Nine Months Left to Go

The process to surgery is sure fun. Especially when there's not much we can do but just wait and hope the spaces in my mouth close for good. Were down to 9 months already. The more it gets closer the more i get more happier and excited that i'll be getting this done. Its been a pain in the butt lately with my jaw especially with a lot of pressure and having my jaw being exusted and not being able to really open wide for very long or chew. I haven't been on a soft food diet since March earlier this year. I've been hoping i wouldn't have to go back on a soft food diet until after surgery happened. These last few months have been pretty hard on me. I''ll go days feeling so sick to the stomach that's one of the symptoms of having TMJ really bad and when it gets really bad i just end up feeling so sick to the stomach without having to throw up and other days I feel like it doesn't bug me at all. It's hard to remain so positive through this and every time it flares up really bad on me knowing there's not much to do about it besides apply ice and heat on it is just to cry it all out. For the first time since i had braces for the second time seven months into this fun mess and they are letting me have a break from getting my braces tightened and i get the easy appointment all i get to do is have x - rays done so we can see how everything is doing and see how my roots to my teeth are doing for the first time since my braces first came on 7 months ago. It will be nice to let my teeth relax with out getting pressured to be tightened again. There's times i think i should of waited to get braces and maybe did it next year but than again i just wanted to get this taken care of. I can't give up on it if i want this all fixed so i can be happy with my smile again and have my confidence back in my smile. I'm just glad i'm getting this all fixed while i still have the chance to get it fixed before its to late to fix it. Nothing keeps me going but being positive and strong through it all even though at times i cry about it and laugh about it. Sometimes its hard to believe i'm going through with this and I sometimes can't believe its me going through this. I just gotta keep my head up. Before i know it 15 months will be here and this will be all done.

Going Through a Break Up

This has been my mood lately. It's amazing how quickly my mood changed and how deep my heart could sink just cause a guy i met and became close with. Things went really well and we were both getting along with each other and we enjoyed spending time with each other. We eventually became boyfriend and girlfriend. He treated me right and was a sweet guy and a gentleman. Little did he know i was related to his boss. His face lit up like a little boy on Christmas Day when he asked me to be his girlfriend. I've never seen a guy so happy and excited to be my boyfriend. All though things are misunderstood and things didn't end up working so well. We ended on good terms we weren't fighting or arguing or anything bad. We were both bummed especially he was bummed since he was really excited to be my boyfriend but we tried making it work the best we could and well my mood quickly changed and my heart sank so deep over just one person that meant a lot to me. Were not on talking terms anymore and i'm not sure if things will ever work out between us again but maybe one day things will work out with the right person. 

Talking Teddy Bears

Awhile back ago me and my mom were at the store and we were getting in the check out line and they had these " talking teddy bears" near the check out. I was looking at one of them and it has a button to push and waiting for it to like sing or dance and i had no idea it did this until i said its not working hahahaha and the teddy bear repeats what i said back " Its not working" hahahahaha that is one Teddy Bear you have to be careful talking in front of cause once you push that record button thinking its going to dance or sing when really it records what you say and repeats it back. That wouldn't be good to swear in front of it when it records hahahahahaha that was so funny. I have never seen a bear where it repeats what you say. It had us laughing for a good while too.