10 Months

It's been 10 months this month as this 15 months wait for Jaw Surgery is almost over with and i couldn't be happier. I must say TMJ is ruining my life now as i develop new symptoms of TMJ and not only do i go days feeling so sick to the stomach without throwing up. I developed a new symptom of TMJ at the beginning of this new year i now get to have fun with painful ringing in my ears and now i have to be careful  cause i have read up on it on Google and found out the painful ringing can cause me to go deaf and in another way TMJ is ruining my life i can get a good nights sleep and feel very exhausted by the middle of the afternoon TMJ has me all miserable and tired all the time now.
The other day i went to my Orthodontist appointment and they had put my final last wires in my braces these wires are bigger than the ones i had started with since i first got my braces on last year. My orthodontist came by to check on my mouth and to see how things were going. He lifted up my mood so very much knowing that i'm miserable and sick of this. He was telling me " your mouth is changing so much" and than he asked me " Are you happy your mouth is changing?" I shook my head and said yes i'm very happy with the way its changing. He than said " you've come a long way in 10 months that's a year" and i just smiled and knew that this was it there's no quitting or giving up now. He was also telling me " We're just waiting for the spaces to close" and he told me " I'm happy your doing this." I don't get to see my Orthodontist again till May but on my next appointment they are adding some more hooks on some of my teeth and i will get different bands to wear. This is it. We're almost done getting my mouth ready for the surgery. 10 months down 5 months left to go. This has been a fun mess and quite the journey I've been on. I still can't believe i'm going through this. I'm still waiting to hear if i get double jaw surgery done and we are hoping to find out soon on how much this surgery will cost. I've been over whelmed with everything going on in my life and i told my dad this dad i wish i didn't have this jaw problem and my dad says " i know i wish i could help" Sometimes people probably wonder how i can be so positive about it and they probably want to ask me aren't you worried something will go wrong during surgery? no i'm not worried that something will go wrong. I'll be in good hands through out the surgery and yes it does scare me now that i'm realizing that this is all happening soon. I'm very glad i'm getting this taken care of this year or else it would of been to late to get it all fixed as things are getting more and more intense with my jaw and it feels like falling off my face and its nice to have a rude awakening when my jaw pops loud and cracks. Ice. heat and ibuprofen have became my best friends throughout this whole jaw mess and it will be nice after this is all fixed so i don't have to rely on the Ice, Heat and Ibuprofen to help calm the pain.