The Marriage/Dating Talk With the Parents

Last night my parents had the marriage and dating talk with me. First off we were talking about the singles ward. I really don't remember how that came about but we talked about it and my dad said you know why don't you try going to the singles ward? I said yeah I don't know where it is and I bet its driving distance. He said well look up where one is here in Orem and I bet you will be able to go to it. Maybe it will be fun for you and who knows maybe you can meet a guy there. And my mom said yeah that's the only way you can meet a guy. ( I did Join LDS singles online) So far that's not really working out so well. back to the conversation my mom said you keep talking about getting married in the temple. And the only way you can do that is if you find a guy. and than we got into this conversation even more she asked "What are you waiting for?" my reply... I don't know! well Jess your almost 21 years old. If you wait any longer half your life will be wasted. All I could say was yes I know that and yes I do want to get married more than anything cause that's what I've always wanted and finally we ended the conversation she said there should be no excuses you can do it. Aside from all of this craziness last night later on that night I realized I was going to be 21 in 3 months. Oh my! I better figure out what I want and start dating and start finding Mr right guy. Don't get me wrong I've loved being single and I loved not having a boyfriend that was the best feeling not having a boyfriend I really didn't care for a boyfriend unlike my friends who do have boyfriends and all that. I do want a boyfriend its the best feeling in the world knowing that a guy loves me for who I am. So it looks like I have decsions to make  before I turn 21. This is the age where its really time to start thinking and getting serious about my future. I know I have a crush on my Best Friend Dallin but since I told him I really feel the need to just move on and find someone else. I know its weird for me to say that. But I don't know whats going to happen in 2 years i'm not gonna sit here and wait 2 years for him to get back. I'm sad in a way sure it would be a dream come true to marry him and everything but I really don't see that happening.I'm happy he knows that I have a crush on him. He knows I wasn't planning on falling for him it just happened. But anyways now I have to tell my Best Friend Shaliece that its gotta be done I know she wont be to thrilled and she will wonder why? and no i'm not getting married cause my parents want me to. Its my choice to get married and I've always wanted to get married and i'm sure every parent would be proud to see their kids grow up and get married. And I also need to just let my Ex boyfriend Eddy know too. The more I think about this somewhat with the dating makes me kinda miss that boy in my life. But I guess hope for the best and I have made the best of my life so far so I'm happy that its going well. I hope to keep it going good for me. I'm scared and nervous more than anything for what's about to come but I really hope that I find mr right guy and be able to get married and have kids someday. can't believe it almost gonna be 21 already. This is crazy. I've grown up way to fast. But i'm ready for this. Looks like its time to close a chapter of my life and start a new one. :)