Two Missionaries: 2 Letters ohh soo happy!

Yesterday I got one letter from a missionary. Today I got another letter from another missionary! I seriously love writing to missionaries its the best. Makes me soo happy. :) I just get all happy and smiley everytime i see a letter for me in the mail. I love what they have to say its soo good to hear those words that sometimes i need to hear. I can tell my heavenly father really loves me from the way it sounds the second missionary wrote he could feel the spirit when he wrote to me. Thats really the best thing ever to know my heavenly father loves me. I seriously just had my spirit lifted today all cause of him and I'm glad he wrote me those things i needed to hear the most! I seriously am soo blessed I couldnt ask for a better life. :) Im soo happy i deserve a good long fullfilled life before  i return home to my heavenly father. :) I got some good friends in my life. Im always happy and have a smile on my face. :) and the most important im happy and healthy never better! :) Im seriously going to live life til im dead. :) Im glad i got to hear from 2 missionaries. Cant wait to hear from them agian! :) its the best feeling ever. :) :) I'm glad im able to live a life i have been given its been the best and i got a pretty good family too. :)

Lovin Life

I just been enjoying my life. On Thursday we went to my Grandpa and Grandma's grave again! :) And we put some flowers on their grave and we also put some pinwheels on their grave. Just sat next to my grandpas grave and said " Hi Grandpa, Hope you know i love you and miss you!" :) I seriously wish i could see my grandpa and grandpa right now again. If i get to see them again someday before its my turn to go to heaven id soo ask " Whats heaven really like?" Thats the first thing id ask my grandparents. and we decorated their grave. :) Showed some love and respect that we still havent forgotten them at all. :)

Friday my brother kicked butt with his very last school project for the school year. :) what a better way to end the school year and that ends his homework for the school year also. Soo it makes me very happy to have him back so we can have some fun this summer.

Yesterday ( saturday) What a surprise saw my old high school teacher! :) One i actually liked too and she wished me good luck and found out they are adding onto the high school. :) Im proud to be a caveman. whats funny is the school will constantly shake from the work the construction workers are doing to the school and it will make teachers mad hahahahaha. So good to see my high school teacher since i hardly see anyone anymore. Kinda sucks. :(

hahahhahaha last not but least today I was being funny at dinner time my brother almost 10 years old. acted like a 2 year old. hahhahaha so i said do you want us to put a number 2 on your cake this year hahaha i forgot to add candle to that hahahaha so we all started laughing hahhahahhha and Deans like yes do you want a number one on that hahahahaha. :)) good times good times. sooo funny. :)) :))

This Feeling.

Today me and my best friend Shaliece were talking about breaking the ice and finally telling Dallin and Tyler how we feel about them hhhahahahaha ohh they dont know what we really talk about hahahahaa. Honestly i dont know how i developed feelings for Dallin hahahahaha I met him before christmas more like before thanksgiving and after christmas break we go back to school all the sudden its like i had this thing going for Dallin as if it felt right that it was meant to be. hahahaha so me and shaliece were fighting the feelings of telling them the truth just break it to them dont know what were waiting for people tell us to tell them as soon as possible and dont wait any longer. hahahahaha I'm afraid once i wanna say it something stupid will come out of my mouth hahahaha. I mean pretty much i love this boy its to th point were im just soo in love with him and i get excited over it all and yet i hide it all from him. Its like i can write it all out on paper but its like oh my gosh just this feeling of wanting to just tell him straight up makes me soo nervous cause its always gotta have the negative side its always gotta have that chance of ruining the friendship :( hahahahhaha but if they can tell we like them then they must be waiting to hear us tell them soo they can say oh i knew all along. i mean seriously. hahahaha.
I never knew confessing my feelings would be so complicated and hard hahahahahaha. I just wish it was eaiser to tell him i like him a  whole heck of a lot. If it gets to the point i will write it on paper and give it to him. hahahaha. its deffiently time to tell them now.

Writing Missionaries. The Best!

For awhile now i've been writing a missionary. His name is Elder Justin Holland. Now that two other boys i met have left on their mission im writing them also. I love getting letters from Missionaries its the best feeling ever it just makes my day soo much better just getting to read what they write to me. One is named Elder Greg Rellaford, I met him at the Senior Dinner Dance in High School. He danced with me on one of the slow songs and we were getting to know eachother a little bit. and The other one is Elder Jacob Gibb I met him in seminary. He was in the Romeo and Juliet play he was so nice and he's cute hahahahaha. Every boy is soo cute that i meet. hahahahaha Im glad i get to write these missionaries its so fun learning about where their at and what they do as a missonary and getting to know them alot better. For awhile there it was getting lonely writing one missionary i thought i wouldnt write another missionary for a good long time but now i have 2 more to write to. so that makes 3 missionaries all cute boys they are soo fun to talk to. Im glad i made the choice to write to the missionaries i just felt like i needed to write a letter to someone and missionaries are always fun to write to. I think the best letters i'll be excited to get is Dallin Lindsey's oh yes!!! hahahha I cant wait to get his letters when he leaves on his mission and Silas's letters and tylers and BUBBA hahaha im going to probably be laughing alot reading what those funny boys have to say. I already got a binder getting full of letters from the first missionary i write to now i can add the other 2 if they respond back to me lol. :)

That Moment

That moment when i Miss a boy i really really like. That moment when i just wanna hear that boys voice. That moment when i have the gut feeling to call him and get butterflies while the phone rings.
That moment where i hope he answers his phone but doesnt answer it. That moment when i just wanna hear him talk even if its just a Hi cause he's to busy to talk. I seriously love that boy. :) Just wanna hear his voice for once. I'm seriously missing that boy. :( Soo much i am going to cry. and to hear his voice would make me soo happy. :) I deffiently got some feelings for this boy. I cant help it at all either. I just gotta say i love that boy alot.

Summer. Summer. Feelin Summer. :)

Today I have been in the mood for summer. I seriously cant wait til summer. I love summer and my hair loves it also cause it grows really fast. :) I seriously am looking forward to the summer. Friends family and fun and what not lazy days and sleeping in and staying up late all though i already do that.
But i seriously love the warm hot weather its so nice outside. I've got alot to do this summer alot of things to do. Just things i really need to do. But still have fun. Cant wait for summer its going to be the best i hope. My Bucket list for the summer constests of:
Drivers ED (finally getting my Drivers License)
Getting my Baby book all together.
fun with friends and family.
Studying for another test
and returning to UVU for fall 2012
Heck im only 19 for soo long this year might as well make the rest of my Teenage life by having fun adventures Seriously get to see my family next month like alot of my family next month it will be nice to see some family members again. My grandmas and grandpas 50th anniversary party is next month soo they are having a party for the big 5 0 also my brothers birthday too. So it will be fun cant wait for summer if only it could hurry up.

A Look Back: On Childhood

So I found my old diary from when i was a kid hahahahaha. Theres alot of stuff i have  written as a kid of course it was hard to read hahahahahahaa. I used to write about playing school and house. My dad said oh yeah you loved playing school you would always get out your stuffed animals and teach them. Hahaha Eric my brother says yeah you would be out in the front yard with all your stuffed animals playing school with them hahahaha I didnt even remember writing that when i get grounded i wanted to go to Jail hahahahaha apperently i wanted to visit Jail cause i was grounded hahahahaha how crazy. Hahahahaha. I seriously loved my childhood I dont regret a thing about it I had a pretty good childhood.
hahahaha and that time i would take paul over to Jennifers house and the time we kidnapped blackie and took her to Jennifers house hahahaha. Good times. hahahahaha just everything about my childhood i wish i could just take back be a kid for once again. But then it may just end up going by fast and have me growing up again. I miss being a kid sometimes.

Thinking of you.

Been thinking about my Grandpa all day. He's been on my mind. Cant help but think about him. I miss him and love him. It hurts to not see him anymore. :( :( Its been forever like a longtime ago. :( I just wish to see him again id do anything to see him again and honestly i cant wait to see him again someday and get to hear all about heaven that is if he comes back to earth in my life time. Honestly it makes me cry a bit to just think i havent seen him in a long time. But i do know he's soo proud of me at this time. He has my grandma again so he's one happy guy again. And if my grandpa could just drop by in my dream and talk to me like my grandma did id really like it. I kind of forgot what his voice sounds like cause its been along time ago and i was young at the time when he passed away. But i wouldnt mind hearing from him or seeing him. Hopefully heaven is treating him well and i hope he takes good care of my grandma until we meet again and honestly i cant wait to hear about heaven. sometimes it gets so temptimg to ask my grandpa what heaven is really really like. But i cant ask that cause i wouldnt get an answer back. lol.
Miss you and love you soo much Grandpa! :( Cant wait to see you again someday.

Best Moments in Life

I have this Best Friend! His name is Ross Mason. He's my buddy, My Best Friend. Ever since 6th grade we are so tight. He's the best guy friend. Such a sweet nice gentleman loves to mess with the girls hahahaha. Im his best friend also. Im actually pretty much his only Best friend. We can talk about anything most of the time. hahahahahaha. We had our ups and downs we dont get along at times other times we do. Right now i cant be happier were getting along i think i wanna keep it this way and im his buddy to. Most likely i have first dibbs on him if anything hahaahahaha. So some times i like our conversations hahaha like we talked about his mission its a little sad but we cant avoid the topic. But he's deffiently excited and he's excited to turn 19 also. Cant believe my Best friend is going to be 19. hahahahaha theres gotta be a reason for our friendship honestly. So I just had to encourge him to go talk to his bishop about his mission. :) He's like okay I will.  I said well do it dont say you will go do it. I could tell he was nervous/scared to talk to his bishop and i asked him what he was waiting for he's like idk and i said well go just talk to your bishop hahhaha so he's going to talk to his bishop i love how we can  have talks like this. :) YES! I was teasing him about my best friend cause he likes my Best Friend shaliece hahahahahaha. But he was okay with it hahahahaha he was sure smiling up a storm hahahaha. and we also caught up on stuff. I missed talking to him alot and he's been so freaking busy with a Job and everything.

Allergic Reaction And Visiting my Doctor

Started getting this allergic reaction on Friday night! I know we had pizza Friday night i just couldnt remember what I had for lunch. So I just had this random rash happen after dinner it was really bad it got to the point it fleared up so bad it went away for awhile on saturday and all the sudden after i mowed my grandmas and grandpas lawn all the sudden i just broke out with this allergic reaction I couldnt stop itching soo my dads friend was nice enough to get me some allergy pills and some itch relif medicine it helped alot but still wouldnt do justice after i went crazy on sunday night yes my allergic reaction has been horrible at nights it would go crazy and flar up again So my dad was just tempted to take me to the ER he felt soo sorry for me. My family couldnt watch me itch with out feeling sorry. Finally sumday night it spread to my face and i just started freaking out really bad so i told my dad about it he said he would take me to the doctors tomorrow ( Yesterday) and i said okay i can hold that long.

Well Yesterday came My mom got me in for a 2:30PM appointment with my doctor well i ate lunch had pizza and some strawberries and i started just itching like crazy and luckily i dont have chicken pox its horrible my dad said you  like you wont want the chicken pox. Knowing i have had hives all over my body just itching like crazy trying not to itch. hahhha its just soo irriestable that you just cant help but get that nice sensation that you itched but it makes it  worse. So i get something to eat for lunch and i had pizza and strawberries all the sudden i just itched like crazy and then it was time to go to the doctors. Heres the part i find out...

So i arrive at the doctors office signed in and everything and i was just itching my hands had hives all over them and so i finished signing in and gave the eletronic thing back and there was 2 Jessicas me and this other Jessica the lady meant to say the other Jessica she didnt realize there was 2 Jessica's hahaha so i sat back down finally the nurse called my name and i followed her of course i've done this so many times having my weight and blood and tempature checked i knew right were to go. I weigh 114 pounds and i have good normal blood pressure and my temprature sky rocketed it was 103
so then i followed her into the room and she asked me questions about stuff like what caused my allergic reaction and then the doctor showed up and he has a doctor student thats training to be a doctor so he let him work with me at first and then my doctor came in as i was just into itching hahahaha he's like oh man i see your itching he's like come over here and sit on the bed so i can look at you and he looked at my tummy and then he looked at my back and he was like oh wow and he looked at my arms and said wow you got some good rashes there and then i started itching my neck and legs he's like is it on your legs to and i shoke my head yes and hes like let me see and i pulled up my pant leg and he was like oh my gosh my dads like wow its like looking at a bug bite and the doctor said yeah it is and the doctor was trying to make me smile cause i wasnt to happy and he's like you know what makes it all better and i said what? as im itching and he's like stop itching.. i said huh with a surprised look he's like i know its hard not to itch but the more you dont the more it wont get worse and the more better it will get and it will be able to get better on its own. hahhaha then he caught me itching at it again and he's like stop itching he's like you know what were going to have to give you a shot. So he gives my dad the prescription paper and says the nurse will be in to give you the shot and i said what does the shot do he's like it will ease out the pain of itching and the rashes and it will make it all go away. hahahaha so before i get the shot the doctor says if nothing works in 2 weeks come back and see me this is usually a one time deal but if it happens to go away and come back and see me we will have to do something about it if it doesnt go away for good so i said okay and he's like alright the nurse will give your shot and your ready to go hahaha so the nurse comes in and has me stand up ahhahhaha I was like wait what?? hahahahaha she had me lean up against the bed and then she said alright im not going to full moon but im going to put the shot under the belt line. So she started noticing i was getting nervous so she's like just give deep breaths and then she put achol on the spot and then she's like okay its going to pinch and burn a little i said okay so i had some deep breaths to calm down and before i knew it she was done and she put a band aid on it of course i had to lay down cause i was getting dizzy and light headed soo the doctor saw me again and said did she get the shot my dad said yeah and he's like so are you ready to roll? i said nope im dizzy and he's like yeah you look light headed lay down for awhile and when your ready you can go home. Soo I had the nice lovely shot feeling in my butt hahahahahaha it didnt really hurt at all so i finally got to go home. and as of now for now i have Food Allergy!!!! But im also one Healthy Girl!! :) wish i wasnt allergic to food darn it but im glad im healthy its good to know im healthy except the sky high fever i have that i need to bring down alot. Im glad i went to the doctors and hopefully we really can figure out whats bugging me to break out and get it under control and taken care of and hopefully it doesnt happen ever again. :)

Thoughtful, Nice and Respectful!

For this mothers day! it was our first one with out my Grandma. So to be thoughtful and nice and show some respect that we havent forgotten her we decided to take some flowers over to the cemetary and put them on her grave. As they say "when you die you can look down at your own body" I bet she saw these flowers and loved them and you know its one of lifes moments when i just feel like talking to my grandma again just to hear her voice again. But i know i wont get a responce yet she loved my smile she loved to always see me smiling alot. If i wasnt smile she made sure i was smiling. I love her and miss her more then anything. Sometimes I wonder what they do up in heaven.

This is my Grandma and Grandmpa's Grave I hope if she was looking down i hope she got to see me and i was smiling i knew i couldnt hide the smile! soo i just had to smile and i hope she caught a glimpse of it. And as i stood in silence i just thought about the time i had a dream of my grandma talking to me. The coolest experince ever to have in life! so lucky to have that special connection with the other side.and i wouldnt mind seeing her again or i wouldnt mind hearing from her again.

Sad to Hear

I'm glad i got on facebook yesterday morning. With out it i wouldn't of known someone I knew has passed away I wasn't sure at who this "Josh" kid everyone was talking about just reading rest in peace Josh. Well I found out his last name was Davis. So i typed in google "Josh Davis dying in utah 2012" well i found his obituary online. I was just curious to see who this boy was that has died. Soo I read it and saw his picture and recgonized him and I said oh my gosh i know him. He was in my Seminary class in High School he graduated with the class of 2011 I could of sworn he had some health problems cause my Seminary teacher would ask someone that Josh knew really well. Since he wouldn't come to seminary or school for awhile. Whatever it was it sounded like he's been in and out of hospitals alot. and to not hear about him for a year and think he has his own things going on in life and to find out a year later after we graduated he has passed away When i read about him it said he passed away on May 6th 2012. Soo sad to hear and yet he's so young he was probably 19 or 20 and thats really young. But aleast he's not in pain anymore I didnt really know him that well but its just sad to hear someone i've had class with has passed on. Now that he's in a better place now. I thought i just show some respect and just write about it since i know him too along with many others that knew him also. R.I.P Josh. You'll be missed.

Little Did I know

I have this gut feeling. Nothings been the same anymore. Nothing feels right I don't know whats goin on I dont know if i feel more irritated or if its just that time of month. But I have this gut feeling its telling me to move outta state. Maybe the gut feeling is right maybe i just need a new change. I honestly dont know it feels like me and my friends dont get along anymore. They barely wanna talk to me anymore.
Maybe this is the right thing to do maybe moving outta state to somewhere new maybe its just for the best. I mean i have no reason to be here anymore i graduated high school and im pretty much a responsible adult now. I have friends and family here yes i know they probably would want me here. I know my friend Dallin wants me to stay. But dang i never felt like this before. I dont know if its cause i havent had a vacation and im just going insane. But i just feel like maybe if i leave and dont come back maybe some people would wonder what im up too. I honestly dont know what to do im here for college and i think after college i will move out of state if thats the best thing to do but its probably just a thing im thinking one of those things.

Some Moments

This past weekend we went and saw the new movie "The Avengers" It was sooooo good! my mind was blown it was outstanding. I wannna see it again and again. Gotta love these superheros. Cant wait til this comes out on DVD. :)

And recently i also just finally saw the Vow! Goodness. What a cute movie I loved it. I didn't know it was based on a real life couple. I love these romance chick flicks. It was kinda sad though. But soo good. Im glad i got to see the movie now that i have it on DVD. :) :)

I like this story ALOT!!! :D hahahahaha.

When me and my Best Friend Shaliece were in High school one day.... We were walking out of the bathroom we went to turn the corner and she said im starting to worry about you. hahahahaha I said its okay everyone worries about me. Then front and center of the hallway there was this really hot guy hahaha and i pointed to him as i said outloud. Even that random hot boy worries about me hahahaha and the boy had this look on his face as he walked away. hahahahaha and then shaliece was like JESSICA!!! hahahahahahahaha  and this was before i got to meet this boy that i called randomly hot. hahahahaha :) and now that i know him his name is Tyler Belliston. :):) what a HUNK!! ;) hahaha Im glad i said what i said cause it was the truth hahahahaha. Now i'll remember it for the rest of my life. hahahahahaha and yes he looks at me like he remembers that same girl that called him randomly hot i love the way he walks hahahahahah. :)) that boy. and yes he is a football player.