Happy Birthday to My Boyfriend

Even though i don't share much about my relationship with my boyfriend on social media. I love how much respect he has for me and how he treats me right as i do the same for him. Makes me one happy girl and my parents sure do enjoy him. One of the things we have learned about each other we are one year and one week apart from each other. Today my boyfriend turned 25 its fun actually dating someone a year older than me. Our relationship is more mature being with someone a year older than me. I love how we will be at a place and he will just randomly grab me and start dancing with me unexpectedly and i love that he makes me laugh so much. He works full time and goes to school full time to get a better career and i couldn't be more proud of him. I love all of our random fun adventures we go on especially the new adventures we go on. He is so good to me he puts my well being before his and i love that he goes above and beyond to take good care of me. I love spending time with him when i see him on the weekends. This is the fun part of our relationship getting to celebrate with him this weekend and than next weekend we will celebrate my 24th birthday. Its hard to believe its almost been one year with him. I hope he had a good Birthday today even though i wasn't able to be there. :)

Jaw Surgery Update

I know i have shared my journey through this jaw problem and my top jaw did not grow right causing it to not connect right and that's all i have ever wanted fixed. My TMJ is being cured so i won't have that anymore after my braces come off thank goodness cause i couldn't stand TMJ pain anymore. I have learned some devastating news at my consultation appointment with my orthodontist he said surgery would be worthless at this point and says no to surgery. I knew something was up when he stopped talking about it a couple of months ago. So instead of him sending me to see my Oral Surgeon he will be meeting up with him to talk about this and see what my oral surgeon thinks about this if surgery is still needed and my orthodontist told me if surgery is still needed he will be okay with it and if the oral surgeon wants to see me he will call me. I could tell he was very nervous about it since we don't know how far my oral surgeon wants to move my top jaw. I have been in tears lately just wondering why we can't fix my top jaw with out moving it forward. At this point i want to give up and be done if there is no surgery than why keep my braces on. I'd want my braces off and of course i now have to wait till October 18th to find out if surgery is happening or not. So there is a little hope but i doubt by much it won't be happening. I just wanted to eat right again for once. I haven't had a salad for 2 years now all thanks to this stupid problem. My oral surgeon was the one that was willing to fix this all for me i even tried talking him out of doing it with out braces and he wouldn't do it so he told me as long as i got my braces back on for it he would do it. I just don't want any problems in the future like 5 years later all the sudden feel this again. That's how long it took for this problem to appear 5 years ago last year. If anything i'll want out of this i'll talk my orthodontist into taking my braces off and believe me i know a way to get him to take them off as i have done it with my last orthodontist. I know there's a saying that says " do not live with regrets" i'm regretting this one BIG time. If surgery is still a no go on October 18th i will have wasted time and money on this all for nothing. It hurts that i will have to live with my top jaw not connected right. I should of really took the time to look more into this while i was still thinking about jaw surgery. I regret putting my braces back on and i could hate myself for putting myself through this. Why did they put me on a freaking dumb 15 months wait for this pointless crap than if its worthless now. If this all fails i have learned my lesson to never ever again waste thousands of dollars on this mouth of mine. I will just have to adjust to letting this jaw be screwed up. For those who might be going through the same thing as me wanting to get it fixed get lots of opinions on it before just putting braces back on for no reason after all. I feel so stupid not looking more into it before i got my braces back on. I really hope there's a happy ending to this so my jaw can be connect right but other than that i'm doubting it but i'll find out the final answer on October 18th. It was worth a shot though. :) 

My Best Friend Ross

This is for the Best Friend I've had since 6th grade i know i don't talk about him much but it was sure good to hear from him the other day. I have no idea what i'd do with out him life would be different that's for sure. He makes me laugh and i know he's probably weird with all the random goat videos he likes. I sure do miss our Skype conversations and i know i probably won't hear from him for another year but i'm proud to have him as my best friend. Just thinking about him gets me laughing cause the things we would talk about. He's been my best friend for 12 years now and even if i don't talk to him i do think about him and hope for the best for him i really do. Our friendship is one that we can mess with each other and just joke around. I don't even have one picture of me and him and that's pretty bad LOL. I know i hate the song " love hurts" and i honestly miss how he would play that song during our Skype conversations. I know we live in the same state just different cities and Skype was an easier way of getting to talk to each other. I know he hates it when me and Jennifer fight he really does hate seeing me and her fighting. I sadly don't use Skype as much as it slows my computer now but i hope me and him can talk more than just once a year. I'd make time for him like i used to and just talk to him like the good old days. We just have the type of friendship its like we never stopped talking when we start talking to each other again. I hardly bother him cause i don't want to make it feel like i'm bugging him. I really do miss the random goat videos he would find on YouTube or where ever he found them. 12 years ( I forgot i met him at the beginning of 6th grade in 2004) and we are going strong we never really had a disagreement or fight and that's one thing i really like about our friendship. I wouldn't change him for anything. I still remember the first day i met him in 6th grade. Jennifer wanted to know his name but wouldn't ask him so she had me do it. The whole hey whats your name and he responds with " my name is Ross" and i tell Jennifer his name is Ross. Hahaha from that day forward we have a bond that could never be broken. I never got mad at him and i know sometimes he has me wondering about him. He's the one that wanted me to move in with him when we were moving to Las Vegas hahaha never had a friend offer that before. If that's not true friendship right there than i don't know what is.  He had one smart idea and he was so excited when he heard we moved back to Utah. I couldn't ask for a better best friend. I'm very lucky to call him my Best Friend even if we don't hang out anymore a least i know he's still doing good and keeping busy. :)

Fun Adventures

Instead of camping with my best friend and her boyfriend me and my boyfriend went on a new adventure and found this place called Mantua Reservoir and its so pretty up here. I told my boyfriend forget it lets live up here and all he could say was okay i'm down. Lots of fishing, boating and four wheeling from what we saw when we were there. They have some new beautiful homes coming in up here and i'm sooo jealous. I'd love to have the canyon and this lake as a backyard view. My boyfriend said that it looks fun building a home. We are on the same page with wanting to buy a home. I'd like a home in the canyon forget this boring neighborhood city stuff i'll be content with a home in the canyon. :) My boyfriend plans to get us a spot up here so we can go camping and we want to rent a boat and go boating up here too. Looks like we know where to go camping. We had so much fun and we even drove around Brigham City it was a fun adventure for sure. Its so relaxing up there it was nice to drive around and look around for awhile before we went back to his house.  :)

9/11

I know i was just a kid when this happened and at the time i didn't fully understand what happened all i knew it was a very sad day for America and I will never forget this day. 

Game Day

Whatever the outcome will be. I respect my boyfriend being a UTES fan and i come from a family of BYU fans and i'm not obsessed with BYU or football let alone like my brother is but yes i will watch a game and being in a relationship we respect our differences and this is one of them.

One Year is Enough: I Need My BFF

I know its been a whole year from what my friend did. Yes i was upset with her for this whole time and i just thought life would be okay going on with out her in it and it is super hard to move on with out her being there. Well i was wrong not a day goes by i don't think about her. I miss being able to talk to her. She really screwed up for me to be mad at her for a whole year and I've never been mad at her longer than a day. I'm going to patch things up with her and make our friendship work out. I mean i'm the only one that knows how to cheer her up when she's depressed. I know she probably misses me the most even if she doesn't admit it. She's my BFF i can't live with out her this whole year with out her has been hard on me. I miss all the fun times we used to have and all the weird stupid things we laughed at that nobody else could ever understand why we were laughing. I need her in my life even if she's made me mad. I can't live with holding a grudge being mad at her. Here goes to fixing our friendship and hoping that things get better between me and her. Hoping that hanging out and maybe getting back into Skype calls will help ease her depression. She may of made me feel like she kicked me to the curb and she honestly won't hang out with anyone else she rather just hang out with me as I've talked to her recently. I wish she would enjoy life like the way i did. I feel bad for her i really do this depression sucks i hate seeing her deal with it. I look forward to a better communication with her and being able to work on our friendship to make it better. Cause there is no way i can live the rest of my life with out her. I know we have our differences and i know she will be jealous of me but i'd never let that affect our friendship. It will be nice to be able to talk to her again more and hang out with her again. I honestly don't know what i was thinking when i  thought i no longer needed her apart of my life when in reality i know i do need her but at the time i was really mad and upset with her to the point i felt like she no longer deserved to be in my life anymore. I have no idea what i'd do without her.

Summer 16

Summer has been good so good with a ton of new unforgettable memories. Hiking has become one of my favorite hobbies. One of the adventures i enjoyed taking a drive through Provo canyon  with my boyfriend and driving to squaw peak overlook in Provo canyon and the view is amazing. My migraines are progressing worse and i had to switch to Excedrin Migraine to help my migraines and oh my goodness it helps more faster than ibuprofen just like my grandpa had to switch to Excedrin Migraine to help his migraines so i know how my Grandpa Carroll felt. My brother Paul started school on August 22nd and all he could say on the first day was " are you sure today is the first day of school?" Noo we just wanted to send you to school for the fun of it haha. I got to spend sometime with my boyfriend and bought him some dinner and he loved it and i can't wait to spoil him for his birthday at the end of this month and my best friend Shaliece wanted a photo shoot with friends and i got to be apart of it as for the pictures i don't think i'll ever get a copy of them and that's okay. I'm just glad that's over with so she can leave it alone. I had to help her plan it all out and it was stressful enough I was getting to the point i didn't care if it wasn't going to happen cause she had to keep canceling and rescheduling the photoshoot. My mom turned 54 this year hahaha next year she will get to have senior discount that must be fun being old LOL. Its already been one month since my best friend Tyler passed away and i'm having withdrawals like crazy missing him and not being able to call him anymore or go visit him but i'm just glad he's not in pain anymore. My best friend Shaliece planned a camping trip with her boyfriend and invited me and my boyfriend to go but they picked a bad day so me and my boy won't be able to go camping this Sunday - Tuesday and there's no point of going by myself if its a couples camping trip and I'd feel lonely and left out if I went without my boyfriend and I'd be miserable and I'm miserable just thinking about camping knowing my boy can't be there. So i just told my boy we can do something else while they are camping and we can just go camping on our own time if that's the way my best friend is going to be and I'm mad at her anyways. Other than that this summer has been fun! (: