Dreams Crazy Crazy Weird Dreams

I have no idea why but i had the weirdest dream ever it was a sad sad dream i dont even know why i was dreaming of this. So we live next to a bunch of teenage boys that smoke. It was soo random to dream about them all the sudden i just dreamed about them it was pretty horrible like it made me cry in my sleep. So one of the teenage boys offered me to smoke with them i said no i dont do that stuff im better off with out that crap. and to make it all better one of the boys i dont even know his name but dang he really liked me and i dont even know how this happened but i know they wouldnt do it to me in real life but they almost like would try to set me on fire or something and thats when i started crying i said to them in my dream this is not fair why are you doing this to me? i dont remember what the boy said but dang the dream had me crying in my sleep the rest of the night. I dont know why but i have a dream catcher near my bed but i dont think its working it feels like i have more dreams then ever soo i've been thinking about taking down the dream catcher. But yeah that was the most horrible dream ever and i woke up and trying to think what made me cry in my sleep and then it just hit me that i had a dream of those boys and stuff.

Today's Blogpost: Giving my Brother a Lesson on Life

Tonight while finding my brothers glasses cause he lost them once again! i think he does it so that way he doesnt have to go to school tomorrow but my mom said he would go no matter what if we didn't find his glasses. We finally found them actually i found them on the floor but anyways, Paul started talking negitive and saying i hate this family nobody likes me nobody cares about me i should just go to a new family i bet they will care and love me and he said i should just go kill myself. I told him Paul you came into our family for a reason. He said yeah soo everyone can hate me and be mad at me for stupid things i do and i dont even take care of my stuff like my glasses since he had lost them. Finally i said oh shut up! welcome to my childhood. Mom and dad love you they love all of us they care about you. before he could talk i finished what i was telling him i said dad told me what it was like when me and eric were little mom and dad struggled they struggled soo much they wanted to make sure we got the best christmas ever and make sure we got what we needed and what we wanted they wanted to give us the best they could. Just cause mom and dad cant always give you what you want doesnt mean you can just complain about it cause that doesnt help at all to sit here and complain about it. I told him i didnt always get what i wanted and yet i didn't complain about it and i said be thankful we got you toys would you rather have something then nothing at all??? he said i rather have something then not have anything at all. Sure we have had the depressing past year but dang it doesnt help to complain about it and it just drags us into more depression and unhappiness. I'm also getting sick of hearing him talking about killing himself i never thought id hear my brother Paul talk about it dang he thinks me and eric had the hardest childhood then he needs a slap upside the head and make the best of it cause he's only a kid once and once he's an adult he wont get to do what he used to do.
It gets sad everytime hearing him talk about it its like shut up paul i told him that i dont like him talking about killing himself he's like i dont care or thats nice. Id think being a kid would be the happiest part of growing up but hell to the no i am soo wrong apperently he's got himself in depression. Soon im gonna have it with him and tell him to knock this off and tell him its not good to talk about killing himself I just got through with 3 people of this depression crap. My Bff Jennifer had talked about killing herself or wishing she was never born and i finally had the nereve to tell her that i care about her and her family cares about her and killing herself isnt going to make things better sure it make her happy that she's gone but it leaves us the people she knew teared apart. and then this nit wit sick minded Phil has had some depression going on too he would complain about his problems and wanting to die and he would text me all of this and i texted back hey if your gonna just text me and tell me you wanna die and complain about how you hate life then dont bother texting me cause im sick and tired of hearing that you wanna die and then finally i got him to shut up and stop talking about killing himself i dont talk to him anymore though he's got a sick minded pervted mind when ever he talks to me and i found out he's got a major crush on me and he wishes he could be my boyfriend. Then the last final 3rd boy i got after for talking about killing himself Aaron that stupid head butthead idiot jerk. He has problems and he said if he didnt have me he'd kill himself over not having me and i cant handle that baggage and he said fine you dont believe me i'll kill myself then im not worth it for any girl anymore. Soo we had a fight and i said fine go kill yourself like i freaking care maybe that will shut you up and make you happy cause you know what it will leave alot of pain behind. cause i didnt believe in anything he told me i said you kill yourself i wont be at your funeral.
but finally i got him to shut up about it cause im like hey i dont wanna hear it from you too cause i already deal with it from other 2 friends i dont need a 3rd one to tell them to shut up and i dont like it when you talk about killing yourself. But yeah that was my lesson for the night to my little brother.

Wanna See Something Totallly Ridiculousness?

Hhahahahaha this has to be my favorite Episode hahahaa not only cause of Justin Bieber but its just sooo funny. hahahaha like how the girl says CANADADUHHH hahaahahahahahaha this will make you laugh and its totally ridiculousness hahahahahahahaha. :))) i laughed soo much watching this episode hahahahahahaha.

Another Birthday! Happy Birthday Best Friend (:

Today my Best Friend Shaliece turned 20 years old no more a teenager were sure grown up hahahaha i'm glad i met her hahahaha she's the reason for the craziness hahahhahaha. Especially when we have sleepovers and our inside jokes she's pretty awesome! Thankful for everything she has done for me and my family and helped us move in 2011 hahahahahahahaha i hope to hang out with her soon i miss her and the sleepovers we used to have hahahaha pretty insane haha staying up all night and laughing and talking about the boys pretty much only Tyler and Dallin though ahahaha. :) LOL
I hope she has an awesome day and a very Happy Birthday! (: hahahahahahaha.

1 Month Left from Today :(

Well its offical a month from today my Best Friend Dallin leaves for his mission aleast enters the MTC on March 13th and once he enters the MTC I wont be able to call him or see him all i can do is write to him ahhhhh saying goodbye is going to be the hardest thing like i might just end up crying at his mission farewell talk. Makes me realize how short of a time we have with him and i deffently need to really tell him now how i feel about him. Like now is the time to explain everything to him and let it all out in the open no matter how good or bad it goes aleast he will be able to know how i feel about him. Him and Silas i call him Si Guy (: still owe us Subways and i hope it happens before he leaves for 2 years. I know this will be the hardest thing ever its probably cause of so many feelings for him but i know 2 years will just fly by and he will be home again. But i hope to make this short time with him fun and i hope to see him soon its been crazy cause he's busy and im busy soo its like who knows when we can hang out and stuff. But im happy and proud of him he's gonna be one amazing awesome missionary and the best part will being able to countdown to the day he comes home again. (: that will be the best thing ever getting to countdown to the day he comes home from his mission. He's excited and ready for this and now its really time i find away to tell him everything he doesnt know about.

21? Noo wayyyy!!! Happy Birthday Girly Girl! :)

This is for my BFF Jennifer today she turned 21 ahhhhhhh noo way its CRAZZZYYY now she's legal to drink beer and achol and go to strip clubs and gamble hahahahahahaha talk about a wishful dream life there hahaha LOL She wont do it but she's legal to do it. hahahahahaha I got to spend the day with her hahahaha oh my gosh hahahaha non stop laughing we went to fat cats bowling place and had soo much fun bowling Jennifer came and got me and Paul it was sooo much fun I made some new friends and i saw my old friend Julie and Hannah hahahaha me and Julie had some pretty funny inside jokes hahahahaa for one don't smoke crack hahahahaha LOL Jennifer actually got root Beer for her birthday in place of beer since she's legal. hahahahaha I betcha im gonna get a beer for my 21st birthday you know hahahahaha even though it would be fake hahahahha nothing like having a 21st birthday with some beer and achol hahahahahaha and there was another group of people at the bowling place they had kids hahhaha and our inside joke of dont smoke crack hahahahahaha What if we went up to those kids and said dont smoke crack hahahahaaha Julie started saying hahaha they'd say stranger danger hahahahahahahaahaha then they'd ask their teacher teacher whats crack? hahahaha and then the teacher would be like hmmmm.. then they would be like can we try it? hahahahaha the teacher would say no hahahaha and then they would try it and say mommy i feel weird hahahahahahaha we also got Jmonkey Involved who ever that is it was on a license plate on the car in front of us hahahahaha and Nicole Jennifers cousin kept laughing soo hard she couldnt breathe hahaha she cried soo much she started crying hahahahahaha and she started some odd reason laughing at the bowling place something about karma hahahahahahahaha. then when we got back to the house we had cupcakes hahahahahahahaha oh my gosh Daniel started telling us jokes hahahaha oh my gosh the blonde joke hahahahahahahaha and purple hahhaha and how the blonde says what? hahaha Jennifers cousin said what? hahaha meaning she's a blonde hahahahaha. and Paul my brother started talking about BOB hahahahahahaha oh my gosh hahahahahahahaha Julie started laughing and saying you should name all your kids Bob hahahahahahahahaha. like all of us were just full of sugar and we got some pictures too hahahaha and some of the cupcakes had pinwheels on them and Julie and hannah and Daniel kept blowing air on them to make them go hahahaha oh my gosh Julie started getting light headed hahahahahaha and so we did presents before the cupcakes hahahahaha oh my gosh she got some good stuff for a 21 year old i hope she really likes my present hahaha soo it got to the time where we had to say goodbye and go home we took her other friends home first except Julie hahahahahahahaha oh yeah i cant forget about peacocks hahaha im sorry but hahaha yeah that word got us laughing soo much hahhahaha and we dropped them off hahahaha Hannah and me were just talking hahaha and nicole kept saying ohh pretty lights hahaha and hannah started saying pretty lights hahahahaha. then we somehow started playing the window game hahahahaha she's like we should hang out sometime hahahahahahaha and then we got to her house and dropped her off then we went to michealas i guess thats how you spell her name house and dropped her off and then we finally dropped Ana off she lives in the kinda of out of nowhere part of springville we had to  stop for a train longest train ever so finally we got to Ana's house wow she has a big nice house and she also has a farm from what Julie told me hahahhahahaha and then it was time to take me and Julie and paul home hahahahaha and the door accidently hit Jennifers butt hahahaha so we were laughing about that hahaha and after we dropped of Julie hahahaha we were heading up to my house hahaha oh my gosh we had suckers hahaha and candy hahahaha we got soo hyper hahaha we started laughing hahahaha and alot of dirty jokes came about hahahaha hahahaha she's like im sorry is that to much? hahaha like i said oh my gosh hahahaha and then she's like what was that to hot? hahahahahahahahahahaa like LOL hahahahahahaha oh my gosh i said we just got weird hahahahhahaha LOL it was a fun night im glad i got to go and have some fun cant believe it 21 shizz getting older hahahahahahaha I hope she had an awesome birthday hahahahahaha were pretty crazy weird hahahahahahaha now i get to join in on 21 in 9 months :) hahahahaha LOL we also joked about marrying suckers and honeymoons hahahaha cant say much cause its just rated R hahahaha LOL.

This Makes Me Soooo Happy

Today has been a good day hhahaha alot of laughs thats for sure hahahahaha.

Well anyways, I got thinking about Dallin and i thought about calling him tomorrow but then i thought nahh id call him right now and this was earlier today I just wanted to hear his voice soo bad and even though its been a good day and full of laughter I finally gave him a call and i thought oh no he's not gonna answer and here i had butterflies just going crazy and all the sudden he answered the phone.


hahahaha i got soo happy when he answered the phone and i said Hey Dallin he said Hi and he could tell who i was hahaha and so i asked him how are you? he said im good how are you? i said im good and then i just blurted it all out i said Dallin i wanted to ask you something. He's like yeah and what would that be? haaahahahaha like i just wanted to tell him i liked a boy but nope instead i asked him when can we go to Subways?? he said well hmmm i dont know i'm busy working and getting ready for my mission so i said okay he said he would let me know when we can do something so i asked him about Silas and he's like yeah we go to church and i told him to tell him hi for me he's like yeah i can do that by reading this i have become alot more calm around him im not laughing around him like i used to but i do giggle once in awhile hahaha but its not as bad as it used to be and so he asked me how things were going and i said they are good and i told him about my Job hahahaha he was surprised that my family owns the business and he told me to tell shaliece hi and I asked him about his mission farewell i hated to ask that cause its sad to know that its gonna be coming up fast and he's excited he's soo ready for this and im proud of him i can tell when i asked him about his mission farewell i think he's got it that id just go to his farewell which YES! Im going and i gotta get shaliece and a plan together so we can go to his mission farewell and then i asked him Hey Dallin he was being funny he's like Hey whats up Jessica? i just had the biggest smile on my face and i said have you done anything fun lately he's like not really but i did have my birthday not to long ago so i asked him oh what did you do? he's like nothing big just had an awesome dinner with my family and then i asked him about Taylor I'm like where did Taylor go? he told me he went to Germany and i asked does he like it there? he's like oh yeah he likes it.  Dallin said Hey Jessica i have to go me and my family are gonna watch a movie i said okay and i said we need to hang out soon he's like yeah for sure we will and then we said bye and hung up.

hahahaha soo tomorrow i'll have to call shaliece and let her know what i found out from Dallin and i hope soon we can hang out with him especially since our time with him is short and that day will come where we wont get to see him for 2 years. Especially once he enters the MTC then we deffiently wont see him.  I'm glad i got to talk to him tonight i'm glad i called him instead of calling him tomorrow.

Today's Blog Post: Boys Weird Boys

I have this friend his name is Kyle he's a weird one haahahahaha like really weird its like oh my gosh hahahahaha i call him pervted sometimes anyways since i stopped talking to him i havent talked to him probably since before or after my Birthday last year that was the actual last time i talked to him and me and my BFF never really got to talking about this cause Kyle would always be dirty talking with me asking for weird pictures and i never knew my BFF Jennifer got to be apart of it either hahaha til we hung out and we were making cookies and she started talking about Kyle at first i asked wait what Kyle?? cause i know so many of those and she's like our kyle hahaha yeah i knew what she meant by that when she said his name hahahaha soo she says yeah Kyle came over to our house with his girlfriend and apprently they are getting married this summer hahahaha you know here comes some inside jokes about this i started bursting out laughing when she started saying how kyle has been texting her and wanting some dirty pictures of her hahahaha just like with me hahahahahaha oh my gosh we had some inside jokes about that and like before she could say a word we just started laughing cause i knew what it was all about hahaha she had no idea Kyle done this to me too. hahahaha this is how it started from what she said from when kyle was at her house she went to pull down her shirt cause it was kinda up and showed some skin hahaha and i guess kyle got the idea of ohhhh im gonna get her to show me her full body hahahahahahaha cause thats when Jennifer also said i was a bad naughty girl i did what he wanted me to hahahaha. then thats when i opened up about it i was like oh wow i thought i was the only one that he did that to hahahaha she's like wait what he's done this with you too? i said yeah last year it got pretty dirty hahahaha and i honestly thought i was the only one but nope he got to my BFF too hahahahaha. I guess his Girlfriend has no idea whats going on hahahahaha but he's a bad boy. But i havent talked to him for a good while now its been almost 5 months now and he sent me a message on Yahoo Messanger one time He must miss me cause he told me to text him if i wanted to but my phone doesnt work at the moment He wasnt the only boy that it got dirty hahahaha I had 2 other boys Phil and this other dude Ramon get pretty dirty texting with but i dont talk to them 2 anymore hahahaaha sometimes boys have to be soo weird and pervted its like gross. but aleast me and my BFF talk about this stuff now im glad i dont hide it from her anymore. hahahahahaha like we laugh everytime i ask soo is kyle still texting you?? she's like yes he does hahahahaha like we dont have to say much about that and we end up laughing hahahahah.

Oh the Memories

Yesturday i looked back on my Senior Year in High School hahahaha i litterly just laughed. The moments in life I miss the most with all my friends and what I had written all about during my Senior Year in High School on another blog i have on this site. Pretty insane craziness hahahahaha. Me and my Best Friend Shaliece were pretty crazy hahahaaahaha especially when we pulled that prank hahahaha and especially when Dallin would tease Shaliece about our friend Andrew hahaha just cause she said hi to him all the sudden Dallin is like ohh Shaliece you do you like Andrew? hahaha she's like no that was the moment in life when i read from my past that was the moment like just slap him one hahaha all though we really didnt but we did mess with his hair hahahahaha and Dallin was still like Shaliece has a crush on Andrew hahahahaha there was another time i forgot Bubba teased me and Dallin cause me and him were both sick and Bubba said Jessica started this hahaha im like laughing and saying yes i did hahaha and then Bubba thought i kissed Dallin cause thats how he thought i got Dallin sick hahahahahaha like no i didnt hahaha he's like oh Jessica hahaha and then he asked Dallin. Dallin did you kiss Jessica?? hahahahaha he looked at me and said oh no Jessica should i tell him?? haha like he was playing along pretending he did kiss me hahahahahaha then he said nope i didnt kiss Jessica hahhahahaha i was just laughing and i was playing along hahaha and Bubba said oh you two hahahahahaha. I remember after Bubba teasing me and Dallin I told our friend Makenzie about it hahahahaha i said Makenzie Bubba teased me and Dallin he thought i got Dallin sick by kissing him hahahahahahaha she's laughing about it and said yeah thats Bubba for you hahahahaha. she told me Bubba will tease you hahahahahaha. Reading alot of this from my senior Year in High School hahaha makes me miss my friends i can't believe it were all done with high school still waiting for Brandon and Eli and Jaden to Graduate they get to Graduate in May. I still remember when me and Shaliece were going on our hot date with Silas and Dallin and this one boy Taylor saw me. He was actually in one of my classes Junior Year and i guess Silas couldnt contain the exitment of the date soo i guess word got out that we were going on a hot date hahahaha and this was when i was waiting for Shaliece to get out of choir class and Taylor happened to see me and asked me if i went on the date with Silas yet? I said no not yet but i will soon. He's like okay have fun hahahahaha. I still remember that time when the assitant principal would always see me and shaliece together even during lunch he'd see us together and one time i had to go in for a meeting that had to do with me and the assitant principal was surprised to see me and not Shaliece hahaha he said my gosh you 2 are pretty much hooked to the hip hahahaha. But if i remember right shaliece wasnt there that day. hahahahahaha it got to a point in High School nobody was used to seeing me with out Shaliece and there was days where she wouldnt be there and of course the boys are used to it. I remember me and Shaliece were walking around the commons area hahaha it was soo hot in there and She happened to say oh my gosh its soo hot in here hahaha and after she said that i said yeah its so hot in here your shirt fell off your shoulder hahahahaha. she's like oh my gosh hahahaha we laughed soo hard Tyler and Eli and almost everyone started looking at us like what just happened hahahahaha hahahahaha me and Shaliece still talk about that once in awhile hhahahahaha.and especially the moment when shaliece made a fool of her self in front of Eli hahahahahaha we were trying to explain the story that we wrote to him before we actually gave it to him and all the sudden shaliece moves her arm like she has a cane in her hand and she said Eli's name in a grandma voice hahahahaha i couldnt stop laughing and Eli was like what are you doing Shaliece? hahahahahahahhha oh my gosh just some of the memories i will always remember hahahahahaha like LOL even when me and shaliece's book bag got hooked together hahahahahahaha Dallin was like my gosh you 2 hang out soo much your hooked together hahaha and he helped unhook our bookbags hahahahaha. i miss these good times im glad i have made these memories hahahaha even just hearing Dallin say he is superman like i couldnt argue with that all though Tyler said no im superman hahaha me and Shaliece were like wow hahahahaha. :) even just writing about this makes me laugh.

This is What's New for This Week

So I forgot to write about my mom getting an over night job this past week at Walmart and my dad already works there he's been there since way before Thanksgiving and Christmas of last year. But anyways she didnt have a choice but to get a job over night at walmart its one of those things like your trying to make ends meet and this is one of those forced things to do. And you know i don't think my parents realize life its full of lessons to be learned you make a mistake and you learn from it and move on apperently they dont really understand that or they dont wanna accept that life is a lesson and this is one of the struggles that was a mistake and we pick up and learn what we did wrong from it and put it in our past aleast my mom doesnt wanna accept that life is full of lessons. So last night  was her first night and you know having parents both gone over night now is a dream come true you know its that exciting teenager adult moment where parents leave the house for the night and its like ohhh lets have a party type moment hahahahaha so we basically have had the house to our selfs soo far and its nice having both parents working and this is our second night home with out the parents and i got a good handle of my 10 year old brother soo he listens pretty good with me and I tell him when its time for bed which he was good at last night after he got his snack and drink i checked on him and told him that it was his bed time and i was being serious and he finally fell asleep around 11:30 or 12:00am sooo i kinda get the feeling of being a mom already. Which is good cause then when i have kiddo's someday it will help give me the idea of being a mom and i've babysat him all my life since he was born like i used to stay home from school and babysit him i was only 10 or 11 at the time and you know playing with dolls that would give the idea of taking care of a baby but having a real life baby to take care of since i was that age really helps alot. Soooo Pretty much this has been going on it feels weird though cause you'd think your parents get to sleep at home over night but this is for money they gotta do it for the money or were gonna be really stuck. But aleast they get a break from us for the night.

This is for My Friend Dallin

Today my Best Friend Dallin turned 19! I had a feeling he wasnt 20 just yet. One more year til he is 20 though hahahaaha. You know with me liking him and being friends with him on facebook sure i like alot of his pictures and stuff ;) hahaha I was trying to figure out what to write to him for his Birthday today. So I thought about writing soo many weird things to him hahahaha like one was gonna be Happy Birthday Stud!. Then i thought no i will save that for Eli's Birthday haha cause Eli is the studd not to be wrong Dallin is a stud but dang Eli takes the title not just cause thats his middle name he really is a studd and he's freaking tall for his age. But anyways then i thought what if i wrote rawrrr to him hahahaha then if i really did id write oops sorry thats supposed to be Happy Birthday! hahaha He'd be like JESSICA! hahaha he'd deffiently wanna ask me what that rawrr was all about.
Sooo as the day went by and i got distracted with the Pretty Little Liars episode! Goood Good sooo goood. :) and finally i thought mmmkay i really need to write on his wall and wish him a happy birthday. Soooo i wrote this Hey Dallin, Me and Shaliece just wanted to wish you a very Happy Birthday! (: Hope you have an awesome day. By the way we need to hang out soon. hahahaha I wasnt sure if Shaliece was gonna be able to write to him for his birthday so i just added her in this. Can't believe it he's 19 years old. Were all growing up! its weird not seeing him as much as i did when we went to high school together.We really do need to hang out with him though. hahaha. I love that boy soo much he has no idea. :)