Been Thinking... && Also Helping at My Grandmas House... All Good Day Until....

Sooo Today was pretty good! I've been thinking about stuff lately. ALOT!! of stuff. and this whole deactivating my facebook isnt going so well. Honestly the only part i hate about being done and out of high school is not talking to friends anymore. Like WTH! happened to just talking to eachother. Seriously it makes me sad i dont even hear from my BFF! Jennifer anymore she's so scared to talk to me.. Its like Oh my gosh uggh. and who in the world knows whatever happened to my best friend shaliece. :/ I miss the good old times. Just having fun with friends now its like impossible to do that.
The only thing is i hope she's okay cause i wont know anything unless she calls me. I dont know if her parents dont want her talking to me or if its just the way we been. Knowing i can go to college and i am going to college and knowing she cant it makes me sad. But in a way i think we just dont need to be together all the time like in high school how we would always be together. I think its just time to move on and just not worry about it i hope someday she will get to have a college experience. I guess I can find a new best friend in college besides my best friend he will be  there so im hoping to see him sometime walking around campus. I kinda feel lonely for now but i know i just gotta give it time and i'll be surrounded by friends again. Translating from High School to college is harder then i thought it would be. I dont even know when i will see shaliece again I really dont wanna push anyone outta my life. Even though im trying to do this on my own. I know im doing stuff defferently then others. I just miss the good times thats what i hate about being graduated and done. Maybe Shaliece was just a temporary best friend to help me get through the last year of my high school. Well someday when we talk again. I dont know if id recgonize her voice cause we havent talked in so long. I hope she doesnt feel like im trying to grow up on her and just do my own things with out her. Yeah in the long run it would be nice to talk to her. But seriously i wonder what she even does to just ignore my phone calls.
Maybe i should try doing that and seeing how she feels.. Cause maybe she will think how rude Jessica wont answer hey i do the same thing i say the same thing also just her name. I also been helping out at my grandmas house we finally started painting thats the good part and we got some tile in the bathroom I love the color of the paint were using to paint her house in. I been thinking about my grandma today. I miss her and love her i really hope she understands why we are doing this even though she probably would like this house bulldozed instead. Which it isnt worth it at all. I hope she's happy though. Its weird just cleaning out my grandmas house. Sometimes i wish we knew what day we were dying so that way we could clean out the house saying okay tomorrow im gonna pass away time to get rid of everything. But nope it doesnt work that way. I also got to see my cousins made me happy to see my cousins. I havent seen them since after my grandmas funeral. I just didnt see Jeremy or Dave and bryan. Those are the only 3 i didnt see today. and also some people came over to look at the house the elderly woman was so in love with it. Just like my grandma did. Personally i dont like a four bedroom split home. Too much but if it works for them they can take it. Soo it sounds like they will have the house if they can get it after we get everything all done. I also got mistaken as a middle schooler. hahhaha the lady thought i was to young. hahahaha :) ohh believe me i feel young on the inside let me feel young for a good part of my life. I dont wanna feel old just yet. hahahahaha and then this is when i found out something and man im soo pissed!! AF! doesnt have my files anymore.... ohhh my gosh I know a certain someone that probably knows what to do with files..... seriously!! ohh she pisses me off. A certain Stupid annoying Teacher i hated her so bad i dont want to see her for the rest of my life after being in high school with that idiot teacher.. they need to fire her. seriously. Besides she's so strict and so worried about stupid students seriously. Im sooo pissed at her the day she dies i hope to tell her to her grave that i hate her freakin face and i will be disrespectful and stand on her grave. Cause she's not a good teacher. ohhh if i ever see her again im gonna have alot to say with her so now i found out that my files may possibly be at stupid ugly ATEC! ohh i freaking hate this now. They have no right to have my files i dont even go to friggin ATEC! Never will ever in my life.
its a stupid school so full of stupid drama. I hope theres a way they can send my files back to AF! Cause thats were they belong and if mrs idiot head carnagey sent them to ATEC i swear she will get a visit from me if she doesnt leave my files alone. I have so many words im not mad at AF im more mad at a certain butthead teacher that assumed i was going to ATEC full time. hahaha yeah right! i am not.
I hold a grudge against her so bad right now. but other then that my day has been pretty well good!