Cleaning The House & Sooo Much More.

Today we started cleaning the house and pretty much the upstairs looks good. The bathrooms need to be cleaned good while the bedrooms need to be vaccumed so were getting everything cleaned up getting rid of stuff we dont need anymore which is good cause we dont need everything just the important stuff we need. Feels pretty good getting everything cleaned up as for the snow it did snow but its all melted which makes me happy i hate snow its the most annoying thing on earth I can live without it but Utah can't how lame. I also watched the twilight saga: Eclipse.hahahahaha DANG! Baby! ;) Taylor Lautner is just soo hot he couldnt just go with his shirt on he just had to rip it off boys and their bodys seriously I dont even know why boys do that. Then again they say were the weird strange ones they dont understand yet it amazes them how well girls do stuff. But i've been learning alot about boys how they work hahaha seriously they are just so confusing something about them just is capable of hiding feelings deep down.
Silly Boys hahahahaha. I also been getting along with my brothers but today we just been on eachothers last nerve just wanted to ugggh with him just pisses me off. I love him  its just that he gets on the last nerve and im just trying to help him out. I help him with homework soo its not been easy its been super hard. I know nobody likes doing homework everyone hates homework. But they gotta do it  and its just been one of those days I miss my Ex alot Yes My Ex - Boyfriend that is. I freaking miss that boy. Sometimes i just think to myself when i miss him i wonder if he misses me. Sometimes i wonder if he saw me again i wonder what he would say. Other times i Just dont wanna know its better not to know anything. But it would be good just to see  him in person again and to let him see me in person again and possibly hang out with him. I wish i could still be there for him and see him like i used to but its not going to happen. Dang i  miss him alot. Sometimes i dont even think about eddy other times i do. But i dont let it ruin my feelings for a guy i like soo much.
Today I also Read Silas's Story that he gave me and Shaliece. :) hahahahaa that made my day. (: I miss him sooo much it hurts to know i dont see him that much anymore. I also read the original copy of the story we gave to Eli. This one had chocolate on it so we had to re write it. hahahaha that also made my day. I remember when we wrote it all out and then everyone got to read it before Eli did and everyone loved that story they thought it was funny and of course Eli Loved the story too. hahahaha :)
Days like this were i just need to see the boys again just to make me laugh and realize i cant just is hard. But i hope soon we will get to see them again I Love them sooo much i cant wait to see them again. I hope tomorrow's a better day. :)

Good Day!! :)

Sooo on Monday hahahaha. I was having to much fun with my Best Friend Shaliece :) hahahaha she did my hair than we watched naughty music videos and listened to naughty songs hahahahahaha. Oh my gosh hahahahahaha we were thinking about the boys also. hahahahaha we tried to go see Tyler but he wasnt home so we went to see if Dallin was home he wasnt nobody at his house was home. Sooo then we ran across the street to Silas's hahahahaha i miss that boy soo much hahahahahaha. He's applying for BYU hahahahahaha he said it would be soo cool to go there. Hahahahaha then I asked Silas about BUBBA!! hahahahaha. oohhh what a funny boy. hahahahahaha Silas was like oh yeah he's still funny and he still has those mexican Jokes and we also met Silas's Brother oh dang his brother is so cute. hahaha its so weird how me and Silas have a brother named Paul and he has a sister named Jessica. hahahaha sometime i gotta tell him i have a brother named Paul hhahahaha we have something in common hahahaha sooo then we asked him about Tyler Olsen and Silas doesnt talk to Tyler that much anymore but he says he's doing good. Soo it sounds like non of us hear from him anymore which is sad. But its good to hear he's doing good. Seriously we dont even hang out with makenzie either Silas asked do you guys even hang out with makenzie we said no. he's like why not? we said idk. hahahahahahaha the typical us around boys getting soo distracted when we talk to them.
then we got a hug and left hahahahaha I love getting hugs from him. hahahahaha full bear hugs hahaha. its so weird saying we went to AF last year hahahaha. His brother asked if we went to AF we said we did and Silas said they went last year. pretty soon were going to say we went along time ago to AF hahahahaha. Then me and Shaliece were obsessing over Dallins Football videos hahhaha on Youtube. hahahaha that boy  hahahahaha I was like i can just watch this all day long and then i said no not the butt hahahahaha cause they would show the butt postion hahahaha. I love Football me likey.
something about football and football players turn me on. hahahahahaha. it just amazes me what they do. hahahaha. Me and Shaliece can just watch the game and just be soo turned on hahahahaha.
Then we planned a visit to the school for friday. :) Soo excited to go on friday to the school during lunch hahahahaha. Hopefully we get to see some friends of ours mostly our BOYS!! :) and we were going to see if we can get a picture with them. ;) hahahahahaha thats the only thing to remember them by since we never hang out. hahahahhaha We really need to hang out. hahahaha then i told shaliece what me and Ross talked about omg he makes me worried about him. hahaha its like is he okay haha and then this is the most funniest part of it all. hahahaha dinner time i said ohh i know what imma be doing tonight hahahaha im gonna be farting up a storm cause the beans i ate with dinner and we all started laughing and then when we took shaliece home before we left i said dad can i marry a hunk? hahahaha he's like yeah if you can find a decent nice one for you im up for it. hahahaha then i said dad you wanna know what i said at dinner time? he's like what did you say i said i know what imma be doing tonight farting up a storm he said how in the world are you supposed to find your hunk while  doing that? hahahaha then in the car i started talking about the hunk i wanted to marry hahahahaha and then i said guess what dad i grew up he's like are you sure you did? I said yeah im sure. ahahaha and shaliece was just laughing and then my dad started yawning and it was only midnight and i started teasing him about being old and tired and i said your going to start sleeping at 8:00 at night hahaha cause you'll be soo tired you'll say its bed time that early then he said why dont you go back to talking about your hunk hahahaha and i said you hear that shaliece i told my dad about my hunk hahaha and shaliece was like oh my gosh and then i said me and my hunk are going to hawaii after we get married hahaha my dad just kept looking at me and shook his head and also i kept saying funny things like lets go to five guys cause thats were my hunk is hahahaha and my dad was just shaking his head hahahaha
the crazy conversations i have then when we got to shaliece's house i said say hi to my hunk for me hahahahaha she was just laughing and that was basically my day on monday. :) hahahaha.

Been Thinking... && Also Helping at My Grandmas House... All Good Day Until....

Sooo Today was pretty good! I've been thinking about stuff lately. ALOT!! of stuff. and this whole deactivating my facebook isnt going so well. Honestly the only part i hate about being done and out of high school is not talking to friends anymore. Like WTH! happened to just talking to eachother. Seriously it makes me sad i dont even hear from my BFF! Jennifer anymore she's so scared to talk to me.. Its like Oh my gosh uggh. and who in the world knows whatever happened to my best friend shaliece. :/ I miss the good old times. Just having fun with friends now its like impossible to do that.
The only thing is i hope she's okay cause i wont know anything unless she calls me. I dont know if her parents dont want her talking to me or if its just the way we been. Knowing i can go to college and i am going to college and knowing she cant it makes me sad. But in a way i think we just dont need to be together all the time like in high school how we would always be together. I think its just time to move on and just not worry about it i hope someday she will get to have a college experience. I guess I can find a new best friend in college besides my best friend he will be  there so im hoping to see him sometime walking around campus. I kinda feel lonely for now but i know i just gotta give it time and i'll be surrounded by friends again. Translating from High School to college is harder then i thought it would be. I dont even know when i will see shaliece again I really dont wanna push anyone outta my life. Even though im trying to do this on my own. I know im doing stuff defferently then others. I just miss the good times thats what i hate about being graduated and done. Maybe Shaliece was just a temporary best friend to help me get through the last year of my high school. Well someday when we talk again. I dont know if id recgonize her voice cause we havent talked in so long. I hope she doesnt feel like im trying to grow up on her and just do my own things with out her. Yeah in the long run it would be nice to talk to her. But seriously i wonder what she even does to just ignore my phone calls.
Maybe i should try doing that and seeing how she feels.. Cause maybe she will think how rude Jessica wont answer hey i do the same thing i say the same thing also just her name. I also been helping out at my grandmas house we finally started painting thats the good part and we got some tile in the bathroom I love the color of the paint were using to paint her house in. I been thinking about my grandma today. I miss her and love her i really hope she understands why we are doing this even though she probably would like this house bulldozed instead. Which it isnt worth it at all. I hope she's happy though. Its weird just cleaning out my grandmas house. Sometimes i wish we knew what day we were dying so that way we could clean out the house saying okay tomorrow im gonna pass away time to get rid of everything. But nope it doesnt work that way. I also got to see my cousins made me happy to see my cousins. I havent seen them since after my grandmas funeral. I just didnt see Jeremy or Dave and bryan. Those are the only 3 i didnt see today. and also some people came over to look at the house the elderly woman was so in love with it. Just like my grandma did. Personally i dont like a four bedroom split home. Too much but if it works for them they can take it. Soo it sounds like they will have the house if they can get it after we get everything all done. I also got mistaken as a middle schooler. hahhaha the lady thought i was to young. hahahaha :) ohh believe me i feel young on the inside let me feel young for a good part of my life. I dont wanna feel old just yet. hahahahaha and then this is when i found out something and man im soo pissed!! AF! doesnt have my files anymore.... ohhh my gosh I know a certain someone that probably knows what to do with files..... seriously!! ohh she pisses me off. A certain Stupid annoying Teacher i hated her so bad i dont want to see her for the rest of my life after being in high school with that idiot teacher.. they need to fire her. seriously. Besides she's so strict and so worried about stupid students seriously. Im sooo pissed at her the day she dies i hope to tell her to her grave that i hate her freakin face and i will be disrespectful and stand on her grave. Cause she's not a good teacher. ohhh if i ever see her again im gonna have alot to say with her so now i found out that my files may possibly be at stupid ugly ATEC! ohh i freaking hate this now. They have no right to have my files i dont even go to friggin ATEC! Never will ever in my life.
its a stupid school so full of stupid drama. I hope theres a way they can send my files back to AF! Cause thats were they belong and if mrs idiot head carnagey sent them to ATEC i swear she will get a visit from me if she doesnt leave my files alone. I have so many words im not mad at AF im more mad at a certain butthead teacher that assumed i was going to ATEC full time. hahaha yeah right! i am not.
I hold a grudge against her so bad right now. but other then that my day has been pretty well good!

Deactivated My Facebook

Today I deactivated my Facebook. Alot of friends been removing me so to make it easier im not going to be on facebook anymore. Dont know how long it will be. Besides im getting fed up with facebook now.
I really dont need facebook anymore. If anyone wants to talk to me  they can text me if i ever get a working phone.

I could of made it eaiser and Just wrote If you dont know me then remove me. Id probably be down to only a few friends and my family. That would of probably been easier but i decided to try deactivating it. I got something else better. Im going to try and see how long it will be before i have facebook again.
Honestly im beginning to feel hated. Soo why be on something. Besides maybe i'll write about what im doing somewhere else. I try to not write alot on my facebook. Im not going to add anyone back anymore.
so no matter if i loose friends or anything im not bothering to add  them back on. Im not being bullied or anything. I can live with out facebook i know i can. Its so tempting but nahhh. If anyone asks why im not on facebook anymore... Then i better say just some reasons nobody needs to know why.
But im not the only one deactivating my facebook. alot of my friends just deactivated it. I could have it back and not log on anymore. But then it would be soo tempting. Heck id probably go the rest of the year with out facebook. Before i had facebook i lived with out it. its just temporary i will be back but i'll probably log in every 6 months like my friend Tyler Does... soo probably in July i'll go back on it. Then i wont be on it again til January 2013  it already feels good that im not on it anymore. Maybe once every blue moon on a saturday... I may stop adding pictures too.. Probably only limiting down to one picture every once in awhile.

Yeah maybe i will log on again and say Im not logging onto facebook anymore. I will but it will be once in a blue moon. I'll probably take down pictures too. Maybe when i get married i'll put a picture of me and my husband. and when i have kids i'll probably post a picture of my little family. Im changing alot about facebook. Nobody will know im getting married or having kids. It will be a total surprise. Its kinda sad but hey its my life. If nobody hears about it then i dont care if they get mad.
plus its already making me sad that Jennifer doesnt talk to me anymore idk why shaliece is ignorging me. she wont even answer the phone.. I give up!! If people wanna talk they need to start the conversation. I know i been going through a hard time lately but loosing friends is the worst.

I did it the right thing saved my friends the "Remove Friend" click. But maybe i should say soo people dont start to worry.

but its like dont worry you wont miss nothing important in my life just a wedding and me being pregnant and having kids is all. Pretty much just some friends need to know and my family is all.

Nobody will miss me at all they will be happy i wont be on anymore. and i myself is glad to do this.
now i can see how long i can go with out a facebook. I might get so used to it and not worry about a facebook at all.

Well thats basically it.

My Day at UVU!

My Day at UVU! It was interesting. Well I found out i gotta wait til fall semester to fully begin. But its okay learn from experience thats what my dad said. But aleast i do get to go to college i could try going after getting a grant but im not going to take my risk of having to be stressed out on what i missed out on.

But i got the help i needed. Im okay with it seriously i can handle classes. Its not like im the type to not handle them besides i can do everything they want in a class. Im not going to be mad cause they cant change something besides i enjoy writing alot. and its good im Ambidextrous. :) I can use both hands to write. which is nice.

but on a good note. I went to AF high After that. hahaha it was so weird being back in my old high school no matter what im still a CAVEMAN!! :D I had to get something out of my file i hope they have and the lady in the office recgonized me and said " I did awesome there at AF!" :) someone said something positve to me for once seriously... Im glad i did. :)

Well that was my day.

A Day at UVU ( Utah Valley University)

I seriously can't believe it im in college now. Im a freshman at UVU! Soo freaking excited. Nervous and soo shy.. They had an orentation at UVU last friday. So I went to that. Got alot of stuff! it was fee. They gave us a campus tour just told us some events that will be also happening. Met a boy!! :) But thats not what im there for i can meet a boy hang out with them. But why i am there is the experience. Not just all boys...

I got my work cut out for me until the summer. I will be studying Early Childhood Education. :) Soo excited to work with preschoolers. Soo Freaking awesome!!! I will be able to get my associates of science degree. If i decided to go full time id get it all done in 2 years. Which i probably will also study Elementary Education also just incase i work with kindergarten - 3rd grade. Im really happy and i am so proud of myself for how far i have came im glad i choose to continue my education. Aleast i will be able to have a good job. I also gotta keep my grades up so i am going to be super busy and i also will be able to go to orem elementary to help kids. Its exciting for 8 hours and if i remember right full time i will be able to have the chance to teach a lesson and if i want i can be a student teacher help the teacher with things. I dont care what anyone says or think. I can do anything anybody says i cant. Nobody can stop me.

Tomorrow is my first day of college im soo nervous shy and excited its going to be awhile before i can get used to this then i will be able to talk but for now im going to be one shy girl i hope to make some new friends to hang with or to study with or maybe just have a buddy to talk to. My Buddy Ross goes to UVU also so i may see him. It would be so weird if i saw him there hahahaha But i aleast i wont be shy around him.

Now i gotta go study for a test. I gotta take all parts of the test. I hope to do good on it. I really dont wanna know what would happen if i fail....

Well i cant wait to write about my first day at college tomorrow. :)

2012

I've been thinking about everything. Alot of my guy friends are leaving on missions. Im happy for them just sad i wont see them for 2 years. Its a cool experince for them to go on a mission and the langauge they get to learn for certain places they are going to. Its crazy.
I hope my second brother will have the oppertunity to go on a mission someday that would be so awesome to have a brother out on a mission all though i dont know how well he will do 2 years away from his family. I hope to be able to hang out with my guy friends before they all leave. BUBBA , Dallin Tyler and Silas all wanna go on their missions. But it will be soo worth it cause i can write to them knowing they will write back. :) These boys i love hanging out with so much they are the best. Me and Shaliece like having fun with them and just going out with them to eat. All the good memories with them Man just thinking about them being missionaries.. Theres Happiness and Saddness its to bad Dallin doesnt know how i feel about him. I dont think he will ever know.

But aleast im happy i met Dallin and the rest of the boys. Seriously they just make my day. :) hahaha ecspecially Dallin. :) hahahahaha. I will never forget them they are so awesome hopefully before they all leave we can get one big group picture done with them all though Dallin and Tyler dont like having their picture taken.

Welcome 2012 Heres to a New Year.

2012!!!!

 is finally here. Big welcome to a brand new year. Im sooo Excited. I can't Believe it 2011 went by fast. But im so excited for 2012! My dads taking us to disneyland this spring and I start college this month wow time is flyin by so fast.  Theres alot to look forward to this new year im so excited to make some new memories and having fun with my friends and my family!!! :)

This year is the so called "End of the World" year we have 357 days til the world ends. But i dont believe it when it really happens. It wouldnt surprise me if it happened.

But i deffently will live the year 2012. I cant wait to see what 2012 brings i hope this year is the best!

im soo happy its 2012!! :) I gotta  good feeling about this year. :) :)

Heres to the New year....