Thinking about my life and being happy and living life to the fullest and enjoying it. Sometimes I wish i could feel what its like always being depressed and always down in the dump and stressed out over everything. I feel soo sorry for my friends that suffer from depression. Sometimes I wonder what its like to think about sucide and cutting myself. But then again i wouldnt wanna live a depressed life. I rather think happy and positive and rather enjoy living life to the fullest. Its sad that some people just end up depressed and it takes over their life and just ruins it. I like my life the way it is i wouldnt want to change it. All though the people in it i can sometimes just get that feeling of wanna get rid of them. I guess happiness is only a choice you want to make and i choose being happy. I will not leave earth until i have fullfilled my life. But it would be nice in a way to feel depressed so i know what they feel like all the time and see if i can help them out. Being stressed out alot isnt healthy its the worst feeling ever makes you sick after awhile. I know it made my friend soo sick she ended up going to the hospital early in the morning before school started I guess  i kinda cant help those with depression  cause i dont know what its like probably will never know what its like but its just that sad moment when you wanna help but when you never felt like that before you dont know what to say or do or you only can say soo much to help prevent the sucidal. I feel soo helpless to some of my friends who have been suffering from depression. Id hate to live my life like that nor i wouldnt want to ever live my life all depressed and what not. But if i did try to be depressed i would only be depressed for so long then go back to being happy cause i wouldnt want the depressing feeling to take over my life.