Update on my Head

Just when I thought everything was okay cause I never heard the results from the doctors about the results of my cat scan. It was yesterday when I finally got the news of the results the doctor called me and asked if I had ever heard back from the hospital or the other doctor about the results. I said nope I thought everything was okay since I haven't heard anything. Well, she was surprised that no one called me to let me know what was going on. She continued and said well I have the results from your cat scan. And this is when the news hit me. She first started off saying your head is okay it doesn't look like you damaged it from hitting it... I said okay. and she said but there's been a change.... I said what you mean? she said well the cat scan shows that you have a cyst on your brain.
Not knowing what she was talking about I was confused and I was asking her what she meant by a cyst and she told me that I basically have a bubble hanging on the side of my brain. Its full of fluid but it doesn't look like its life threatening unless its bothering you. and she was just checking up on me about my headaches and how I felt. I said well right now the headache's are coming and going away now. Other than that I feel so much better now. She started suggesting that it may be best if I see a neurologist for this. But not knowing what to do since its not really life threatening at the moment it hasn't bothered me. She told me that she would talk to my regular doctor about it and see what he wants me to do. She said yeah that's probably where that long week of headaches were coming from was from the cyst and its probably putting so much pressure on your head that its causing headaches. But after that she said she would let me know what to do next she said she was going to call me back tomorrow (today) and so after all that after I found out I said thanks so much for letting me know that I have this cyst on my head. And we just hung up after all that and I told my parents what I found out... Were all stuck how did I get a cyst on brain? That's the first question they had and than they asked if I heard the doctor the right way and I said yeah I heard everything she was telling me and we tried looking up all about this cyst on my brain and not knowing the symptoms of this I really don't know how to feel or what to expect. I guess tomorrow if anything maybe Monday I will hear from them again. Since I went up to Idaho and I don't have a working cell phone and my grandma's cell phone doesn't have much air time on it. So my mom called us and let me know that the doctors office had called and I couldn't really call them back especially since my grandma is like well I wouldn't mess with it cause they will put you on hold and it will take forever to talk to the doctor.
So I guess tomorrow or Monday I will either call them back or they will call me back. I'm hoping this goes away on its own maybe it will just start going away on its own cause I cant afford anymore visits to the hospital and I really can't afford the doctors either at this time. Plus were gonna talk to the doctor and see if we can put me on a program to help me pay for all of this and also get me on some medication to help this go away cause I want to avoid the biggest thing ever having surgery done.

The Sims 4

I'm totally getting really into The Sims 4 already. It hasn't come out yet not until next year but it looks really interesting and different really different. It kind of does remind me of Sims 2 though.
But since the game is just being made and they are working on it than I don't know what to expect until they talk more about it and show us more video's. It looks pretty cool now that they have emotions finally.

This really has me looking forward to it a lot.

and this arrival trailer just pretty much gets interesting the way they introduce the Sims in Sims 4.

Happy Birthday to my Mom/ Paul's First Day of School

Today was my mom's 51st Birthday. She's getting old now. We didn't do anything special but we did celebrate her birthday on Sunday with the family. So it was pretty good. Today Paul also started his first day of 5th grade. He also got homework on his first day. Thankfully it was just a simple math worksheet for him. Here goes to another year of school. One more grade to go and he's done with Elementary. Hopefully he will keep his head up and do awesome at school this year. This is the grade he also gets the puberty talk. He's gotten a lot of questions with that. but i'm glad he had a good day at school. Hopefully he starts making some new friends so he can have someone to play with and not be on his computer all day long. he only has 7 years left of school left. Crazyy!

People Change

Today I was just thinking about how people change I've changed and so has the person I once knew. People really do change and I used to know the person that has changed. Don't know what the heck his problem has been but it makes me miss the old him. We used to hang out and talk a lot and he's my best friend since 6th grade. Its sad to see people change. It hurts to even know that I once knew him. But I guess its for the best we obviously have grown a part. We can barely talk anymore he's got a grudge against me and he really doesn't want to talk about it either and he's just a big jerk now. I'm not liking this new him. I'm just done with him. I know deep down we can pull through this but if he cant talk to me anymore. Than we have a problem. And this had me thinking about people changing like I know I've changed and obviously it looks like he's changed too maybe somewhere there was a friendship a long time ago when we were younger but now things have changed especially between me and him. Can't have a good conversation anymore its obvious he can't stand talking to me or talking about me now. I used to have fun hanging out with him I used to have fun talking to him. I don't have a crush on him anymore whatsoever. But it makes me wanna cry cause he's been my best friend. I'm not sure what to do I really want to end the friendship with him. When he talks to me he makes me feel like I'm dumb and stupid that he doesn't really want to talk to me. I don't understand what's his problem and I don't think I will ever know. But I guess its for the best now. Its just sad.




I really hope we can figure something out but if I cant talk to him about it than I guess its pointless cause we either fix what's got him holding a grudge against him or just break it and say goodbye.
I think its for the best that it ends. If I'm done with him I don't care if Jennifer and Shaliece talk to him I could freaking care less if they talk to each other or hang out with each other not that i'm gonna get mad or anything. I'm happy with my other best friend in my life even though we don't talk anymore but still he remains my best friend.

People really do change and Love does really hurt. Sadly friends leave and things go wrong. But I gotta remember that life goes on.

 
 

oh the Joy and Fun

Yesterday I had my fun and joy of being at the doctors I finally got this head injury checked out by a doctor it was a girl doctor but she works under my doctor at urgent care. It freaking took forever to get out of there. I got weighed and found out I now weigh 112.2 Pounds so I've lost some weight I used to be 102.5 pounds. So while at the doctors we were trying to figure out what to do with me and my head injury that happened 2 weeks ago. Told them the symptoms and everything and the doctor went to talk to my doctor but he wasn't on call yesterday so she ended up talking to a different doctor about it and they decided to just send me to the hospital. I tell you its a freaking pain in the butt. We were hoping to not go that way but the doctors wanted me to go I had no choice but to get a cat scan done. I was asking how i can get rid of this headache I keep having and she was supposed to give me some Ibuprofen but I guess she forgot and she didn't want to prescribe me anything yet and she said she could of gave me a shot but she didn't want me all loopy and dizzy at the hospital since they were sending me there. Came home in time for Paul to meet his 5th grade teacher and school starts on Tuesday for him finally. And than we went over to my grandma's house for some stuff and my mom had to pay off a loan and came home in time to drop the stuff off and head off to the hospital. It took awhile to go through registration we weren't to thrilled got to go back to Tempanogos Hospital luckily they had some records of me from when I was 7 years old and my first head injury happened. Got that all taken care of and just went into the radiology room where they do X-ray's and had to wait for awhile for a doctor to come get me for it. So finally got that taken care of and I guess everything is okay cause I didn't hear back from the doctors or hospital. But I may still go back to the doctors this next week to get some stronger medicine or a shot to kill these headaches I keep having. Its been a pretty interesting day yesterday but i'm happy i'm finally feeling better just got the headaches.

2 Weeks Ago

I hit my forehead pretty hard against the countertop 2 weeks ago. It happened on a Saturday that both of my parents were working and I was putting something away underneath the sink. And before I knew it my head collided with the countertop/sink. Since than I haven't been normal. I felt okay after I hit my head but than the next day came and I felt yucky I felt weird I felt like something wasn't normal and I had a hard time sleeping id dose off and keep waking up and keep falling asleep finally I was able to get a good nap in after all that. I took some aspirin more like ibuprofen and kept reading stories online what to do with a mild concussion I honestly didn't know what to do and what other people did when they had mild concussions. I started feeling better and thought well maybe it wasn't anything and than last Saturday it hit. I got this massive headache that hit me pretty good woke up with it and just thought maybe cause it was my time of the month and usually that happens having a headache on the first day. I shook it off took some ibuprofen and went on with my daily things that I did and I slept it off and everything and it wouldn't go away it stayed through out the week so far its been almost one week since I had this headache its made me feel so hopeless I've been trying to find answers what to do with a concussion and a headache at first the headaches weren't to bad but as the week went by the stronger the more severe my headache became. I felt like I didn't want to do anything I haven't been in the mood to really enjoy anything I don't blame myself its hard to enjoy something fun when you got a headache and all that is on your mind is the pain and headache that won't go away. I've been a sleepy girl lately cause sleep is like the only thing that can take away the headache that's until I wake up again and its back. But than again I can't sleep all day and all night I have things to do I just cant sleep through it all I don't need to develop a sleeping problem . But I have no idea what's going on and my dad thought I might of bruised it. So when I kept complaining about what was wrong with me my dad finally gave up and said you know maybe its time to have it checked out and see whats happening. He thought I may of tightened my neck muscles when that happened but when he checked there was no sign of tight muscles. So he said we will have to get you into a doctor when I get paid. And my mom wouldn't want to believe that I hit it pretty hard it wasn't just a hit and i'm fine it was a hit. It could of been worse I could of blacked out on the kitchen floor and I wouldn't be able to yell for help and of course all Paul would do is freak out and not know what to do. So finally I told my mom the story of what happened I said look it wasn't just some hit and I feel fine after words it was a pretty hard hit. I wish I could of avoided it but it just happened to fast.
So I haven't gotten any better since than I felt really weird and just trying to cope with it and its like I have a hard time thinking i'm not thinking as normal as I used to my memory is kind of messed up right now and I can't remember certain things since this happened. I know I understand my parents we don't have insurance its going to kill paying for a doctors visit. My mom kept saying oh she will be fine it will pass. My dad said its been 2 weeks 2 weeks. Its a head injury you don't mess with those. You really don't you don't wanna take a chance and ignore it. It could be something serious and it could damage the brain. Something is going on with her and she can feel it and obviously it isn't gonna get any better. Honestly it hasn't I just keep feeling more worse and I also hit my head in the shower by accident both are accidents but when I bumped my head in the shower it wasn't that hard just a hit and I started feeling really dizzy after that. So finally we gave in and called the doctors office on Wednesday but couldn't get me into see my doctor cause he's booked he's freaking busy so now I gotta go to Urgent care and see a doctor there. I was supposed to go today but no some things ended up happening my parents got in an argument over it and she said well I want her to try Tylenol extra strength. So my mom got me that and I tried it twice today it helped but I still feel like there is something going on and it doesn't feel right. So tomorrow I'm gonna go see a doctor at urgent care and see if we can find out whats happening and see if there is away of getting rid of this annoying headache that I badly wanna get rid of. I'd hate to live the rest of my life knowing that I hit my head and that I keep getting headaches like this. I really hope we find out whats going on with my head.

My Career and College

Talk about career and college and stuff and its like I haven't always wanted to be a teacher. I was in kindergarten when I wanted to be a "Doctor" at that time I didn't know girls were nurses not doctors but I did want to be a nurse and help kids feel better when they were sick. But as I got into Junior High and High School it has changed especially since I had to write a report on my past pleasant and future and I just love kids like the joy they bring and the imagination that they have and the fun and energy they have its just amazing. And I knew as I was writing a report on my past pleasant and future I knew that I wanted to be a teacher I've known since I was in 10th grade what I wanted to be and I had it all planned out and I still do. At the time I didn't know what type of teacher and than it hit me I wanted to be a pre school teacher. and that's what i'm studying to go into early education and elementary education. Someone recently suggested to me that I should try and become a kindergarten teacher. I still can work on my associates degree for early education but I should try and push it but she said its up to me and that it would work out cause I found out that kindergarten teachers get paid more than pre school teachers. Its awesome that I do want to be a pre school teacher. I seriously would never be a high school teacher after how we treated our teachers in high school my class was horrible with it students would treat teachers with disrespect and treat them really awful especially me I would treat my own teachers with crap I'd give them the hardest time ever. I still need to really think this through and make sure its something I want to do. I really don't wanna just do it cause someone told me to do it. But if I decide to than I am on the right path. I've got a lot in store for me and its like the doors are finally opening to the things I need in life. (: Its like an unexpected thing in life its like becoming an opportunity to either take or pass it. And right now a lot sounds good and its worth it. But just having to spend a few more years in college is a lot. But i'm happy with the way things are going its been the best. I've been seriously blessed. I honestly can't wait to start working with kids in a classroom its going to be awesome

Flashback (:

Taking it back 4 or 5 years ago. Flashback (:  


This was taken 4 or 5 years ago on our last final day in Las Vegas before we moved back to Utah.
The Long hair I had when I was 15 and 16 years old. (:

Happy Birthday to My Best Friend!!!

Ahhh! Today my Best Friend is 20 years old. Happy Birthday to my freaking awesome Best Friend Eddy! (: We've been through thick and thin and I've been there for him like he was for me. He's been the best. We have a history together and we became so close and honestly he became my best friend even more than that my boyfriend. Not once do I ever regret having that boy in my life or meeting him. I'm happy he was apart of my life he's got one awesome personality and we just have this connection with each other. He's done the best job at being the best boyfriend to me. He's just all around fun to be around and he's just cool and awesome especially since I cant speak Spanish or I'm not from Cuba and he is and that's awesome to have a friend that is from a different place and can speak Spanish. he's my first boyfriend so of course i'm always gonna have some what of a feeling and I still do love him just not in the same way I used to. I hope he has the best birthday ever and hope he's doing okay since we don't get to talk much and I can't wait to see him again one day when we go back to Las Vegas. But I hope he has the best 20th birthday ever. He's no longer a teenager now he's just a normal adult which is crazy. I'll be turning 21 soon so it wont be long being the same age as him since I'm a year older than him.

10 Years Later.....

The other day while cleaning out my room and getting rid of stuff I don't want anymore. I found my diary from like 10 years ago and I wrote in it in 2004 and only 4 months while I was in 6th grade was all I written in it. We packed it up and I thought I lost my diary or threw it away. I didn't take it with me to Las Vegas when we moved and than a year ago I found my diary in a box of books that we had. I obviously missed something when I looked through it. A year later I looked through it again and look what I found :) hahahahahaha this was drawn all over a page in my diary like who did this?

hahaha who ever did this must of made their mark in my book. While I don't know who this was or don't even remember if I did this. I found it kind of funny that I found this and as I found this I was just flipping through my diary and passed this page and than realized what I just saw and went back to this page. Who ever or whenever this was its amazing hahaha. I kind of like it now i'm not gonna rip it out or get mad about it. It's the best thing that has happened to my boring lame diary hahaha.