Boys Boys Boys

Just for being 21. Guys are so complicated. And they say we are the complicated ones. I guess there is just something about me that attracts the bad boys and Jerks and so they probably think they can take advantage of me and that's not right at all. Sure i probably look like one that a guy thinks he can take advantage of but really i come out stronger than i look. Its just frustrating and irritating i freaking hate it. Its nice to know guys want sex but there's more to life than wanting sex all the time. Makes me wanna just go and slap one. They honestly don't care or understand how a girl feels. I wish they would know and understand that sex is something i really don't want right now. As tempting as it is and i do want it but seriously nagging me on about it is just gonna make me get mad at him. So guys can tease me all they want and mess with me all they want but when it goes the other way around and i start teasing a boy its like they can't handle it after a certain point. Well what do you expect he teases me and messes with me of course i'm gonna tease him back. I just don't even know why i bother anymore as much as i like boys i just wanna strangle them they make me feel so happy frustrated and feel like strangling them and just ugh. I don't know how they can deal with making a girl feel this way i wish there was a way to make a guy feel this way. And i'm so sick of boys thinking with their dicks and not their heads. For once can't a guy just think with his head and not his dick. Seriously if they stopped maybe they could actually keep a girl interested into them. I mean i'm not dumb i know when a guy is extremely turned on especially when they just happily openly tell me they are horny. Makes me wanna stay single a little more longer than i want to. I just want to get a boyfriend so i don't feel so lonely all the time don't get me wrong single life is all fun and games. But than again the lonely feeling kills me inside. Its like i just want a boy to cuddle with and be happy with. I just wanna give up on looking for Mr right guy and just focus on having fun being single. Maybe somewhere i'll find the right one. Its just irritating that boys have to put me through this if only they knew how i felt then they would realize they hurt my feelings and its dumb when a guy doesn't think a girl doesn't get turned on just cause i'm a Mormon he thinks that i don't get turned on just cause I'm Mormon. ahahahaha yeah right Hell yes i do get turned on all girls i bet get turned on no matter Mormon or not Mormon. Just cause I'm Mormon doesn't always mean I'm that good girl. I've got a bad side to me too. I mean how else am i supposed to live life. I've had my share of moments of being bad. Boys are just so complicated and annoying they make you wanna do stuff to them and yet were stuck with them we live with them and yet we love them. Gotta love boys.  I know somewhere there is Mr right guy but i guess for now i'll just keep having fun being single.

Favorite Song

Lately this song " Hey Jude" has been my favorite song so far. I know i probably sound like the type to not care for old music that my parents grew up with. But some of the old music is pretty good. Not gonna lie but i'm glad i have my pop/rock music too. Even though this is a covered song from Glee its still so good since they don't have the original version on Spotify.

6th Grade Was the Best

Since my brother Paul is a 6th grader now with school starting in a few good weeks. Reminds me of the good times in 6th grade hahahaha. So many good memories in 6th grade. I was telling Paul that he gets to tour the Junior High sometime in the next year. And i was telling him that he will have 6 or 7 classes a day and i was telling him he gets to be with the big kids next year. I only can hope he enjoys 6th grade since its his last year in Elementary school. He graduates from Elementary next spring (2015) and he finally made it to 6th grade. He's so excited and ready to be done with Elementary school all in all i think he's more than ready to be done with school all together. But he has only 6 years left to go and he will be done and than he can do whatever he wants with his life. I remember my best friend Ross when i told him that Paul was gonna be in 6th grade. He's like wow! I bet that reminds you of what it was like to be in 6th grade hahahahah. Are you freaking kidding me 6th grade was the best. It doesn't feel like that long ago i was in 6th grade hahaha all the good fun times of chasing boys and eating lunch with my friends hahahaha and especially when we were done with lunch and me and Jennifer would go chase boys and Ross would be like oh you two. He tried to keep us from chasing the boys haha and then we pretty much begged him to let us do it. hahahaha he's like fine go chase the boys hahaha and thats when he was so obsessed with That's so Raven haaha and he would say oh snap hahahahaha. I remember when a boy in our class would tease a girl and it was so funny yet so messed up and sad hahahaha he was like copying her and intimidating her this girl had a problem and she would rub her hands together and than she would clear her voice oh my gosh that was so sad and messed up but so funny at the same time. The boy in our class just kept doing the same thing and we all sadly died laughing to this day this still makes me laugh. Our teacher got so mad at us we just couldn't stop laughing we ended up one by one going out in the hall dying of laughter i remember at one point after Ross came back into the class after he was done laughing me and Jennifer couldnt help it at all we both ended up going in the hall just laughing but 6th grade was the best.  I still remember how i met my best friend Ross hahahaha when we were sitting in class on the first day of school and Jennifer had a huge crush on him she thought he was the cutest boy ever. Well she wouldn't get his name so she had me do it. Not shy at all with him sitting behind her in his desk i said hey you. He's like me? i'm like yeah you whats your name? hahaha classy way of just getting his name pshhh hahahaha. He's like my name is Ross hahaha and i told Jennifer his name is Ross hahaha she couldn't stop looking at him and we were like laughing about something and at first from what Ross told me he thought me and Jennifer were very weird at first but hahaha he got stuck with us hahaha in a good way though. hahahahaha I still remember when i told everyone we were moving to Las Vegas and I remember when my Best Friend Ross found out he's like What? no you just can't leave I just met you. hahaha and than i remember him telling me "You can move in with me" hahahahhaha. oh 6th grade. Paul gets to enjoy the ride of it and he's lucky i had to take 6 classes a day and now he only gets to be in one class since they have 6th grade in the Elementary school and see when i was in 6th grade it was a middle school that once existed now we only have Elementary, Junior High and High School. I just hope he gets some better friends and i know he hates school but i hope 6th grade goes a lot easier for him this year.

Living a Migraine Life

I'm one of those that suffer from migraines. It hasn't been easy at all this week. I remind my family of my Grandpa when he was a live he used to deal with a ton of migraines. I guess that's better than having to wear glasses. It sucks that i have to suffer through these horrible headaches and I've had them since i was 13 years old. I love summer but i dont think my headaches love summer its just to hot and i'm not complaining i love this weather i could live in it all year round and be happy :) I know what its like to have a migraine its not fun my hands used to get numb and my eye sight got played with. I do black out cause they get so bad that i can't see anything. The bright side I got extra sleep probably over slept but what can you do with a migraine its just best to let me sleep it off. And its amazing how sleep helps take it away. I tried changing my diet too but i think its just the stress that i have built up on me. Like i need to go running or do Yoga. Its probably cause the money and the jaw problem driving me up the wall. I bet once i get my jaw fixed than i won't have any more problems with headaches and most of them are TMJ migraines since i do still have TMJ just no pain. This week hasn't been fun at all and on top of everything i got sick with the cold. Don't know how i got sick. Its gotten so bad i just lay in bed and just cry since there's not much i can do besides sleeping.

Facebook

As much as it sounds cool being my friend on Facebook. Just no I'm already having a problem with random people adding me on Facebook. People that don't even know me its like okay i know its cool to be my friend on Facebook but I don't know the person. Especially out of country like what the duce?? how do they find me? I tried changing my settings and today it got worse got even more friend requests from people I don't even know. Took off all the links to my Facebook page. If i knew you personally or just knew you through a friend cool than i'd add you. There is that one friend on Facebook that adds everybody and not just everybody, everyone even people they don't know. Its for the best if no one random adds me on Facebook. Cause i won't befriend you not even on Skype. I dont talk to people I don't know. I don't need no creepers, pervs. Fake people pretending to be someone they aren't. I'm afraid these people adding me are gonna get information on me and stalk me and say okay cool she lives there lets go there. Even though i don't share information like that to anyone and they probably are gonna steal pictures and set up profiles faking to be me on Facebook. Sure i don't like Facebook a lot of times but if this keeps happening my family wont be to happy to hear that i'm deleting my Facebook page cause that's the only way they get a hold of me and talk to me and that's the only way i see what my family are up to. I can't believe people on Facebook don't think " I don't know that person i wont add her or him" they need to realize just cause they don't know me they aren't gonna get to know me i'm not telling anyone i don't know my information and Just cause I live in America I still wont tell a stranger anything. I'm not that person that has to befriend everyone and everybody even the people i don't know i don't roll like that. I only trust my friends and family with what i post on Facebook. And i already tried Deactivating my Facebook 3 years ago and I found myself back on it and my friends and family love seeing what i post on Facebook. If you don't know me than don't add me. If i don't know you i wont add you or talk to you. I'm not trying to be rude or anything its how i feel on this whole Facebook thing. Don't bother searching my name in Facebook either cause your wasting time just adding me to find out that you didn't get accepted. I rather be safe than sorry and just cause i don't know you. I'm not gonna open up to you i'm very shy and i don't open up to anyone the first time i meet someone. It takes time for me to open up to someone and be myself around them.

I Feel Old

I don't think nothing could out beat the old Disney that i grew up with. Compared the weird crap they put on Disney Channel today. I feel so old just watching these videos from my childhood. 

compared to this. I feel so old I don't barely recognize anyone in this new one they just barely did. I only recognize a few people. I guess cause I don't watch Disney Channel anymore.  

Throw Back Thursday

Throwing it back to this time when we were all together in High School. Missing these boys like crazy. :( Its just weird to think how grown up we are and going our own separate ways. I wish we could take back this and just hang out one last time like the good old times. I'd repeat this moment just not the hell we went through in High School. It will be good to have everyone well almost everyone home again next year. There's one more missionary that wont be coming home till 2016. Hopefully we can all get together again. I'm glad i met these boys. I miss talking to them having fun with them and getting hugs from them and just chillin out with them. I'm so proud of these boys though.

Utah's Pretty Sunsets

Not gonna lie Utah has pretty amazing sunsets. And it looks like the sun is on fire due to the fires were having here in Utah. Its gotten really bad up in northern Utah being on fire. But it turned out so pretty for the sunset. 

The Joy of Girl Life

I gotta love being a girl hahahaha. It seriously must be that time of month for hot attractive boys. Hahaha I don't mean to get a little TMI in this. While at the store a bunch of boys walked past me. ohhhh i just couldn't help it and as they walked past me yeah i just said "mmmm they smell good" hahahaha i think i died. hahahaha and my mom was like why are you smiling? hahahaha she has no idea. and this is how i feel.

its almost like hormones meet boy, boy meet hormones. LOL i bet if my hormones could they would speak for me and get the boys attention and they would be like hey you yeah you come here boy. hahahaha. Thank you Mother freaking nature for this wonderful feeling. Pretty sure i'm just blushing and smiling stupidly hahahaha.

Time For a Vaction

I know when I've been in Utah way to long. Its time for a much needed vacation. I know we didn't get to go to Las Vegas and Disneyland for my Birthday in 2012 but its whatever. I just so badly wanna go back to Las Vegas. I'm so sick of being here in Utah. I honestly don't know how i make it with out a vacation in my life. Get a lot off my mind and relax and get away from all the stress. I've been so tempted to just plan a trip to Las Vegas as a surprise Anniversary present for my parents and as my birthday present and celebrate my 22nd birthday in Las Vegas I really wanna celebrate my birthday there and turn 22 in Las Vegas. I just would like to get away for a few days and just enjoy some time away from this state. But i guess i have to wait to see how much money i can build up in the 3 months before my birthday. I guess i want a vacation so bad i actually looked at hotels in Las Vegas and they got some deals on some of the hotels that aren't to bad. I know I've been to Idaho already but i need to leave the state for a few days. I'll be happy to help pay for this trip to Las Vegas and my brothers don't even have to go if they don't want to go. It would be fun. Sometime i'll have to take my Best Friend Shaliece to Las Vegas cause she has never been to Las Vegas once in her life.

Idaho 2014

Yesterday we took my two cousins back home to Idaho. It was so much fun i'm glad i got to spend time with them. I'm gonna miss them. We also went to my cousins baby shower even though the baby isn't due till October my cousins friend decided to give her a baby shower 3 months early. Funny thing is 4 of us guessed that she would have the baby October 7th ( my birthday) I guess we will have to see when Elianna decides to make her appearance. We made one cute diaper cake for my cousin Julie. heck with it Elianna hasn't even came yet and she's already spoiled.

The diaper cake was my idea (just cause it was done for 2 of my cousins baby shower ) it turned out so cute. they are so easy to make just takes some time to put together. But i loved it and i'm glad my cousin Julie loves the diaper cake. I'm just so excited and happy that we got a new baby girl coming into this family. 

I can't wait to meet her. The instructions for the diaper cake are pretty simple and easy they take 50 diapers and you can add whatever you want to it and it works perfect for both girls and boys and the rubber duck that we got tells how hot or cold the water is. I'm glad this turned out perfect. :) 

I also made this for my cousin Elianna. It turned out so cute. 

Got the idea from Hobby Lobby. It was so cute its like one of those Monogram letters except we just used scrapbook paper for the background and felt for the pink glittery letter. And Julie thought it was so cute. it actually has a bow on it but i took this way before we added the bow on it and of course we took a white frame and painted it pink since we couldn't find a pink frame that wasn't expensive. I'm glad it turned out so cute. I hope Elianna will like it when she gets old enough to look at it. 

Now we get to go back to Idaho next month for my baby cousin Rayce 's 1st Birthday can't believe he will be turning one already. 

What Happens When You Wake me Up

This is what happens when you wake me up in the middle of the night. My brother Paul woke me up in the middle of the night. He comes in my room forgets to turn on the light in my room and walks up to my bed and wakes me up. Now i wasn't fully awake I don't know what i remember but he somehow got me awake even though i wasn't awake so in my sleep i'm sitting up my eyes wide open and i grabbed a hold of him and stared at him for a good while and it scared the crap out of him and i didn't say a word. He was saying my name "Jessica" and than i woke up. But i really don't remember much I do remember someone saying my name so that was probably what i heard. And than he woke me up for the second time over some stupid sunburn he has that is peeling off. That's what he gets for waking me up.

Flashback Friday

I was looking back through my old blog that i used to have 3 years ago. I just couldnt stop smiling or laughing just remembering the good old times. I just have one stupid sense of humor. Hahaha it never fails when i make myself laugh or someone laugh and they just go " oh Jessica" hahahahahah. I just read something from 2011. Me and my Best friend had a sleepover and this is when my grandma was still a live that summer in 2011. We lay there in bed trying to go to sleep and knowing me i just have to break the silence. I was just being very funny and she was trying to not laugh since she was trying to sleep. Me being the funny one i just had to. I said Guess what? yeah i tried Yoga before hahahahaha. I failed at it and i just sat there and laughed and the Yoga teacher was like Jessica whats so funny? I'm sorry but i can't help but laugh at how you guys have your legs over your heads ahahahaha and the yoga teacher said that's not really funny. Hahaha and shaliece was like "oh my gosh Jessica I'm trying to sleep" hahahahaha. She couldnt stop laughing when i was talking about Yoga. which i never have tried Yoga hahahaha. and it didn't end there than i was like I miss Dallin and she was like oh my gosh. hahahaha then i started saying do you need a taxi? she's like wow hahahahaha she was just laughing and trying to get me to shut up so she could sleep. She was telling me Jess shh I'm trying to stop laughing. hahahahaha and than i said I want some coffee hahaha she was like oh boy that is bad hahahahahaha. We eventually fell asleep after all that laughing hahahahahahaha.

What a Surprise

Today i got a card and a note from my BFF in the mail. I'm crazy busy lately :( haven't had time to even hang out or see her this summer. its a bummer makes me feel like a bad friend now. :( sad how adult life does this its like family basically becomes your friends cause you see family more then friends. I feel like i have no social life. I do get on Facebook every now and than. I just hope to see her soon. I actually been having with drawls missing my BFF it was nice of her to do that and she was so happy when she saw that i got it while we were on Skype tonight. I guess i'll have to send her a card in the mail in return just so she knows that i still do care and still wish to see her i know adult life gets busy and she's busy but i'm still here for her. Just cause we don't get to talk as much anymore which probably kills a lot especially missing each other it feels like we live in different states but really in different cities in Utah. She may not think that "oh she probably doesn't want to hang out with me anymore." which i really do want to see her and hang out with her. I feel so bad now that we don't get to spend as much time. This summer i haven't seen her once that's pretty sad. I hope she knows that i'm still wanting to hang out with her and stuff but we just gotta find time to see each other cause i'm just crazy busy and its just like forget having a social life. But i'm glad to know she's thinking of me and missing me.

Salt Lake 2014

The other day on Tuesday we went up to Salt Lake it was so much fun got to show my two cousins Jayden and Keagan what Salt Lake is really like and they even saw some old pictures of what Salt Lake used to look like in the old days like in 1980 it was so cool and they were both like amazed at how big Salt Lake was. My mom and my brother came with along with my Grandma it was so fun riding the front runner up to Salt Lake. I know they are trying to get the front runner to go all the way down to St.George but its gonna be a long time before they get that done right now it just goes to Provo and we also got to ride on the Trax for the first time ever. We also met a bunch of missionaries they were getting ready to leave to Italy and Rome they were just getting their passport all figured out i guess you have to go to the Airport for it they leave like August 5th and 6th next month they were so nice and its so weird we go to Salt Lake and its like hey "where are you from?" oh you know Utah county Orem area. And i got to be Jayden's Buddy the whole time he got to sit next to me and walk with me and the boys barely even fought with each other we also took them to the Disney Store at the City creek center and we got to go to the Deseret book store and look at stuff they loved Salt Lake they wanted to do this again but so far its just a once in a life time thing maybe years later we will do it again. This is the most I've visited Salt Lake and i get to go up to Salt Lake again next month so I can't wait to go up there again.  

Happy Birthday America!

Since its 4th of July weekend. Happy Birthday America! I'm proud to be an American and live in a country where i know i'm free. Its been a fun 4th of July went to watch fireworks at Stadium of Fire at BYU in Provo. It was so much fun they do an awesome firework show and this was just the first time we went to it. Of course Carrie Underwood came to preform at the Stadium of fire but the tickets were all sold out someday i wanna go to Stadium of fire it looks so cool and fun but its just to expensive. But its almost like one of those once in a life time things that we get to go to. I hope someday in the future they get Demi Lovato to preform at Stadium of fire she would totally be awesome. Carrie Underwood must kill it if this is her second time preforming at the stadium of fire and she is really good that's for sure. 

Missing This Boy a lot Lately

I know its only been a year. But dang i'm missing this boy a lot lately. Having a crush on him doesn't help either. I think i just fell for him even more. Even though I don't get to write him much a hi is good enough. I'm just glad to hear he's good and happy and loving Chile and his mission. One more year left to go almost there. It will be good to have him back in 2015 crazy how fast 2 years goes by. Having serious with drawls and he will come home speaking Spanish and that makes it even more hotter. Chile is lucky to have my Best Friend.

Summer Fun Part 2

Got to have a sleepover with my Best Friend Shaliece over the weekend last Saturday it was so much fun and of course her brother Kaden slept over too and we came home after picking them up and than me and shaliece went to the store with my mom and we came home to a surprise and found Paul's other friends came over. We don't like his friends the bad influenced ones. I'm sorry but that's just rude we already said yes to Shaliece and Kaden and than we had to put up with the other two boys that aren't good at all. That's a rude welcoming we have plans and they have to mess them up and their mom is rude not to think that oh maybe we are busy nope they didn't even call or give a heads up she or someone just dropped them off and left. We weren't thrilled at all. Me and Shaliece just watched movies a good part of the day and than all the sudden we realized the boys aleast speaking of Paul and Kaden went missing and didn't tell us were they were at so we had to go on a search for them what a pain in the butt we walked around the block and than came back to find Shadow's uncle here to pick him up but we couldn't find shadow at all for awhile then i figured they would be at Sofia's house so we walked to her house goodness what a walk it was for us to get to her house. she lives kinda far from us walking wise driving wise not to bad. And after finding out that Paul was over at Sofia's but they ran off after being at her house. We finally found them and told Shadow that his uncle was looking for them and they must of got in trouble cause by the time we got back to the house they were on the phone with their mom and their uncle finally showed up again. So they finally left and of course Paul started crying I know he misses shadow and his brother but he has got to realize he doesn't need those friends i know its sad and i understand that he had a hard time making friends this past year since we moved over here. But now its time that he realizes that his friends are bad and he needs to move on from them and get some new friends that influence him in good ways. I know we all don't have perfect friends I admit that i don't have perfect friends all though i don't hang out with them and they are a bad influence in away especially one that i've known for a good long time now. But i can't let go of him and stop being his friend.
These kids walk all over my brother and he lets them do it and we warned Kaden about his friends so he knew what they were like and to watch out and to say no when something happens. And of course Sofia slept over cause she couldn't stay home alone with everyone gone. But a least it wasn't shadow and his brother sleeping over and the most funniest thing hahahaha me and Shaliece dirty talked a lot hahahaha we wouldn't shut up and having raging hormones doesn't help. We kept talking about going to the club ahaha and than teased each other about Dallin and Tyler hahahaha. Paul Kaden and Sofia was like you guys are so weird i was the worst one i couldnt shut up ahahaha and on Sunday Sofia wanted to go buy a bird so here's what we did took a nice long walk to Petco and she got her bird than we walked to Shopko surprised my mom and got some money for a slurpee at 7 eleven and than we walked all the way back home and we got busy doing stuff and had the kids clean up their messes and cleaned the kitchen and just posted pictures on Facebook. Shaliece wrote to Dallin and her friend Cortney. I'll have to write Dallin sometime I think she kind of gets mad at me when I don't want to write to Dallin. She also wanted me to write to Cortney but i dont know if i will cause she particularly doesn't like me that much but i guess i'll do it one of these days and i think she kind of got mad at me when we didn't get to watch more movies. Well I don't mind a movie marathon but i just have the hardest time sitting through movies plus i start falling asleep through them. I don't mind watching 2 or 3 movies but to watch movies all day. i end up just wanting to do something else she's probably used to it all day at home watching movies but dang. and we were talking about the Austin Mahone concert that we are going to next month. Yay can't wait to have some fun up in Salt Lake. Just gotta get some shirts ordered if i can find any. We also talked about the old times and laughed a lot and just had some plain old good fun hanging out. Its been so much fun I can't wait till we get to have another sleepover sometime soon when they get back from camping.  by the end of the night before we took them home i ended up with a sunburn and it burns like hell next time I'm wearing sunscreen if we walk that far again.

Summer fun

Its defifiently  a good day when hanging out with my Best Friend Shaliece. It has been so much fun with her got to hang out with her on June 22nd we didn't have a sleepover though but it was okay we still had fun Shaliece's brother Kaden came over to play with Paul. We just hung out talked and laughed of course and took some pictures. It was so much fun. It makes me miss hanging out with her a lot like the old times. Me and her of course we went on a walk and we also got to talk to our Best Friend Tyler well she did anyways. Hahaha it was just so funny when we talked to him. I guess he already knew it was Shaliece as he answered the phone cause he answered and said " Hi shaliece" of course with me i was just laughing and we didn't get to talk long but all the sudden Shaliece was trying to stay calm but she couldnt cause i kept her laughing and he's like asking What is Jessica doing? and her reply was oh you know being the normal Jessica she is just laughing away and he starts laughing and than i smell a BBQ and jokingly say hey i smell a BBQ should we just invite ourselves over?? and Tyler heard me and just started laughing and Shaliece was like guess what Tyler? he's reply was what? Shaliece said me and Jessica are hanging out and he's like oh no what are you two crazy girls up to? oh not much just chillin like a villein. he's like oh fun sounds cool. And than he asked did you and Jessica go to church today?? Hmmm sure sarcastic voice sure we made it to church today. Were so bad we don't go. He could tell that we didn't go hahahaha and he's like oh you two. hahaha and we asked him if he went to church and he's like yeah of course i did okay maybe i got a little busy ahahaha its like Tyler you are a bad boy. hahaha. it was so much fun talking to him even though we didn't talk long cause he had to go eat and he told us to call him back later that day but he never picked up his phone after that so he must of got busy with stuff but that's okay. And than they had to go home it's so much fun having her over at my house. I'm glad we still get to see each other.