Here We Go

Lately everything has been hitting me all at once. Nothing like reality kicking in good and hard as i realize that this is no longer a dream anymore this is really happening and it will all be over with before i know it. Knowing I've been so miserable, stressed out and wanting to get this over with. Last week i'd get so fed up with it like okay that's it when i see my orthodontist i'm just gonna say okay i'm ready to break my jaw now. The other day i finally got to go to my orthodontist appointment for the first time since last November. Because of my last x - ray i had done last November the orthodontist had planned to take off some brackets and situate them since he wanted some of my roots to move so now i have two brackets that are situated different on the teeth to help push the roots to move and hopefully that helps. While i was at the orthodontist the other day they had my file pulled up along with someone else's file pulled up. Come to find out i have a similar case like hers and both of our files are marked red for surgical cases. I may not know her or how long she has till she gets surgery but i can only imagine how she feels. Its no fun for sure and its one hell of an expensive mess to clean up and fix but in the end so worth it. I know it can be frustrating for me when telling someone how it feels and what its like when that someone doesn't know how it really feels and what its like to have a screwed up jaw. I mean i'm sure everyone a least experiences popping in the jaw at some point but nothing like it being painful or very loud like mine gets. It only helps to know someone else is going through the same thing i'm going through. The orthodontist says i'm a tough girl and this is a tough case i have and its nice to know some good news that i'm in the right direction for surgery and we're down to the last final months till i under go surgery. Yay!! :)