What Hurts the Most

Its amazing how quiet i can be and hide stuff really good but what hurts me the most is having a friend that had a problem with me but wouldn't even talk to me about it to my face instead she had to go make it announced on Facebook blaming me for her being on Facebook along with "no offence" and is mad at me for it. Non offence taken here but she should know it wasn't me that got her into Facebook and having the guts to tag me in the post about me. So freaking immature were both adults here and i thought we were doing good cause me and her haven't had a fight since we were teenagers but i was wrong. Pissing me off for hurting my feelings it would of maybe been a little better if she just told it to my face than maybe my feelings wouldn't of been so hurt. I never responded to her stupid little thing she was trying to pull me into cause i let it go i'm going to be mature about it and be an adult about it. But thank you for getting my attention. Next time tell it to my face. I won't be talking to her or seeing her for a good long time and she never apologized for it either so she's okay with it. And i know my Best Friend Ross hates seeing me and her fight. For the time being she has lost being able to contact me on Facebook she's not allowed to like or see anything i post or comment on anything i have on my page and she can't see me on chat since i turned it off on her so it shows i appear offline to her even though i'd be really online. She gets this for treating me this way i didn't remove her as a friend i just put her as an acquaintance so were not really friends at the moment. I only have helped her with passwords for Facebook and it was her stupid choice to be on facebook its easy to not be on Facebook if you don't want to and it was another friend who got her on Facebook i've just helped her with passwords. If she has a problem with me than easy as 1 2 3 delete me or block me and she's not allowed to Skype me anymore since i removed her as a friend on Skype. I gotta say i'm glad she doesn't have my cell phone number. The funny thing is she tried making me laugh by saying something so stupid to me awhile ago. She somehow managed to get on my wall even though she has no access to it and I didn't even find it funny i found it rude so she really must like pissing me off.  Its like okay yes i know i get pissed off but still she can tell it to my face that she's mad at me for this instead of being a freaking immature idiot about it and announcing it all over Facebook and everyone that read that was probably thinking 

" what did Jessica ever do to you?" maybe next time she'll have the guts to tell it to my face if she has a problem with me. My mom knows what's been going on between me and her and the other day we were touring a model home and decided to drop by to get our big hero 6 movie that we left over there awhile back ago. My mom went up to their door with my brother Paul cause i refused to go and you can't blame me for the way she's treating me and later that night after getting the movie my mom was telling me Jennifer was asking "how is Jessica doing?" my mom replied with she's good. I know i was sitting out in the car but still she didn't care she would of mentioned " oh your mom and your brother came by to get your guys movie big hero 6" nope nothing not one word about it from her even though i was there sitting in the car. So she honestly doesn't care she's happy with the way she treated me. Even though I've let it go it still hurts that she has to treat me this way and to think all i did for her everything that i've been helpful with and just to be treated like this really shows that i don't think i'll be offering her my help anymore she's on her own if she gets stuck not being able to sign into facebook anymore. 

New on Etsy

Here's what is new on my Etsy page shared from my other Blog. I thought i'd advertise on my personal blog to.

   

 

 

 

I got some more new stuff to add on my Etsy store. Interested? or know someone that would like anything. Don't be afraid to share and contact me with any questions or request to have me make you a customized one. 

Reunited With my Best Friend

Yesterday I decided to go my Best Friends talk at church in Spanish Fork even though he knew i was going to go to it cause i joined his event on Facebook i planned on surprising him and sitting in the back just cause i didn't want to make it noticeable that i was there well that epic failed the moment i walked in. He passed by me to open the other side where more chairs were at and my mom i should of told her to be quiet lol and all the sudden she says out loud " Do you see Ross?" as i turn my head i see him on the other side of the chairs and i point at him i'm like there he is meeting up face to face and saying hi to each other i just couldn't stop smiling the whole time cause like just what he talks about just makes me wanna smile and laugh just thinking about him. There were two other speakers one that also came off his mission from Mexico and just a normal speaker. Ross couldn't stop looking at me at all either i kept trying to not look at him so much. I think he was surprised to see me there. He had a big smile on his face though like i was teasing him about his height cause he's tall and i stand pretty tall next to him even though he does make feel a little short but he did a good job on his talk i'm proud of him yes we may not talk to each other a lot but i am aware of what he does with his life and I really felt like i don't want to be a bad friend and not make him feel like i don't care or support him in his choices all though our other friend Jennifer wasn't there the least thing i could do was be there for him. We didn't say much to each other but the smile was sure going across his face and at the end when i told him that he did a good job on his talk and we shook hands lol i was getting ready to walk out and leave and i went up behind him and poked him in the back he turns and sees me behind him and he just kind of smiles and laughs about it the typical Jessica and Ross friendship lol. I'm still getting him back for driving me crazy with the song Love Hurts he knows i hate that song so he'll play it to annoy me hahahaha he's allowed to do that cause i let him do it but he knows when to stop. I'm proud of him and he's changed so much and grown up since i last seen him and i'm proud of him for the person he has become. We also stopped by my best friend Chaylyn's  house and dropped off a bag of clothes for her and caught up for a bit. I can't believe she'll be graduating next month. Crazy!  I sure do miss Spanish fork and i'm glad i got to spend some time there this morning. When we left we looked at some houses in Springville cause were still looking to move so we found some houses that were interested in. So hopefully we can get something soon.

Making Progress

Making progress! it"s crazy how fast things can change in a month. I've been back on my normal food diet since April 1st and it feels nice to chew on food and open my mouth wide again. I was able to eat a hamburger without a problem this time. The knot in my jaw is all gone and all the pressure is gone. I hope to not land on the soft food diet again till surgery happens hopefully it will stay that way. I'm all done with the dentist I finished my treatment plan last Tuesday so my teeth are healthy again and look brand new so i have somewhat confidence in my smile again still not all the confidence. Now here comes the part where its just up to my new orthodontist and oral surgeon in this mess to fix my jaw. I picked a good orthodontist one that got 5 star rating and over 70 reviews so i got myself a good orthodontist hopefully he will be a lot better than my old orthodontist. The way i talk about my old orthodontist makes it sound like i'm mad at him which i am cause i honestly thought when he told me five years ago " your going to need braces again" after he took them off here i am five years later getting them back on I don't know if this is what he was hinting at i guess i will never know the answer to that. But oh well i'm getting it fixed so it will be all taken care of. I'm not sure about a tooth guard anymore i guess after this jaw surgery if i really need one i'll have my oral surgeon make me one like he wanted to but its just so dang expensive yes i know it would be worth it to have it but hopefully after surgery i wont have to deal with TMJ anymore even though were fixing the jaw and under bite and maybe i won't have TMJ as bad as i do now even though i don't complain of pain cause it doesn't hurt but it still makes me feel so sick I feel so nauseated even though no throw up and i'm just tired and miserable its weird how TMJ can make me feel this way like I honestly haven't slept good at all either. I can't wait to meet with the orthodontist but for the braces not so much i'm not to thrilled to have them on at all. but hopefully everything goes the way we want it to go and i'll be able to have my smile back and my confidence back in my smile again. :)  

Easter & General Conference Weekend

With it being Easter weekend and General Conference just happened to land on Easter weekend. I'm going to say I can't say I'm not perfect. I watched General Conference for the first time in like maybe 4 years so i decided to finally watch it and see what i can learn from it and I loved the talks especially the one about family, marriage and how one of the General Woman authorities dedicated her talk to her husband and all the other husbands and a lot of encouragement and to focus on one particular subject they addressed in the session and how they said attending church is for the right reason. I being a Mormon and raised in the LDS church sure I don't go to church every Sunday like i should but I do make effort to show up even if its just going to sacrament and coming home I've been bad about putting off going to church a lot. But i like knowing my heavenly father is there for me especially when things get hard. He's there for me when no one else is there for me he's someone i can turn to when i need him the most and he know's what i'm going through and he feels my pain when i hurt. Its been nothing but a good blessing part of my life to be a Mormon I won't ever be a Molly Mormon but i will a least make my efforts to show up in church and be able to attend some of the Church things they have and I know my Heavenly father knows i will never be a Molly Mormon. I'm just glad to be a Mormon and have faith that everything i go through will be okay and someday  i will return to live with him again.

 Now to celebrate Easter I saw this video popping up around my Facebook feed from friends and family and  i thought it was good. Happy Easter Everyone! :)