My Journey to Surgery Begins

Well its official 15 months for surgery and i gotta say the journey to surgery begins. I met with my new orthodontist over the week and we talked about jaw surgery and what to expect and they also showed me how they will "wire" my mouth shut and its not what people think its actually where they use a bunch of rubber bands and they will use those to "wire" my mouth shut. They did a cool 3D x - ray on my mouth so we were able to see my mouth better and i got to see my skull which was interesting and cool. They were worried about my two top front teeth cause they couldn't see the roots very well so that's what the 3D one was for but now he's not so worried about it cause they look good i guess he was afraid that if they put braces on that it would do something to the teeth and roots if my roots weren't that good. They also took a bunch of pictures of me and my mouth and you look at my face and can't really tell if somethings wrong. I didn't know that if your missing more teeth on one side than the other side of the mouth your mouth actually shifts more which is weird i didn't know that till my mom pointed out that to the orthodontist that she noticed that my jaw has shifted which was true my jaw has shifted. The nice thing is they work with the oral surgeon i have so they were nice enough to notify and let him know that i had a consultation visit with the orthodontist and i'm also getting braces this Wednesday and the orthodontist wants a tooth extracted so i'm gonna have some fun this next week. They also gave me a copy of stuff to have and i just need to give my oral surgeon the disc with the 3D x - ray on it and they also gave me a cookie for being a new patient so i think i like them already. They were more nicer with me I honestly don't remember my last orthodontist being this nice to me as to where this orthodontist was opening up about what were going to be doing with my mouth unlike my last orthodontist i don't think he wanted to really say what was going on with my mouth but this one i have now was way more open and honest to me of how my bite is and how its going to be the next months before i get to be in surgery. Not only do i have a really bad under bite but i have a cross bite too that was new to me having a cross bite. He said his job is going to be messing up my under bite more and making it worse and i'm glad he told me that he was going to be doing that he told my mom he wanted to warn us cause he didn't want me coming back in complaining about more pain and not knowing that he was making it worse if he didn't tell me that he was going to do that so that's an honest orthodontist. He couldn't feel TMJ in my joints so there was no sign of TMJ during my appointment which was good. For now we are going to get the spaces to close in my mouth and i have a gap between two back teeth and its a pretty good sized gap so if we can't get it to close we might have to look into a dental implant. I know this is going to be a long process i'm not excited for braces again but i'm happy that this will finally be taken care of and i'll get braces off 8 months after surgery and i'll be able to get a retainer and wear it after the braces come off and even though we know my top jaw is getting moved forward my orthodontist told me to keep an open mind about double jaw surgery cause it may happen. We will just have to wait to see what my oral surgeon wants to do.

End of a Friendship

After the whole thing went down with the person who pissed me off. She attacked my Best Friend Ross just cause he didn't feel the same way she did and she wrote a rude comment about him on Facebook after reading about it on her page. I know it hurts to find out that the person doesn't have feelings for her like she does for him but she could of handled it a little better. I was thinking wow and knowing he's my best friend i felt so bad for him and i could tell that she found out how he felt about her and this was before me and him got to talk for the first time since this went down so last Sunday me and him finally got to talk on Skype it was a much needed talk that's for sure. I told him about what happened between me and Jennifer and simply said me and her weren't friends anymore. He was surprised and shocked to hear what happened and than he opened up to me about him talking to Jennifer the week before on Skype and telling her how he felt and he was telling me that he honestly didn't feel like himself around her the last time they hung out together he felt like he was around someone he didn't know anymore and he read the mean comment on facebook she wrote about him and told me he removed her as a friend he's like i don't need that in my life and he told me he asked her about me and asked if she had talked to me and this is where she gets a little snotty and bratty about it and said " no why would i?" just because i showed my support and was there at Ross's talk and she said this to Ross " No why would i? She didn't even show up to my talk." He's like well maybe she was busy and than he asked something else about me but she just ignored his question and talked about something else. I was like wow what an idiot i really did say that and he starts laughing cause she really is an idiot and i told Ross that i don't have her on Skype anymore i removed her and he was surprised to hear that and he asked me if this is the end of my friendship with her and i said the way its going yes it probably is the end of the friendship and he was telling me i should remove her off facebook. The only reason why i haven't fully removed her off is because its hard we've been friends for a good long time so its hard to just remove her off facebook. So she lost me and Ross and I told him about how she acted excited to see me for the first time since she pissed me off. We were in Spanish fork a couple weeks ago at Kmart looking at some stuff since we don't have a Kmart anymore here in Orem and i thought i wouldn't see her but turns out we ran into her and her mom while we were there. She acted like she forgot what she did to me and acted like nothing happened and she saw me and said " JESSICA" in a happy excited voice and came up and hugged me and i couldn't pull away from her hugging me. And I was telling Ross we only said two things to each other and she asked me how i was and i said good and she told me it was her day off that day i saw her and that was it we were silent the rest of the time. I told him she doesn't need to act excited to see me she knows what she did she knows she's mad at me. Were both a little frustrated with her and i that i feel like i was the mature adult out of me and her and she's 23 year old i'd think she'd know how a 23 year old is supposed to act and i'm younger than her and i feel like i know better than she does. It was nice catching up with him and i'm glad he was able to tell me stuff. So me and him are gonna be able to bond again and talk more than we used to which is nice. Maybe one day she will grow up and be an adult and quit attacking people around her.