of them serving a mission in Spain and in Chile.

Now i seriously can't wait to have the boys back together again. Its been forever. Its going to be awesome seeing these guys again just like the old times. I'm glad i met them senior year in High school. 2 years went by so fast.

My 22nd Birthday

Well i turned 22 like two weeks ago. Got to spend it with my Best Friend Shaliece since she slept over for 3 nights. I'd think celebrating my birthday would be in a more awesome fun way. Hahaha nope thats not how things went on my Birthday. I ended up calling the doctors office cause i couldnt stop itching my area it was getting out of hand i just couldnt take it anymore. So i called the doctors office and got in at 10:45am yes on my Birthday. hahaha so my best friend Shaliece came along with me to the doctors. Hahahaha by surprise they didnt put me in the room that has curious George all over the wall. Of course i still weigh 107 pounds and i had to do another pee test hahahahaha went back to the room to wait for my doctor and the nurse started asking me questions about my problem. Hey a least they said Happy Birthday to me hahaha not what i wanna hear from my own doctors office hahahaha. She offered to give me the flu shot so i took the offer and said yes to it. And than we started talking about HPV now my problem was either really bad or the doctors are getting worried. Its a shot that i would get every 6 months up till i'm 26 its for cervical cancer to help prevent it. But i dont know if i will do that. And than they got the pee test results and said i had white blood cells in my pee. hahaha and this is where it gets so embarrassing and feeling violated hahahahaha. The nurse came back in and said my doctor wants me to get naked from the waist down and take off my pants and underwear. hahahaha my dad said well than i guess i'll go out now and wait for you girls in the waiting room hahahahaha. We waited and waited hahaha we bursted out laughing about this while i sat there on the bed waiting for the doctor to finally come in and its like who goes to the doctors on their freaking birthday? hahahah oh wait me. hahahaha all the sudden the doctor comes in and shakes my hand and says hi to me and tells me to lay down on the bed and spread my legs hahahaha. my best friends like oh my gosh this is about to get naughty in here. hahahahaha and so my doctor looked at my area and touched it and asked me where else its been itchy and i pointed to my butt hahahaha literately i seriously would itch it so bad hahahahaha and so as he let me sit back up he said now i know whats going on you got another infection going on hahahahaha. hahahahaha and he asks me so are you sexually active? hahahaha no hahaha i havent been sexually active. and remember in my last post that i said until 3 weeks later?? yeah this is the 3 weeks later thing. Saw my doctor for the second time in 3 weeks. And i asked him what caused it to come back and he said you know that medicine we put you on the last time? yeah i remember that medicine. He told me it caused the infection. a fun lovely Yeast infection and he finally prescribed me something to take to get rid of the itching hahaha and than of course i couldnt get away with out the flu shot. hahaha. and i walked out of the doctors office with my dad and Shaliece and said well this is just one way to remember my birthday i just made my 22nd birthday unforgettable like seriously you'd think you'd spend it celebrating another way. hahahahahaha and than we went to walmart to pick up my medicine and it got even more worse i couldnt stop itching and laughing at the same time we kept bursting out laughing. and than we came home watched some movies. And went out to eat at Chuck a Rama hahahaha i'll never forget my 22nd birthday years later this will be one to laugh about and remember hahahahahaha it will be like oh Jessica remember what you did for your 22nd birthday? hahaha no how could i like who forgets they get violated on their birthday.. hahahahahaha we still laugh about this we cant believe it happened. hahahahahahaha if it happens the 3rd time again i just have to call my doctor and he will prescribe something else cause he's already seen me twice for the problem. hahahahaha I'm feeling 22 and 22 is gonna be one to remember and laugh about. One unforgettable Birthday. Nothing can top this one at all.

My Parents 25th Anniversary

Just because I was born on my parents anniversary. Usually they just like to celebrate my birthday and make sure i get my special day cause its my special day too. But this year since it was their 25th Anniversary we celebrated their 25 years of being together and of course i celebrated my birthday too. But this was just as big as me turning 22.

I love my parents so much <3 they are the reason i'm here today. and than of course 3 years later on their 3rd anniversary they had me. (: yeah she spent her anniversary in the hospital giving birth to me.  

I don't think i could have my birthday any other way or on any other day. I'm their present and will always be their present. They mean the world to me. They have raised me and taught me what i needed to know. They are there for me and they have no idea how much i put up with just to help them out. They are the best and i know i struggle to get along with my parents. but i have so much respect for them now than i have ever had. I love you mom and dad! <3 thanks for bringing me into the world. <3 I'm Daddy's little girl. Always have always will no matter how old i get I'll always be his little girl.

My Fun Adventure Being Sick

I've been so busy and sick i haven't been able to update my blog. I ended up really sick towards the end of September. I had a really bad bladder infection we thought it was a UTI but it wasn't it was just a really bad bladder infection so bad i had to go to the doctors for it. Of course they put me in the room with Curious George all over the wall. hahahaha my pee test came out bad. They found blood in my pee. Which was weird cause i wasn't seeing any blood in my pee. So the doctor had to put me on 2 medications one was changing my pee color for 2 days and the other one was to get rid of the infection. I also had a high fever of 100.0 and i weigh 107 pounds. I'm freaking skinny but other than that i came out healthy i tried everything to get rid of the infection at first slept alot and finally 4 days later got the fever to go away. That was until 3 weeks later after that infection......