2 Years Ago

2 years ago knowing i was having problems with my jaw i found out my top jaw is not connected right and i was diagnosed with TMJ really bad. My under bite also came back really bad and i wanted my oral surgeon to surgically fix it and this was a sign my first set of braces i had when i was a teenager failed to fix my under bite and at that time while talking with my oral surgeon he said he would fix it for me and with that he said " i'd like to move your jaw forward and your jaw is not connected right." as he was showing me my x - ray and what my top jaw looked like he also said that he would like to connect it right and align it right. i was well prepared for what was to come. I had already looked into all this jaw surgery stuff before i saw my oral surgeon. I was calm about it that surgery would be the way to fix my jaw and under bite so i don't have to deal with braces for the rest of my life and i really would hate to get my braces off next year and 4 years later deal with this again if i didn't get the surgery done. If i didn't prepare myself and look up about jaw surgery and what to expect I'd be crying and freaking out about it when i found out that surgery was going to be the thing to fix everything. My dad was in-denial about it he was sitting with me at the oral surgeon's office as he heard the news about my jaw. He was telling me well maybe you won't need this surgery maybe your jaw will be back to normal after it relaxes and loosens up from all the pressure and pain. As I said something about wanting the surgery my dad asks me "why do you think you need this surgery?" i flat out told him because dad i lost all the confidence in my smile and i know boys aren't going to like my screwed up smile. And knowing that i got a yes from my oral surgeon that he can surgically fix everything for me and he told me if i want the surgery done all i had to do is get braces back on for it. I had to make the hardest decision of my life to get jaw surgery or just leave it alone and live this way the rest of my life. It took a few days to finally decide and i took the hardest decision and i choose to have my jaw fixed and it was no easy thing i cried about it the first night i made the decision to have it fixed. I gave it a few days before i finally announced it to my parents that i made the decision to get my jaw fixed and they struggled and had a hard time accepting this would be happening to me. My mom was alright and okay with the idea after awhile of hearing my news as for my dad it hit him hard and he had the hardest time accepting it and i think its because i'm his girl i'm daddy's girl. I mean i know its gotta be hard for parents to see their own kids going through something like this and i know my own parents hate seeing me going through this. With my dad having a hard time with this it was getting me upset that he didn't understand that this surgery is what i needed the most and after awhile he finally accepted the idea and now he is calm about it and he will talk to me about the surgery. I gotta say these last 2 years have been nothing but motivation and my friends mom she has the same TMJ problem i do and she was the one to advise me to get it fixed while i can before its to late cause she never got hers fixed and it was to late they can't fix it. Here i am 2 years later with braces for almost a year now and waiting for surgery. I wouldn't be doing this if i didn't love and care about my smile. I'm doing this cause i care about my smile and i love my smile so much. Now that's motivation right there. :)