Just When I Wanted to Give Up

I've been praying and hoping this would still work out or i'd regret this for the rest of my life...

I've been so strong and positive through this Jaw problem and i know last month at first got some devastating news my orthodontist saying no to jaw surgery and it would be worthless and i could tell he was very nervous when he was talking to me at my last appointment last month and especially when he said he wanted to talk to my oral surgeon and he wanted to see me back in 5 weeks after that and i went to my orthodontist appointment last Tuesday and i had some mixed feelings about this cause i wasn't sure if he talked to my oral surgeon so i was hoping he would remember to talk to my oral surgeon and here i was about to go a different way with things if things didn't work out i was just gonna see if we could take my braces off early and just start the retainer process i was expecting to go about that and i got a lovely surprise i sat in the chair and saw my file opened on the computer and attached to it was a note about how my orthodontist met with my oral surgeon. I was beyond excited and relieved that he met with him and while sitting there in the chair my orthodontist came by and he was so much happier and more calm i could tell there was some good news he had for me and he said so i talked to your oral surgeon and basically said guess what? and i said what? he said your oral surgeon wants to see you. That made me beyond happy and so i made an appointment with my Oral surgeon last week to see him this Tuesday ( 10/25/16) and i went to see him over this week and  it was finally good to finalize everything i feel so at peace now. I finally feel like i can breathe knowing this is lifted off my shoulders. I basically talked about how i felt about this to my oral surgeon cause i'm honestly scared what happens if the surgery didn't happen after all and i get my braces off in May so i really don't want to repeat this again years later after my braces come off and he can see that i'm scared for this to happen again years later if surgery wasn't in the plan anymore. I found out my top and bottom jaws are both short and my bottom Jaw is shorter than my top jaw from what i remember my oral surgeon telling me. He was showing me what my mouth does when i open and close it. I don't have a problem with opening my mouth its the closing part that struggles the most. When he used his model thing to show me what my bottom jaw does when i close my mouth it looked so painful when he showed me. Well we got a new plan instead of moving my top jaw forward like my oral surgeon originally wanted to do he wants to move my top jaw down. The reason he will be doing this is to relief stress off my joints my bottom jaw is over working and that's not good so he said i have way to much stress in the joints and by moving the jaw down he will help take away stress from the joints. He said i'm a candidate for the surgery so its basically my choice to go through it or not go through it but with this i have decided to continue to put myself through it. I must add that i have made tremendous improvement in just a year in a half and to think my braces will be off in 8 months after the jaw surgery is done so i made so much progress with my mouth changing. We have everything finalized and i know we don't have a date for surgery yet but we will more likely get this surgery done after Christmas. My mom made a good point and suggested it that since the holidays are around the corner so she told me you might as well just enjoy the holidays so your not miserable and i agreed to it. I wouldn't want to be jealous and miserable sitting there drinking liquid stuff while my family eats the good yummy food at that point i might as well suck baby food out of the jar through a straw. We just started the process to have insurance involved to pay it for me. So it will take a least a good 2 - 3 weeks up to 2 - 3 months for them to respond back to us. I will go back to my oral surgeon after they figure insurance stuff out and i will get a cat scan and impressions done for my surgery and i will have an official date for my surgery. My orthodontist will prepare my mouth for it he will put surgical wires in my mouth and a bunch of fun lovely hooks so they can " wire" my mouth shut after they are done with my surgery and he will give us the green light to go for surgery. I found out i will be intubated so i will have a breathing tube down my throat while surgery is preformed and luckily i will be put asleep when they put the tube down my throat. Best part i don't see my orthodontist till December. So he will get word from my oral surgeon so i can't wait to hear my orthodontists reaction to this. Hoping this works out and lots of prayers and gotta remain strong and positive through this new process. I'm glad i didn't give up after all. :)

My 24th Birthday

What a good Birthday weekend it has been. Last Friday i turned 24 and i got to spend my birthday with my Best Friend Shaliece and painted ceramic pumpkins and saw a movie at the movie theaters. I also celebrated my birthday on Saturday with my boyfriend and he got to meet my Grandma and Grandpa Scott and my aunt and two cousins and got to sing happy birthday to me with my family and it was good to see my two cousins from Idaho since we hardly see them anymore. On Sunday it was just me and my boyfriend spending some time together and we drove through Provo canyon and hiked a little around Squaw Peak Overlook and than we drove off into the mountains and that made the dirt roads a fun experience. :) My boyfriend likes my grandparents and he can tell my grandpa has that funny sense of humor. It was good to finally introduce him to some of the family members. Since we no longer do anything with my dads side of my family anymore sometime me and my boyfriend will have to take a drive to Spanish Fork so i can introduce him to my dads side of the family. I knew he would fit right in and i'm glad that it went all good with meeting my grandparents meeting my boyfriend. by the end of the night we went for Ice cream at McDonald's before he dropped me off at home. 24 has been a good one so far the only part i could go with out the migraine i had the night before last night. so I'm currently experiencing a migraine Hangover LOL. My mom noticed that i don't look like i feel good my face is a little swollen with having my migraine and i feel like crap and i don't need to have a drink to experience the hang over when i got the migraine hangover.

One Awesome Weekend

Nothing like a good weekend! Got to celebrate my boyfriends birthday with him. It was a busy fun weekend got to hang out with him and his buddies last Friday night and he opened his birthday gift i gave him and he loved it! I knew he would love it. :) I didn't think i'd see him last Saturday but ended up he wanted to get food together which i was up for even though he was in a bad mood and by the end of the night his mood had changed to the happy mood. We took a drive through Mapleton Canyon and I must say sometimes its good to take a drive through the canyon and lose the cell phone signal and lose radio signal and have a good conversation. We also drove around Spanish Fork and i got to show him where we used to live. He wanted to meet my BFF Jennifer so i texted her and let her know we wanted to stop by for a quick visit and introduced my boyfriend to her and her family. We also got to do something with my best friend Shaliece and her boyfriend after we visited Jennifer. It was good to finally show him where i grew up. And knowing me i get so funny with the most random things i say in the car when we are driving and on the way to Shaliece's boyfriends house we got lost and i just randomly started singing home on the range hhahahaha and my boyfriend started singing it too. hahahaha i don't know why but all the sudden i said were going to home on the range and he sang it again. hahaha. After that we just had some alone time just the two of us and i got to treat him to lunch since it was his birthday last Thursday so it was a good fun busy weekend for sure i'm glad he had a good birthday weekend. Now this weekend we get to celebrate my birthday since i turn 24 on Friday. :)