11 Years Ago

11 years ago today Las Vegas became my new home as we left Utah and moved to Las Vegas in 2005. We were so close to losing our house in Spanish Fork so my dad took a job opportunity and got a job at Venetian hotel as a massage therapist. We never planned to move back to Utah once we got to Las Vegas i remember my mom saying "better get used to your new home here cause were never moving back to Utah" It snowed the first year we moved there LOL and the heat was one thing to get used to and i loved the heat. Our time in Las Vegas had come to an end we were only there for about 4 years. The only reason why we left is because of the economy it hit Las Vegas hard so hard my dad lost his job in 2008 so my parents made the decision to move back to Utah in 2009. It was one awesome experience i loved living there it was like a vacation from Utah and it even snowed the last year we lived there. I know things happen for a reason but we regret moving back to Utah. The past year or so we have regretted this. I tell my mom this all the time that this was one stupid mistake and she agrees with it. If we stayed in Las Vegas than my parents marriage would of been fine and my dads friend wouldn't of tried to destroy their marriage he nearly succeeded at it and because of that my parents can no longer communicate right with each other. I keep hoping maybe one day Las Vegas will get a second chance with us again.

Jaw Surgery Update

Well now that this crazy long 15 months wait for Jaw surgery has now come to an end. I have found out some news about my jaw surgery. I'm only getting top jaw surgery done. My bottom jaw is safe so double jaw surgery is no longer needed. I go back on September 21st for a consultation with my orthodontist and my mom will get to be there which is good and helpful so she will understand more of what's going on with my mouth and after that my orthodontist will send me to see my oral surgeon so this makes me so very happy. We sat there half of my appointment this past Tuesday wondering how the oral surgeon will move my Jaw. My orthodontist was saying there's a possible way we could go with out surgery and finish out my braces treatment and i understand but i just want my top jaw fixed that's all i want. I already tried talking the oral surgeon out of doing it with out braces but he wouldn't do it so i have braces for this reason otherwise if i would of known about this i wouldn't of wasted money on my braces. So i'm hoping there's some good news in this and i'm hoping to have a date for my surgery by the end of September.

Provo Canyon

Just because i have had a little bit of fun doesn't mean i'm not done grieving the loss of my best friend passing away. Its going to take some time to heal and i'll happily take all the time i need to mourn and grieve. I needed my boyfriend even more through out this hard time and i was able to spend a couple of hours with him yesterday and we went on a hike a crazy steep hike in Provo we found this new hiking spot in Provo canyon and it was so much fun. Utah is beautiful that is one thing for sure and i love that my boyfriend is always up for a hike. :)

A Dream Come True

On Thursday night me and my Best Friend Shaliece got to finally see Demi Lovato and Nick Jonas live in concert in Salt Lake and what a bonus seeing Mike Posner live in concert too he was the opening act for Demi and Nick. It was so much fun and now i can cross that off my bucket list and the tickets were worth it. Demi Lovato was awesome last night and so was Nick Jonas. I'm not much of a Mike Posner fan i do like a few of his songs but i didn't recognize him at all i'm used to seeing a picture of Mike posner with blonde hair. This was much needed fun for sure especially after our best friend Tyler passed away and this was something that we were able to take our minds off Tyler for a few hours. Can't say much for the uncomfortable hard seats though. The Vivint Home smart arena has the most uncomfortable seats and having long legs doesn't help either. I feel sorry for the Utah Jazz fans that get to sit in those uncomfortable seats to watch the basketball games. It was a dream come true to finally see Demi and Nick live for the very first time. I'm glad that we got to go and have some fun and hopefully maybe in another 2 years there will be another good singer worth the tickets and money to see live and we will go to another concert. I hope Demi Lovato or Nick Jonas makes a come back to Utah again. I'd love to see them both again in concert. I've always wanted to see Demi Lovato live in concert but its a bonus when i get to see Demi and Nick live in concert at the same time. My brother Paul is Jealous and i wish i could of known he wanted to go cause i would of got him a ticket but oh well maybe someday Demi Lovato will make it back to Utah and he can go see her live. And this was part of celebrating 8 years of being friends with my best friend Shaliece too so it was one awesome concert. :)

Tyler's Funeral

On Monday night we celebrated Tyler's life so me and my best friend Shaliece went to it to show our support. One of the funniest things happened and i didn't have nothing to drink i just ate ice cream and some candy and all the sudden i started burping hahahaha and I didn't mean to burp at all i didn't want to be rude and disrespectful but it turned out pretty funny and i think its what Tyler wanted from us that night. I burped and this girl behind me was standing up and over heard me and i was sitting down and she turns around and says nice one. Hahahaha i'm like oh my gosh i'm so sorry excuse me and she's like saying oh no its all good you burp just like my daughter hahahahaha and we couldn't stop laughing about it and i'm just eating more candy and all the sudden i start burping again. hahaha and i'm laughing and saying can this get any louder? hahahahaha I was telling Shaliece if i burp any louder i'm going to have the whole room looking at me and before i know it she starts burping. hahahaha so i started laughing and started saying i better stop eating this burping candy hahaha its making me burp hahahaha and the burping happened again and i said oh my gosh if Tyler is trying to tell me to put on a show for his family he's gonna hear about this when we meet up again someday. I told shaliece i was going to look at the table with his stuff on it and i didn't want to take my burping candy with me and what do i know yeah just like that another burp happened hahaha and so i went back to the table and shaliece started burping again and we died laughing we were like if Tyler is telling us to put on a burping show he sure has an interesting show for us to put on. I said well if we burp we will get the whole room burping like its some contest. hahahaha and we got to talk to his grandma that night too and we told Tyler's mom what happened and she's like oh my gosh hahahaha Tyler is up there smiling and laughing. Shaliece is like i bet he's saying Jessica and shaking his head hahahaha. I'm very glad we were able to go to this and celebrate his life and all the good times we had with him. We had his funeral yesterday and his mom, dad and two sisters gave all good talks. I got to know Tyler a lot more through his life sketch his dad put together and it was funny and good and sad all at the same time. I had no idea he dealt with mental illness either. His aunt also gave one good talk and the music was just beautiful.  After that we went to the cemetery and not a dry eye there at all. That's when all the tears just came out all at once. I was crying during the funeral at the church but nothing like this. Me and Shaliece were just hugging each other and crying.
This is like it so he's in his final resting place now. We were able to say our last goodbye to Tyler and even though it was a closed casket it must of been really traumatic enough for his parents to say no to the open casket and that's okay with me i'm glad they really didn't cause i don't want to see Tyler like that if its really traumatic. One thing i really liked was his mom said that once we get to heaven someday she said that it will be one awesome reunion and it will be like we never stopped talking. Tyler you are loved and i miss you already.   :)

Rest in Peace Tyler

My heart is heavy as i heard the news my best friend Tyler passed away. :( One thing about him there was never a dull moment with him. I'm glad i got to know one awesome kid. I cry and smile just thinking about all the memories and good times. Its hard to believe your gone. Rest in Peace Tyler. I hope heaven is everything you could imagine and i will miss you. Thank you for being you and being the best friend i could ever ask for. What i'd do to get that high five or hug again and just to talk to you one last time. This goes to show life is too short and i need to keep in touch with close friends or i'll regret it again.  I wish i got to spend some more time with you and make more memories with you and kept in touch with you. I now have a best friend in heaven and that's you. I can't wait to see you again someday Ty Guy! :)

Yes Finally 15 Months

Yay this 15 months wait for Jaw surgery has finally come to an end. I've been able to share my experience with TMJ and share my Journey to Jaw surgery and i'll tell you it only helps to read other jaw surgery stories. I'm excited and ready for this to be over with. I know i feel alone about this at times. I'm secretly excited to spoil myself with a liquid only diet and soft food diet. I can only imagine its hard on my parents to see their own daughter going through this. I've been blessed with one supportive family. My mom has been having the hardest time with it now she has been negative about it it lately but i guess i won't understand cause i'm not a parent yet so i really wouldn't know how they truly feel until i'm a parent and know the feeling. My boyfriend is supportive and loving about it and i love that about him too and he can't wait to spoil me with food. I'm just waiting for the final details of my surgery and i'll be set to go. What a crazy hard adventure it has been 15 months wait i'm glad its finally over and surgery is bound to happen anytime now. I see my orthodontist in about 2 weeks and last word i got was everything is looking good. So i'll take that is the good news and i hope it stays that way and i'll find out when the oral surgeon will finally contact me.

Looking Forward to Next Year

One of the hardest things i had to do this year is take a year break from school. I will miss out on this next new school year. I'm only doing it cause of my Jaw surgery and i decided it wouldn't be worth missing out and trying to catch up. I look forward to going back to the new semester in January or just wait until next August to go again. I honestly can't wait to finish getting my Child Development Associates so i can do what i'm passionate about. I also can't wait to start volunteering at a pre school to help with my credit hours. I know i'm bummed i will have to skip this year but i can focus on recovering and not stressing out over missing so much school and having to catch up on so much that i missed when i can just take the year break and worry about paying off my jaw surgery and recovery and than jump back into school again next year. But i'm for sure not letting anything else get in my way and finishing my child development associates and get school taken care of without a problem. I on the other hand am very proud of my boyfriend for going back to school to get a better career. :)
 I will be looking forward to going to school again until than i will take care of me. :)

The Good Things in Life

While I've been having fun over the past week From having a sleepover with my best friend Shaliece last weekend to going on a short road trip to Nephi this past Tuesday. Nothing like having so much fun singing Hello by Adele in a funny voice and when the phone service sucks and listening to music on Spotify and joking about going to Las Vegas for the rest of the day. Even if it was Just going down to Nephi Utah for the day to see where my moms friend works at and be able to go out to eat there in Nephi. It may of not been much but it was good to get away from the city part of Utah for a few hours. I'm glad we were able to take a short trip down to Nephi and i wish we would of gone the rest of the way to Las Vegas but we had to get back home to go to my grandpa's birthday dinner. It was one good fun day. We like to get my Grandpa funny birthday cards and we picked one out that was so funny something similar to the " you know your getting older when" type card and it said your reminded its your birthday and just wanted to remind you again Happy Birthday. It was a funny one we got a laugh out of it. I live for adventure and to take the short trip to Nephi has really helped ease a lot on my mind lately. I hope we can take another short trip soon again.

Demi Lovato / Nick Jonas Concert

Yes finally can't wait to see Demi Lovato and Nick Jonas live in concert with my best friend Shaliece next Thursday. :)