A Blast From The Past

Before i went to this concert while I was living in Las Vegas They avertised about this High School Musical The Concert on TV I thought ohhh id like to go to it. I knew id never be able to go to it cause the tickets were so expensive

Then all the sudden my BFF tells me that her dad got tickets to the concert and he got me and her tickets also this boy Jonny Came with us haha someone thought he looked like Zac Efron cause that time Zac Efron had long shaggy hair hahaha and i remember Jennifer complained about the seats hahaha she wanted to be up front row seats haha so me and Jonny said fine go sit up front hahaha then all the sudden she comes back hahahaha/Seriously This was the best night of my life January 28th 2007 This was the first concert I ever been to in my life. I have never been to a concert since then.  

But dang im glad i got the chance to go I got to see Ashley Tisdale Vanessa Hudgens Corbin Bleu Drew Seeley (filled in for zac Efron cause he was filming hairspray at the time) and Monique colman and i also got to see Jordain Pruitt Preform she was opening act of the show before it started.

haha and how  we walked out of the concert at the end not able to hear hhahaha but it was soo worth it i will never forget this memory of a lifetime concert thats probably the first and last concert i will ever go to unless i get the chance to go with Jennifer again. Eddy was soo Jealous that i went to the concert too. :)

A Funny Story

I was looking through some old stuff haahaha and I found this funny story that me and my BFF made up we were talking to someone else so this is a conversation that turned into the funny story we werent trying to be rude or anything but its kinda funny to get someone confused hahahahaha. Here it goes.

Your a cyclone
What? what are you talking about?
Yeah Your a cyclone. You came from Planet Jupitar.
Ok!
Did you graduate  from High School?
Ya why?
Cause Jupitar could use smart people like you.
ok
BE READY!!!
be ready what
Your on crack
ya
Do you know what crack is?
No
Good.
Why?
Cause you can't be on crack.
ok
are you confused?
what is going on?
not a thing
Ok
Well, Well, Well, Looking at your Job application
you've been accepted to work at Jupitar's Candy Company.
Do you want to see hobbo?
no
Do you know my BFF Jessica?? the other Jessica you talked to. :)
No
okay
ya
Do you know how to cook?
ya i've been cooking for five years why do you ask?
cause you should cook Brownies?
why
Cause they are so yummy
so
Do you need a taxi?
what
Lets take you to your grandmas house
No thanks.
The End

Learning About Disorders Kids Have

Yesterday I spent almost the whole day studying about Disorders kids have its pretty sad and they won't realize they have a disorder until they get older. Not that I'm going to be a Special Ed Teacher or anything relating to this subjuct. It just brought my attention after I heard what my Brothers friend deals with.

                                          SPD    

Its basically a Disorder called Sensory Processing Disorder. It's where the child has outburst of throwing fits she/he cant stand wearing clothes. They only can stand wearing certain clothes or they pretty much rather just not wear clothes at all. The child pretty much throws a fit and rips off his or her clothes sitting in their undwear. They cant stand wearing a seatbelt. They have trouble with instructions and directions and learning at school. He/she will never grow out of this and as a baby they basically hate being held or cuddled they arch their backs while you hold them they go into hyptheria also if a group of people surround them it causes hyptheria. Thats pretty sad. They need treatment by seeing a phycologist and they end up going to Hospitals and they have to be on medicine and when they get older since they never grow out of this they will have to learn how to manage it better so they dont have random out burst of fits. From what i read alot of them have bed time issues and they have bath time and brushing problems. I been learning about this alot yesterday She must of been born with it. I am still learning how and why its caused how kids develop this problem its pretty sad they will never grow out of it and i read this one guy had a girlfriend she was in her 20's and she still couldnt stand wearing pants she soon isolated herself so it put a strain on their relationship and its sad cause she wont go anywhere and she also puts a strain on her friendships she has with friends. I rreally feel soo sorry for kids that deal with this along with parents that have to put up with their kids. Also they cant stand wearing shoes or socks they can only stand wearing flip flops or other sandels and cant forget they can get violent with themselfs they will beat them selfs up bite themselfs.

Pauls friend Mckenna struggles with this Disorder she has outburst of throwing fits and she has a hard time learning in school and following instructions and directions. To read and know what she deals with i hope she will be able to deal with a normal everyday life and hope someday she can get this all under control and i hope one day she will be able to wear normal everyday clothes and shoes and socks i feel so sorry for her mom that she has to deal with her like this. Im glad im not this type of person id hated to be that type of person. Im glad paul doesnt have this Disorder but it only means that he will need to be a friend and be there for her no matter what happens we teach paul not to Judge people just cause of their problems and to like them for them and be a good friend and support them through it all. My moms glad she doesnt have a child like Mckenna to deal with and I told my mom about this and she said oh my gosh thats sad to know that Mckenna's mom has to deal with Mckenna like this everyday. But its good thing she's getting help for her problem and when She gets to high school i hope she will be able to change what she wears everyday. Wearing dresses everyday would get me annoyed. Especially with the cold weather coming I hope she will be able to somehow keep herself warm. But im glad i was able to learn about this Disorder that kids have and will never grow out of is something interesting.

When paul gets older we will have to explain to him why mckenna has this Disorder. So he can fully understand why. Unless Mckenna knows what she has and told paul about it already.

Looked at My Myspace page for the 1st time

I been looking up some old friends I had in Las Vegas and found Tasha and Tesha Wow!! They have no idea what happened to me all they know I told them I was getting home schooled cause I hated sedway middle school it was the worst public school I have ever been to. So it made me feel like Public schools werent safe anymore besides I didnt want to be in a school that had 8th grade girls pregnant I didnt want to end up being that girl so i am glad I saved my butt from that even though Eddy hated not having me there at school with him after 7th grade was something he had to get used to.

I forgot all about my Myspace that was until after i found the 2 girls i knew they are twin sisters and they have a Myspace page so I been wanting to get back in contact with them i havent been in contact with them since 7th grade and thats pretty sad. They probably dont even remember me or i got them thinking whatever happened to Jessica or maybe they still think im somewhere in Las Vegas living a life with out them we kinda grew apart anyways i dont think i really liked them that well in 7th grade after awhile. I kinda feel bad they have no idea what happened to me. And i wish i could talk to them maybe sometime i will see if they remember me and catch up with them big time they will be soo surprised that i dont live in Las Vegas anymore and they will be surprised to see me with long hair and to know im 20 years old now thats going to be a big surprise they havent seen me since i was 13.
haha and i was trying to find Gage and Wesley it was a fail couldnt find them i dont even remember their Last names haha im sure i can ask eddy cause he knows Gage hahaha. the 2 boys i chased hahaha.

But whatever they are up to now days i hope they have a good life and wish them good luck with whatever they are going to do. and someday i hope we will be able to talk again i miss that and seeing Tasha and Tesha on Myspace makes me miss them soo much. haha i dont even remember their birthday thats just sad i think i remember they said they were born in 1993. I just remember having classes with them they are the ones that got me talking.


But i havent been on Myspace for 2 years soo to get on it yesterday and just read through old messages me and Eddy wrote to eachother I gotta say First year with out eachother was super hard we were still trying to get used to not having eachother around it took a good year or two or maybe three full years to finally get over him. And im glad me and him can remain friends after everything we been through which is nice. I hated my mom alot he knows i hated her at once i think every teenager goes through that point in life where they just hate their parents. and you know if anything aleast he still likes my long hair I think he's gotten soo used to me having long hair i think that when he saw me with short hair the first time he met me i think once i grew it all out i can tell he loves my long hair its something he hates to see me cut so short soo i hope when i see him again sometime he will see me with long long hair it will be pretty long thats something about me i think he will always remember me by. Hahaha reading old conversations we had i look at it and say its weird side of me that used to be along time ago like wow. He's the one that got me into Twilight hahahahaha So im going to have to tell him "You know your the one that got me into Twilight" hahahaha :) he'd probably say oh your welcome. hahahaha He really was the one cause he told me to read the book and watch the movie i just gotta tell him i read the other books and saw the movies. But he knows he cant suck me into what he is now. He knows he wont be able to get me into drugs or piercings or whatever he does. Cause id never be able to pull off weird hair and peircings theres no way haha.
but i am LDS Sooo theres no way id deffiently be like that. and i saw what Timmy looked like wow dang he's grown up he's got long shaggy hair now. Which is weird to see him with that hahaha im used to him having short hair. and the weird conversations me and Danny had hahaha oh that boy hahaha. And being apart from Eddy has been the hardest cause theres times i could use him in my life like the first year back in Utah for good its like there were times i needed Eddy and realized he cant be here and I would tell him and he wrote back saying i was thinking the same thing so these 4 years without him have been easy and hard. and i used to be soo homesick and i couldnt stop crying after moving back and it was really hard he really knew how to cheer me up. And i miss that alot. I dont regret having him in my life he was the best thing that happened to me. and i also was reading old comments haha he wrote "Your myspace page is Hecka sad" like awee it was at the time he looked at it. I remember I had something about him on my page and when he read it i guess that made him really sad. Hahaha my myspace is soo old its like WHOOA old part of me but i had it since 2008 thanks to Eddy for creating it for me. He also commented on a picture and said "Awee its me and you cartoon style lol" yeah it really was it was a girl and a boy and it was so cute. Thank goodness i thought of Myspace when i was trying to find my old friends from 7th grade. Just the awkward what if they dont remember me moments hahaha. :)

Animals and paranormal activity/spirits

So lately I have been watching this show called A Haunting or The Haunting one show just has families and the other show has animals and families actually both do have animals but only some episodes have animals.

Well I learned alot from those paranormal shows and having spirits the evil kind come through your home.

One thing I will never understand what is it that makes the spirits come back to haunt us. When i watched the show  a girl was burried alive under ground it was illigal to get an abortion back then and they killed the girl and burried her alive under ground and killed her by throwing rocks on to her until she died. and one other girl was burried in the wall. so I question it as okay if we burry them improperly and they come back to haunt us does that meand that they just want a better burrial and to aleast find peace and rest knowing they are burried the right way id hate to be burried in a wall i mean i know your burried under ground but thats not right being burried the wrong way. I know if i was to see my grandma she wouldnt hurt me or us cause i know she loves us and would never dare do that.

As well for animals i have learned they can sense the spirits before we humans can like this guy in Africa died and he had something to do with Elephants and when he died the Elephants walked 12 miles to his house to mourn. And what makes them do this is cause we love them unconditonally.
And for a hospital they have a cat as a grim reaper and the  cat senses when the person is going to die and will go sit on the edge of their bed until that person has died. Which is weird how animals can sense that and i think thats how Mittens felt in the situation of loosing grandma she knew something was wrong even though she was in her room downstairs she sensed that something is going on which is the coolest thing to know that animals really can sense things better then we can. They deffiently know when something is wrong.

Every Parent has that name for their kid and ends up something else

Crazy how parents especially the mom to be of a newborn they think they have the right name picked out for the child. Well me and Paul my little brother asked me the other day about what parents wanted to name him besides Paul I told him well it was either Peter or Paul and dad liked paul alot better so did mom so they named you Paul and they named you after Grandpa Carroll his middle name was Davis and your middle name also. So he asked me if parents wanted to name me something else instead of Jessica I said yeah they did. They wanted to name me Jessie which was weird but instead since we had a Jessie in the family already they took Jessica and decided it was my name. I was named after my Grandpa Scott since i was orignally supposed to be named Jessie and his name is Jesse but with out the I and they decided Jessie was my nickname I havent used that nickname cause i dont like it but im trying to get used to it cause the more Jessica's I meet i deffiently will need a nickname.I guess parents have those names they want to name their kid and end up changing their name. I'll probably end up doing that myself when i have kids i will find a name to call them then once they are born hahaha it will probably change. But with the Generation Im heading for probably will end up with really really weird names. Like everyone is running out of names like we can't have the same name used anymore. hahahaha I really have begun to like the name Preston its so cute. hahaha i may just end up middle naming my kids with Studd in it hahahahaha just cause Eli Studd Blair has to be a Studd his mom is so awesome for naming Eli a studd hahahaha. :)) But who knows i may end up just naming my kids all the weird names like everyone else. Cause apperently no one wants the same name used anymore.

I Guess I never Blogged about This

10/27/11

This took place the night after my grandmas funeral. I guess i forgot to blog about it but i didn't start coming out about this dream til weeks or months later. I didn't tell my family or friends cause i wasnt so sure they would believe me. I finally came out with this dream and told my mom and dad about it.
They were so surprised that this happened to me.  Anyways i will continue on with my dream.

That night i was really upset in my dream it took place in a dark room i was in the same room as my grandma in the casket she must of known i was soo upset i was crying non stop all the sudden i heard her talking she said come here Jessica. I went up to her and she said Everything will be okay i just want you to know i still love you and i will always be here for you just in your heart now. She looked soo beautiful I got to see her even though this took place after she passed away  She looked young again for the first time i got to see my grandma young. I havent seen what she looked like young in person cause i was never born at the time but to see her looking pretty and young laying in that casket. that dream is something special i will always remember for the rest of my life. I know she would want me to be happy Im glad she's not in pain anymore and she's happy in heaven and i know she's proud of me.

I am just soo glad she chose me i guess she knew i was just soo upset and i think she could tell looking down at me she probably knows i wanna give her a hug but never got the chance to and to talk to her one last time was the best thing ever.

I might already have this somewhere in my blog but i cant seem to find it so i guess i will just write it again.


and A year later.... I am strong I am happy no more tears and i know she's watching over me and keeping me safe and i am totally over the whole death situation its been a tough time. But its only gotten me closer to heavenly father and i know he wasnt mean  when he took my grandma away.
I hope to keep my grandma proud up there.

I love and miss her soo much its been life changing with out her here. I hope she's enjoying life up above and keeps me safe and watching over me. :)

Gotta Love Sundays

Today my friend Davin had his Mission Farewell Talk. So me and my mom went to it of course it was our old ward so it was nice to go back and see the people we know there was alot of people at Davins mission farewell I barely didnt recgonize anyone hahaaha But it was soo funny cause this is the best part ever..

I saw my AWESOME!! friend Trevor hahahahaha oh my gosh i was soo happy to see him when he walked in the doors of the sacarament room of the church he turned to come sit on the side i was on and oh my gosh he saw me and he was so happy to see me he sat down in the row behind me and asked me how i was doing and i said good and we caught up on stuff hahaha me and him have soo much fun together hahaha its like being funny and weird all combinded in one hahahaha i told him about being sick he's like oh thats not fun i was sick a couple weeks ago. hahahaha my mom went to talk to someone about something and i was like saying especially the cold medicine its soo gross its like eww hahaha he's like yeah i hate cold medicine to its disgusting he's like i rather drink rootbeer instead of cold medicine he's like if i have my rootbeer hahaha im good i will not take cold medicine. That strong taste in it is the most horrible thing i ever tasted. He also got to meet my mom and told him that i was so much fun to work with and he told her he was my peer tutor in one of my classes hahahaha and he's like yeah her and shaliece would be trouble my mom was surprised haha but he said not in a bad way hahahaha then she talked to the bishop so i was talking to trevor for awhile and he's soo funny we were talking about the stop light thing hahahaha cause i said wow its been forever since i seen you haha he's like yeah last time i saw you was at the stop light hahaha i told him how i recgonized him and stuff and he was like yeah that was me and he's like im glad i turned my head and looked at you its like as if someone was telling him look that way haha so then i told him about not flicking coins anymore hhaha he's like really?? hahaha i said yeah im not flicking them anymore haha he's like thats funny i used to catch them 2nd period on B days was soo much fun with him even though i didnt wanna do my work at times and just wanted to do nothing at all hahaha or have fun instead and i pulled through it all hahahaha and i got to meet another Jessica hahaha weird talking to another Jessica cant believe its almost 2 years since we graduated high school he's my weird friend haha and so we were talking about work and stuff i asked him if he's going to college still and he said nope he's been busy working and so i asked him where he works he told me some place he works but i forgot and he asked me do you work? hahaha im like no i dont he's like what why?? your so much fun to work with hahahaha they should be able to hire you hahahaha im kinda lame haha but anyways soo he went and talked to Davin and then came back to sit down and he was waiting for his friends to get here too. and he was telling me about this camara he was fixing so he could take pictures with it. on to the talk that davin gave....

Oh my gosh his talk was soo good i cant believe is going to Germany thats soo freaking cool. He will be amazing out there thats for sure hahaha and he also sang a song in German that was soo fun to hear him talk German.
and after the meeting was over i went up to him and he gave me a hug and thanked me for coming and i told him that he did a good job on his talk and he said thanks. haha and you know i just couldnt stay away from Trevor hahaha i went up to him and matt i also talked to him for a bit hahaha so Trevor was like so are you staying or going? i said i dont know he's like wheres your mom?? I said she's over there talking to some lady hahahaha
the bishop also got a chance to talk to me he's like are you staying out of trouble?? i said yeah i am he's like what are you doing?? i said oh not much and he's like do you have a job?? i said no i dont but im looking hahahaha but i just didnt wanna tell him whats really going on cause i wasnt so sure when we really would have this pizza place opened i guess it wont be anytime soon either looks like it will be around thanksgiving or Christmas or after. but anyways i kept talking to Trevor and so he's like what are you doing this week?? i said nothing much just hanging out at home bored hahaha he's like oh thats fun or something like that and he said well we should hang out do something write me on facebook when you wanna hang out maybe on saturday we could do something hahahaha i was just so freaking happy this totally has made my day :) and he also gave me a hug to.

Sneak Peek at Our Family Business

Our brand new family owned business I never thought we would own a family business cause my dads not really the type to own a family business but I guess this will be an experiment to try out it wont hurt to give it a shot. Besides they say the sky is the limit soo reach for your dreams like my dad and his friend Dean wanted to open a business for a good long time we never really knew about it til after my grandma died. Then that's when they opened up about it but i hope it goes well and i hope we make it the best we can. This place we own is called "Deano's Pizza Builders" Believe me once you try the pizza we will make you wouldn't want the other pizza i have a feeling after our grand opening we will dominate beat out the other pizza places in this town nothing beats having pizza made by us not even Little Caesars  pizza does Justice. I just hope my dad made the best choice by doing this I hate to see what happens if it doesn't. But hopefully this will all work out gotta keep the positive quit the negative that's all its been full of stupid negative things and its like we let the negative beat out the positive and that's pretty bad. We  will deliver and have pick up available also it will be a eat in pizza kinda place where people can come eat at our restaurant. We passed the health department inspection now its up to the city on Tuesday they come to look at it. Just gotta get our food permits cause we cant work with out having a food license. It will be finally nice its been soo stressful to get this place opened up we been at this for months and months and it seemed to take forever like it  wouldn't ever be opened. But finally i will have a Job gosh that took forever so were hoping by the end of next weekend we will be open and able to work. I almost was going to find another job but now that this is opening up faster then i thought i dont have to look for another job. We will be open to the public of course but friends and family are first to try the pizza its been a blessing to get through all of this and have an opportunity to be able to do this. Soo its going to be fun making pizza i'll probably get to work with some hot guys hahahaha were going to hire drivers and workers some boys do like working at a pizza place hahahaha. Never know hahahaaha I honestly cant wait to see when this opens and takes us who knows we might be able to open more stores in the future but first we must see how this one does and if its successful then we will get the chance to open more stores. We will be closed sundays and on friday and saturdays we will be open til 12 or 1 am in the morning and the weekdays we will be closed by 10 pm But we will have to see how its all worked out i already got trained to make pizza's hhahaha but this is all good luck to my dad and his friend. This better become a huge hit.

A Very Happy Birthday to Me. :)

Finally!! 20 years old. Yesterday I celebrated my Birthday. Soo much fun. I had a good birthday thats for sure. Im glad it was a good one. Woke up and this is how my brothers wished me a happy birthday Eric says Oh my gosh Jessica your 20 years old now. Your old! hahahaha and all Paul could say was I can't wait for you to move out. Ohh somebody is ready for me to leave home already. But dont worry soon i'll be packing up and leaving. :) What a nice thoughtful way of wishing me a happy birthday in a weird way. haha oh i love my brothers. Thanks boys!! :)

You know looking at this picture and I can't Believe this was 20 years ago yesterday... Sooo crazy!! I shared this on facebook last night when i got the chance. And some people were like oh my time has went by soo fast. So very lucky to be born on their anniversary and have the chance to share this day with them. My parents cant believe it either. Time flies by fast! hahaha my mom and dad arent soo sure how they feel about it. But hey aleast my mom has 1 teenager and 1 kid now. hahahahaha. Life
is just going to fast ohhh it needs to slow down. hahahahahaa goodness. Im getting old jk. But seriously cant time slow down cause before i know it this will be me and my husband holding our first child. And Life has its unexpected moments you never know when your going to die.
Makes me wonder where my childhood has gone its gone by soo fast seems like forever ago getting to 20 and i made it.

This was my Birthday cake on Saturday. I just had to Get an Ice Cream cake. :) it was soo good it was a cake batter Ice cream cake and it was also red velvot cake. it was soo yummy. I love Ice cream cakes I havent had one since my 16th bday they are soo hard to find now days. Its sooo crazy. We got this cake from Cold stone they have some good ice cream and I found out thats where my young women teacher got my caremel apple from when i graduated in 2011 it was soo yummy im gonna have to get one again sometime.

My Baby Scrapbook " Jessica's Baby Book" I finished this on my birthday yesterday well i finished some of the pictres yesterday just had to put them in sheet protectors it was alot of work it was fun and stressful Jessica Leigh Born on Wed. October 7, 1992 Weighs 5 ibs 7 oz. She belongs to Mark and Sandra Carroll. What a cute fun way i put it all together. Also did my own way of decorating some pages wanted something different a little touch of my own child hood favorites soo I added barney stickers ( printed out & glued) I was obsessed with Barney LOL  and my most favorite show when i was a kid Rugrats haha so i put some rugrats in the book. I was going to put Scooby doo in the  book but id probably have no room for him. lol But its okay Scooby is still loved! :) & the second picture on the top after i was born. I honestly cant wait to put together my daughters scrapbook i am soo going to put together a scrapbook for her and then when she graduates high school someday I will give it to her and she can finish it off with her graduation pictures and friends from school. I loved putting my scrapbook together seeing all the pictures in one book i  was soo cute. :) & I still am.

This is just a sneak peak of my baby scrapbook but this is the end of my baby scrapbook  All the memories of graduating the best times in life. To be proud of myself for making such a big accomplishment. That i worked hard for 12 years of my life and to finally have the sweet bitter moment of graduation has been the best. The friends and family i got to spend the day with. :) this was actually taken with my Best friend shaliece right after graduation Practice we got to go home early and no sense of going back to school cause it took up alot of our day to get through practice.

Im soo glad to have these memories they are the Best. :) Soo proud of how far i've come and to finish my baby scrapbook like i always wanted. Makes me soo very happy. :) Now i can share it with friends and family. Hahaha and i got to show my scrapbook to my grandma yesterday and my mom she was looking at the picture of when she gave birth to me and oh my gosh she's like wow my hair is messy. hahaha well what do you expect mom your giving birth do you really need to look pretty giving birth. hhahahaha. Its like doctors wont care what you look like giving birth the important thing

is getting the baby outta you hahaha.

 

Before i forget the story me and shaliece wrote about Eli hahaaha its in my baby scrapbook and oh my gosh my mom and grandma got to read it for the first time and oh my gosh hahha my moms like Whaatt 100 years old a cane and a oxgen tank hahahahaha she prounced Eli's name Ellie hhahha it was just so funny by the end she was reading oh boy hahahaha yeah its a funny story still funny a year later. hahaha. :) Couldnt help it you know its the best story we wrote hahahaha. :))

 

 

One last thing to blog about I got the sims 3 Generations Game for my birthday oh i was so excited to get the game hahaha at first my mom tricked me about my present besides birthday money she's like what dad didnt give you our gift?? i said no unless he didnt buy it and she's like oh he got it. and so she went to find it and found it and gave it to me I was soo happy and excited to get this game. and Thanked them for the present. :) Love my mom and dad soo very much. :)

 

Heres to a new age in life cant wait to see where life takes me. :) Woot woot feels nice not being a teenager anymore. :) 

Ahhh Today is my Last Day Being a Teenager.

Today is my last day Being a teenager for good! I have had a good teenage life nothing to bad about it. I liked it and hated it and had struggles to trust my parents in my life at the time of being a teenager. I think its normal for every teenager to go through that stage where they cant trust their parents and they totally hate their parents i've had my moments i hated and disliked my parents. We really didn't get along. The changes i went through as a teenager were good and bad had my moments of having mood swings and 13 years old was when i started getting migraines. They arent fun. Id get them almost every day after school. It was always to hot i dont remember stressing out in 7th grade. I think it was the heat in Vegas that did it and the girly stuff i started dealing with. And im glad i got to live a good part of my teenage life in Las Vegas it was the best it felt like i was on vacation for 4 years of my life and the feeling of nobody could bug me and i didnt have alot of friends either. Im glad Eddy got to be part of my life for awhile. Me and him been through thick and thin We had some good times together I dont regret dating him Theres times where i wish i could just go back to him Cause i know what me and him have had will never be the same with another guy it will be different.
Me and him were there for eachother we could talk about anything and he loved hanging out with me.
But he still loves me no matter what. The memories of me and him play in my head and i cant believe another guy will have to replace that. But we loved eachother and he wants me to be happy and i want him to be happy i wish him the best. All though it might be hard for him to accept that im with someone new like if he see's me married. I love that boy he's the best boyfriend i could ever had. Im sure im not the only girl that had a boyfriend in Junior High. Now that he's totally changed haha i still remember the girl that fell pretty hard for that kid in 8th grade. Everything we did together i dont regret one thing and im sure he doesnt regret dating me. He'd never hate me which im glad cause i could never hate that boy. Sometimes i wonder if we'd still be together if i still lived there but the way he's changed i dont think i could handle it anymore. But maybe if things were different if i was there he wouldnt be at clubs partying and doing drugs and what not. He's gone through alot i feel soo sorry for him his parents got a divorce and then a year later or soo we end up moving and then me and him broke it off. and then a few years later his dad passed away. :( soo wish i could of been there for him. But then again if we kept seeing eachother then im pretty sure my parents would notice. He's the one that made me smile alot. and the moments of driving hahaha i got to drive the van after my 16th birthday and wow its not as bad as it sounds its actually fun driving the car. Soo theres alot i liked about my teenage life also hated it to. But i wouldnt complain but i complained about migraines alot being a teenager. I hate those headaches. They arent fun. But im glad it was my last day of being a teenager its time for a new age in life its been nice and fun being a teenager but its time for a move on in life. :)

3 Days Left.... AHHH!!!!

So this month we were supposed to go to Disneyland we were going to leave on Saturday morning and id have the chance to spend my last day of being a teenager in Las Vegas and then on my Birthday we would of gone to Disneyland for that whole week and not come home til the following week later. Well things ended up not working out. So its kinda disappointing but its understandable just some money situations going on and so we decided to go this winter around Christmas Break  we decided we are going to pull paul out of school a week or 2 before christmas Break actually starts and we planned to go then and spend a good mount of time since its our first time and Id be sooo happy to spend Chirstmas in Disneyland it looks so pretty Decorated and we were going to see if we can catch the Christmas Day Parade they do. Which would be fun to be there in person and watching them flim it and see the singers in person preform and what not i would totally loved to spend my birthday there but for christmas it sounds even better we were actually just thinking about putting up the christmas tree before we leave and just stay in California through out christmas but i dont know if we really have the extra money we can save it to spend on christmas shopping cause i think we should a least get gifts but were not sure yet. But i cant wait to go I've been dying to go to Disneyland I really hope we can go. Crossing my fingers.

With only 3 days left of being a teenager. Today i should just blog about what i learned haha a year after i graduated school yeah this makes me feel soo dumb like the kind of dumb like why didn't my teachers teach me about this. Paul had Math homework today like everyday he does and it had a little history in it and WOW! what i learned from it i wish they taught me in school. I learned more about the statue of liberty more then i ever have. I knew we had a statue of liberty in New York but i never really got to know the history behind it until that was tonight. I was helping Paul do his homework and so we get to the history part of his math sheet and I started reading about the statue of liberty found out that France gave it to the US as a gift and i found out it was shipped in pieces like oh my gosh when i read that i was like what the heck... how did i not know this at all. Then i thought about it and said wow what did i really learn hahaha i think i obvisouly got alot of math and just a bunch of heebe jeebes about world war one and world war two. Like i think thats all i ever learned in school its like i got the teachers that didnt really wanna teach alot they just wanted to teach me the basics they think i should know seriously its like oh come on now. hahaha The things i learn now more then i learned in school kinda makes me mad cause its like really what did my teachers really want to teach me about?? nothing really they just thought we didnt need to learn about the statue of liberty. hahaha makes me wonder what else i will learn that i never learned in school. My teachers were useless i guess.

But im totally excited for my birthday cant wait to spend it with some awesome good people in my life. :) Im gonna go out to eat on saturday (my last day of being a teenager) and im gonna see if i can have Jennifer over it sounds like i wont be able to see her but i'll see what i can do. My moms like why do you wanna order a cake cause i really wanna order a cake and then she thought i wanted that carmel cake i was like eww gross that was to rich like Blahh i couldnt eat it after 2 bites. and i have no doubt but i bet my relief socity president will show up with a gift i'll probably get a few gifts on saturday. Then on sunday im hoping we get to go to Texas Road house as its my birthday and parents anniversary. :) :) I dont think i will see shaliece though She will probably call like a week later or something if not then maybe on my birthday she wanted to do a birthday party but i dont think its going to really happen anymore its just a stressful thing and im not waiting til next weekend to do it cause its already my birthday weekend this weekend and if she wants we better hurry and do it.
 I really dont care though but i really dont need a birthday party anymore i was just gonna celebrate with a few friends and family and that was it. Birthday parties are for kids im an adult I need to let go of that shaliece can do a birthday party for her birthady all she wants but for me i need to just let it all go and take my birthday as a normal day and just only limit it down to a few friends and thats it. Nothing to big since its my twenty's now... Finally though its been forever ago of a lifetime getting to twenty.